Livin' only by Grace

hmmmm... -sigh- i had the greatest time with my friends just last week... hehehe... and un din ung 1st time na dumaan ako sa pink na overpass sa may tapat ng coastal mall [yuckersss!!!!] hmmmmm.... hehehehehe... nothing significant happened.. naglakad lang kami ng naglakad.. [malamang diba..!? kase walang car..] hmmmm.. from luneta park to intramuros.. then back to baywalk.. hehehehehhe.. -sigh- the "loner-mode-walking-silently times" were the best... kahit na di kami nagkwekwentuhan.. ung tipong kasama ko lang sila habang tahimik was the moment na hinahanap ko pala... hehehehhe... being with my friends in the midst of a lot of things bothering you is not enough.. them, being with you in silence was the BEST!!!! ewan ko kung talagang hinahayaan lang nila kong tumahimik.. hehehe.. pero kahit ano pa man ang dahilan, dat was the best moment in my life i had with my friends... divine friends... ndi naman ganun katahimik.. pero basta! ang hirap i-explain... lam kong pagod kaming l...

i miss you guys...

hmmmmm... i just enjoyed the silent moment with my friends yesterday... it was the best time ever!!!

Never be sympathetic with a person whose situation causes you to conclude that God is dealing harshly with him. God can be more tender than we can conceive, and every once in a while He gives us the opportunity to deal firmly with someone so that He may be viewed as the tender One. If a person cannot go to God, it is because he has something secret which he does not intend to give up— he may admit his sin, but would no more give up that thing than he could fly under his own power. It is impossible to deal sympathetically with people like that. We must reach down deep in their lives to the root of the problem, which will cause hostility and resentment toward the message. People want the blessing of God, but they can’t stand something that pierces right through to the heart of the matter. If you are sensitive to God’s way, your message as His servant will be merciless and insistent, cutting to the very root. Otherwise, there will be no healing. We must drive the message home so forcefull...

blurred... no.. actually, nothing's blurry... pero almost everything seems bothering to me... -sigh- if i'll be given a chance to do something, that would be to go to a place... sit wit a friend... be silent for few moments.. and that's it... -smile- i think that would make me smile... how i wish may park dito sa village namin... hehehehehe... maybe i'm shocked... still shocked... medyo wala pang laman masyado utak.... -whew!- but my God's grace... i know things shall come to pass... i already laid it under His feet... -smile- i know what to do... to just pray and do nothing unless God tells me to do so... -sigh- yes, i've been drained... ng ndi ko alam... -whew- it's like whoooaaaaaa.... but everything seems clear to me right now... i just have to ask for wisdom with what to do... 'cause i can't do it... welcome to my world of silence...

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hmmmmm.... i just had a dream last night... hehehehe.... medyo magulo ng eh.. and i remember the incidents [almost all] that happened... puzzled lang ako sa guy na to... he' s with us.. and parang tropa ko ata..?! pero ang magulo kase ung "tropa" na kasama ko dun, ndi ko sila kilala... i hardly remember their faces na nga eh.. tapos there's this guy na part ng tropa na un na may feelings sa kin... tapos.. hahahahah!!!! un... nakapagtataka kase ndi ko sila kilala... ngayon, ndi ko na matandaan face nia... wala lang... *************** guilty... hehehehe... ganun pala ung feeling ng guilty!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh... to whomever God is preparing for me... sorry... medyo ... hehehehehe.... -grin- medyo may tinignan ako.. and medyo... whew!! sorry... hehehehehe

-sigh- realizations... realizations... realizations... -sigh- sometimes you have to slow down and ponder about some things... hehehehe... sometimes you have to walk and not run.... sometimes you have to take a deep breath... relax... sometimes you just have to listen... sometimes you just have to be silent... sometimes it helps if you'll just cry a little... and a little more... sometimes.... yeah, sometimes... sometimes we fall out of track... sometimes we go astray... sometimes we rely on our own... sometimes it's hard to move on... sometimes it's hard to take that step... sometimes the only thing you're thinking of is just giving up... sometimes you just don't want to go on anymore... sometimes it hurts a bit... sometimes there seemed to be no reason to smile... sometimes it's just... -sigh- sometimes you'll just realize you're a failure... sometimes you'll realize that you've messed up... sometimes you can't feel the embrace of your Fathe...

-sigh- just came from a place wherein you know you really failed GOd... i just came from a place wherein i know that i cannot boast anything... i've messed up... i wasn't ok... i was bad... and i'm just patching things up between me and my God.. and whew!!! grabe lang ang pagkilos ni Lord... ang sarap pala ng feeling na alam mong talaga nagre-rely ka lang sa Holy Spirit... you were not ok... but then, that's not the question... do you have that faith that God can still use you whatever circumstances you are facing as of the moment...?! and yes... whew... it's really faith God... what happened a while ago was a matter of faith... i just saw this little girl... trying to patch things up... trying to fall into the arms of her Creator once again... starting again... but then, she didn't mind her incapabilities... she didn't mind if she feels good or ok or not... what was on her mind is that she won't allow her Father's work to be stopped just because she...

-sigh- i just thought that everything was through... but then... oaaaaaaahhhhh... -sigh- -sigh- -sigh- -sigh- -sigh-

hmmmm.. can't think of anything to post.. as of the moment.. hehehehe... hmmmmm.... wala lang... -sigh- -sigh- -sigh- -wink-

Life without war is impossible in the natural or the supernatural realm. It is a fact that there is a continuing struggle in the physical, mental, moral, and spiritual areas of life. Health is the balance between the physical parts of my body and all the things and forces surrounding me. To maintain good health I must have sufficient internal strength to fight off the things that are external. Everything outside my physical life is designed to cause my death. The very elements that sustain me while I am alive work to decay and disintegrate my body once it is dead. If I have enough inner strength to fight, I help to produce the balance needed for health. The same is true of the mental life. If I want to maintain a strong and active mental life, I have to fight. This struggle produces the mental balance called thought. Morally it is the same. Anything that does not strengthen me morally is the enemy of virtue within me. Whether I overcome, thereby producing virtue, depends on the leve...

hehehehe... hmmmm... i was just amazed.... gazing at GOd's glory.... gazing at His goodness... feeling the comfort of His embrace... hiding under the shadow of His wings... oh, what a feeling... it feels good to be in God's presence... haha!!! 'coz the enemy has been defeated.. and death couldn't hold you down.. we're gonna lift our voice in victory.. we're gonna make Your praises loud...! shout unto God with a voice of triumph! shout unto God with a voice of praise! shout unto God with a voice of triumph! we lift Your name up! WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP! haha!! nobody's exempted in experiencing trials.. especially that kind of trial.. i've just been there.. and whoa... hehehe.. i really didn't expect that i'll still experience those... whew! and yes!!!! i just came from a tight battle... -loud sigh- and i'm glad and very proud to say that indeed i'm more than a conqueror!!! THE BATTLE IS GOD's and VICTORY IS MINE!!! hahah!!! oh Lord... o...

Found myself today Oh I found myself and ran away Something pulled me back The voice of reason I forgot I had All I know is you're not here to say What you always used to say But it's written in the sky tonight So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching over me Seen that ray of light And it's shining on my destiny Shining all the time And I wont be afraid To follow everywhere it's taking me All I know is yesterday is gone And right now I belong To this moment to my dreams So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching over me It doesn't matter what people say And it doesn't matter how long it takes Believe in yourself and you...

-sigh- hmmm.. give me some more time... and my mind's gonna work... i totally forgot what i was about to type... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......... just came from something that was.. oooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh... aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggh.... whew! Lord... i never really expected this thing to just come.. and whew.. i never thought that i would really be blinded... -sigh-... and whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... i hope you got me right guys... [to whomever is reading this.. hehe!] -sigh- -sigh- -sigh- but i'm doing good already.. being close to getting focused.. ulit..! haha! and whew.. hehehhe.. anu ba yan! wala pa rin akong ma-type... hmmm.. lessons... lessons.. lessons... [didn't bring my pocket notebook kase dito kila ate kaye eh!!! hmp!] When tempation comes... it means that God leaves you for a while to be tested by the enemy... you have two options - to give in, and settle for second best... or to seek for more of God's love in your life...?! =)

. . . .. i think i'm out of words to say.. or words can't express what i want to say... Hold on just keep on holding on it may not be for long just keep on holding on with Me

hai.... sa mga nakakaintindi... hai nako... heheheheheh... hai.. bubugbugin ako ng mga tao... hehehehehhe...

When passion takes on a purpose And searching ones embrace the light When skeptics find themselves down on their knees You'll know it's here When you hear a sound as loud as thunder And you hear a cry that shakes the ground beneath you When you hear a shout that shatters the darkness You'll know it's here When the lost find a name worth believing in And the fallen get back onto their feet And the broken start to dream again And the sound of hope fills these streets You'll know it's here Revolution Can you feel it Revolution cry Revolution Can you hear it Revolution cry And I believe it And I believe it How long do we have to wait And how long will we stay silent When will this weeping generation dance again Oh God when will The truth be restored When the lost find a name worth believing in And the fallen get back onto their feet And the broken start to dream again And the sound of hope fills these streets You'll know it's here Feel it rising up The cr...

i was really interested in studying the life of Paul.. whew... for me it's really cool.. well, it's not cool to be persecuted, stoned to death, and all.. but this man endured it all!!! whow... and i was amazed at how God just used him mightily.. whew... pambihira!!!! this morning, upon meditating on the word of GOd.. grabe!!! i just felt Paul's fire... to just go to the ends of the earth and chase GOd.. spread the word even though there's an expected persecution.. alam mo ung taong parang walang ibang gustong gawin kundi mag-share lang ng Good news... pambihira...! willing to accept all the pain, etc... stoned to death pero tatayo pa rin... whew.. grabe!!! no man can share the Gospel that boldly... unless he is empowered by the Holy Spirit... no man can endure all the sufferings, persecutions, and all.. unless he realized that GOd is burning because of His love for him... no man can share God's goodness... unless his wisdom is from God.. no man can embrace all the ...

Waiting period is God's way of testing our absolute dependence on Him! God doesn't change His mind, we do! So don't get tired of waiting.. for God will give it to You!!! hmmmm... when i had my interview at HSBC.. whew!! from 9am-6pm, 75% of my time was spent with waiting.. whew!!! if i were to sum up the time i've spent with the interview, exam, then interview.. it took me about 3 hours to finish those!! whew!!! it was really very dragging to wait.. hehehehe.. but i know that in those times of waiting, God is teaching me something.. but i haven't figured it out until early this morning..! haha!!! i know that in waiting, one of the things that's tested is your patience.. haha!!! and whew!! but i'm searching for a more deeper answer/ reason... i'm also aware that it is a stage wherein you can do your things in preparation for the future.. you should redeem your time!! hahaha!! and just early this morning, this quote was just impressed in my heart! haha!!!...

hehehe... -sigh- i'm about to go to alabang tomorrow.. for an interview... hehe.. im about to work at a call center... haha! and LOrd.. whew!!! if it's really You're will, then i know that you'll arrange my shift.. etc.. You'll speak for me... whew... may JREV pa tomorrow.. so how am i suppose to go there..!? whew LOrd! if it's Your will for me to pass.. then i will pass... -sigh-

there are days, when i feel the best of me, is ready to begin then there's days, when i feel i'm letting go, and soaring on the wind cause i've learned in laughter and in pain how to survive chorus: i get on my knees i get on my knees there i am before the love that changes me see i don't know how but there's power when i'm on my knees i can be, in a crowd or by myself, almost anywhere when i feel, there's a need to talk with God, he is Emmanuel when i close my eyes no darkness there there's only light repeat chorus ending i don't know how but there's power in the blue skies in the midnight where i'm on my knees

By bob Jones The Lord took me to a place and I saw the great prophets of the Bible. I saw Elijah, Elisha, I saw all the prophets of the Old Testament. I was the apostle John, the martyrs. And they’d all been told by the Lord to stick their hands into the sand of time. As I watch them, they would pick up a shoebox. One of them was the Apostle Paul. And he brought the shoebox up and he said, “It’s my time.” The apostle Paul believed that what was going to happen now! was going to happen in his time. And he opened the shoebox, and it was empty. And so another prophet came behind him. And the Lord said, “Stick your hand into the sand of time.” Every prophet they all believed it was going to take place in their time and it did to a measure because all the wisdom that is down here now comes through these men and each one added something to the sands of time. It came my time and He said, put your hands in the sands of time and pull up the shoebox. And I said, “Why Lord? E...

Scattered words and empty thoughts Seem to pour from my heart I've never felt so torn before Seems i dont know where to start But its now i feel your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in your truth I still believe in your holy word Even when I dont see I still believe Though the questions still fog up my mind With promises i still seem to bear Even when answers slowly unwind It's my heart I see you prepare But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain The only place I can go is into your arms Where I throw to you my feeble prayers in brokeness I can see that this is your will for me Help me to know you are near

haaaii.... sa wakas na-open ko rin tong blog ko! nyahahahahahaha... hmmmm... for the past days kase na gusto kong mag-post, laging topak ang pc... nways... yan tuloy.. late ang mga posts... heheheh.... hmmmm... ano nga bang ippost ko....!? can't think of any... as of the moment.. haaaaaaaay....

The journey of the heart does not ever reach an ending point. For all of eternity it continues as love increases and unfolds. We move through the phases and seasons of God's embrace, the dance of intimacy, until we finally see His face. And then for all the ages to come, love will unfold and unfold in the abundance of its full content... This place of mature love is also the point of no return. When we are gripped and possessed by love's passion, we have crossed over into the place where we could never again return to what previously gave us pleasure outside of Him... -from the writings to the bridal generation hmmm... these are some of my favorite lines.. hehehehe... it really feels great to be in love... with your Creator... when you are consumed by love's fire, you can never really return to who you were before... because all you'll desire is to be more intimate with your Creator... to be more and more consumed by His love.. to pursue purity, righteousness, and holin...

find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him. who wills tay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.. who holds your hand in front of his friends..wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you... wait for hte one who turns to his friends and says, "... that's her..." hehe.. just received this from a classmate.. hehehe... but i say... i'd rather find a guy who would draw me closer to God... i'd rather find a guy who cares about his integrity... i'd rather find a guy who's radically in love with Jesus Christ... i'd rather fiind a guy who's willing to die for the cause... i'd rather find a guy who would be willing to obey God inspite and despite of every circumstances! for i know that whomever that person is, he would truly love me and...

an excerpt from my other blog at multiply.com since i can't open the page of my blog at blogspot.. [kase ba naman na-block dito sa computer na to!!! grrr!!!] hmmmm... dito ko na lang ippost ang mga ippost ko... and ano nga ba yon..?!?! heheheheeh.. i already forgot it.. hmmmm... alot of things are going on in my mind.. and i'm confident to say that i'm not afraid to take the next step.. it's not wrong to give your all to your Creator.. even if it means death...even if it entails sacrifice... who cares!! my Creator died and gave His all for me..i might as well give my all to GOd.. oh... upon typing this.. i want to cry.. just want to cry... i'll fall into Your heart_i'll fall into Your arms_Your fragrance leaves me marked_daydreaming of Your touch.. now, i've truly stepped out of the line... embraced being uncommon man.. i'm living for a higher purpose.. willing to forego the legitimate pleasures of this world to know the higher purposed God has for me..i...

08.11.2005 1129pm Amidst the anxieties that I have I want to see Your hand I want to seek Your face And I will be alright In the middle of my confusion I want to hear Your voice Pushing me, cheering me And I will be alright Despite of the ever changing circumstances I want to feel Your embrace Hugging me tight through the darkest night And I will be alright Allow me to walk in Your ways Spare me from fleeing from Your will Grant me Your grace to fulfill Your plans And i will be alright

Martha believed in the power available to Jesus Christ; she believed that if He had been there He could have healed her brother; she also believed that Jesus had a special intimacy with God, and that whatever He asked of God, God would do. But— she needed a closer personal intimacy with Jesus. Martha’s theology had its fulfillment in the future. But Jesus continued to attract and draw her in until her belief became an intimate possession. It then slowly emerged into a personal inheritance— "Yes, Lord, I believe that You are the Christ . . ." ( John 11:27 ). Is the Lord dealing with you in the same way? Is Jesus teaching you to have a personal intimacy with Himself? Allow Him to drive His question home to you— "Do you believe this?" Are you facing an area of doubt in your life? Have you come, like Martha, to a crossroads of overwhelming circumstances where your theology is about to become a very personal belief? This happens only when a personal problem brings the a...

i just can't post it... sana pwedeng video na lang to para makita kung gano ko gustong umiyak.... ... .. ... .. ... .. .. ... .. ... ... how radical can you go..?! may basehan ba ang level na dapat ganun ka lang ka-radical kay LOrd...?! .... .. ... ... ... ..

i've been reading this long-time favorite book of mine [it was my favorite even though haven't even read it... =)] and i just would like to post some of my favorite lines.. nyahahahahaha... "you have searched for true love in your own way. But My ways are not your ways. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first, you must trust Me with the pen of this precious area in your life. Will you let Me write your love story???" [hmmmmmm... everyone dreams of that "something".. to have that perfect love story.. but unless we give the pen to our Creator... then and there we'll be able to experience that kind of story...] God created us with a desire for companionship. He designed us to intensely long for intimacy - spiritual, emotional, and yes, even physical. He did not make us this way and provide with us these longings as a form of cruel torture, but as the most perfect gift He could possibly give us... [yeah!] If you really desire to one day d...

Is there not a cause?I Sam. 17:29 When the nation is crushed under the heel of the tyranny of corruption, is there not a cause? When fathers and mothers, sons and daughters flee to other shores to work as slaves in brothels, as educated domestics doing menial chores – is there not a cause? When the brightest minds and the most promising young professionals excel and progress in other countries but have no opportunities to bloom to full potential in their own – is there not a cause? When hopelessness grips the hearts of the old and only darkness looms on the horizon for the young, is there not a cause? When greed and dishonesty in public service is the norm and integrity and honesty are deemed foolish, is there not a cause? Is there not a cause, o young and old revolutionaries, to lift up the banner of Christ and take a stand in holiness and purity so that light becomes distinguishable from darkness? Is this not a cause worthy for us to give our lives to – to see Jesus and His kingdom e...

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth Would care to know my name Would care to feel my hurt Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star Would choose to light the way For my ever wandering heart Not because of who I am But because of what You've done Not because of what I've done But because of who You are I am a flower quickly fading Here today and gone tomorrow A wave tossed in the ocean Vapor in the wind Still You hear me when I'm calling Lord, You catch me when I'm falling And You've told me who I am I am Yours, I am Yours Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin Would look on me with love and watch me rise again Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea Would call out through the rain And calm the storm in me Not because of who I am But because of what You've done Not because of what I've done But because of who You are I am a flower quickly fading Here today and gone tomorrow A wave tossed in the ocean Vapor in the wind Still You hear me when I'...

God never speaks to us in dramatic ways, but in ways that are easy to misunderstand. Then we say, "I wonder if that is God’s voice?" Isaiah said that the Lord spoke to him "with a strong hand," that is, by the pressure of his circumstances ( Isaiah 8:11 ). Without the sovereign hand of God Himself, nothing touches our lives. Do we discern His hand at work, or do we see things as mere occurrences? Get into the habit of saying, "Speak, Lord," and life will become a romance ( 1 Samuel 3:9 ). Every time circumstances press in on you, say, "Speak, Lord," and make time to listen. Chastening is more than a means of discipline— it is meant to bring me to the point of saying, "Speak, Lord." Think back to a time when God spoke to you. Do you remember what He said? Was it Luke 11:13 , or was it 1 Thessalonians 5:23 ? As we listen, our ears become more sensitive, and like Jesus, we will hear God all the time. Should I tell my "Eli" what...

hmmm.. it feels great to have opened the on-line devotional and this will shock your face...!! nyahahahahaha.. but yes, i'm blessed to have been able to read this one.. thank you LOrd! Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations . . . —Matthew 28:19 Jesus Christ did not say, "Go and save souls" (the salvation of souls is the supernatural work of God), but He said, "Go . . . make disciples of all the nations . . . ." Yet you cannot make disciples unless you are a disciple yourself. When the disciples returned from their first mission, they were filled with joy because even the demons were subject to them. But Jesus said, in effect, "Don’t rejoice in successful service— the great secret of joy is that you have the right relationship with Me" (see Luke 10:17-20 ). The missionary’s great essential is remaining true to the call of God, and realizing that his one and only purpose is to disciple men and women to Jesus. Remember that there is a passion ...

Ei...wala lang...parang related lang tong devotional na nabasa ko dati...It's really a joy to obey God..pag ganyan na yung reaction mo sa pinapagawa ni Lord, you have reached a level higher...but the pain starts when you see a love one (friends,family, relatives) having a hard time because of your /our obedience...that is where intercession and prayer comes..hehe..ayun lang.. singit lang... this is the devotional: What My Obedience to God Costs Other People If we obey God, it is going to cost other people more than it costs us, and that is where the pain begins. If we are in love with our Lord, obedience does not cost us anything— it is a delight. But to those who do not love Him, our obedience does cost a great deal. If we obey God, it will mean that other people’s plans are upset. They will ridicule us as if to say, "You call this Christianity?" We could prevent the suffering, but not if we are obedient to God. We must let the cost be paid. When our obedience begins to ...

i've just realized that it's really hard to be strong... -sigh-

champ13 , originally uploaded by mheries . demons!! niyahahahaha... ano kayang feeling if everything around you is dark..?! everything that surrounds you is bad.. you are surrounded by demons... everywhere..?! what will you do...?!?! how would you react..?! will you be able to stand..?! shine for your God..?! o hindi ka na rin nila madi-distinguish from the others..?!

just recently, the first literature festival was held in our campus DLS-HSC... and whew!!! by God's grace!! we became the CHAMPIONS!!! the prize... and not only that.. we also won lots of awards... =) just an overview... the offer is a story of a demon, who is about to receive his father's throne only in 3 conditions: he will lead the mortals to commit rape, suicide, murder.. next, he should not fall in love.. and lastly, he will kill an angel... to cut the story short... the angel and him fell in love with each other.. but then, the demon, not allowed, took his own heart and gave it to the angel just as he promised... and then.. both of them met at the mortal world... and this is me.. nyahahahahaha...

[segway muna...hehehe...] I will live to love You... I will live to bring you praise I will live a child in awe of You... ***** hehe.. these are some of my solo shots when we had our recollection at Light of the World, Silang, Cavite... hehehehe.. i wonder where are the other photos! hmmmmp! they haven't mailed it to me yet... =c hehehehehe... hmmm.. what can i say about our recollection..?!?! hmmm.. parang biglang nakalimutan ko na nga ang mga nangyari nun eh.. pero hindi.. haha! sa wakas, we had our overnight recollection ulit! nung 2nd year kase, whole day lang..buti na lang ngayon [kase sa HSC na kami] over night na... hmmm.. highlights.. - pain offering... well, we had our groupings that night.. and hehehehe... umiral ang pagka-facilitator ko! nyahahahahaha!! walang magagawa ang mga classmates ko eh! ehehehehe... well, kala ko nung una, it won't work-out kase parang ndi ko alam kung anong meron sa mga ka-group ko.. but i praised God kase ciempre, [malamang!] si Lord mis...

[hmmmm... no available computer... i mean, no available computer that has an internet connection... hehe...] i'm here at the library.. and ... wala ngang mga computers.. ang konti na lang!!! -sigh- nways, that would not surpass that joy and the blessing that i had.. that would not outstand the joy tha i had.. i've been blessed and amazed at how God worked.. grabe!!! He's really opening doors.. and He's always on time... it feels great to get to know other Christian youths that are setting apart their lives for God's glory alone.. it's really a blessing to see these people working for God's kingdom.. and i'm glad that God also used me to be a blessing to these guys... haha! as to what i can remember... before, campus ministry kinda tickled into my mind.. i just want to reach out to this campus.. my school.. my university... then just this semester, i've learned that there are froup of people who are having devotions every friday... sayang nga lang kas...

yan! ok na!!!

what's the problem... can't figure it out kung bakit nasa baba ung isang column!!!

hehe.. i would like to apologize... this blog is under construction.. but the author is not.. hehe... =)

[haven't been able to focus reviewing.. i felt like i have to do something first.. and this is it! okei! i have to blog this!] for the past weeks, i have been moved... -sigh- i'm experiencing this intimate relationship with God that i have been longing for.. [and i'm longing for more!!! more of Him...] haha! i don't know.. but as of the moment.. i'm addicted to praying.. praying and praying and praying... i'm glad that God taught me that... despite of the things happening around me... i felt God's peace.. there are lots of things God has prepared for our ministry... and i know and i do believe that in His own time.. the floodgates of heaven will be opened... and God's glory will be revealed...! =) ***** another burden's being placed in my heart right now.. -the campus-... whew! and i do believe that GOd will use CHristian youths to shine for His glory.. to extend His love to other people.. to introduce Him to these people... God will just change this...

haha! i was about to go to SM to buy my toiletries for later's recollection.. just got a 500peso bill and about 17 peso coins... i forgot to think that the tricycle's fare increased.. and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!! after i got out of the tryke, my jeepney fare lacks one peso.. pambihira.. since i'm sure the jeepney driver does not have a change in 500-peso bill, and i'm about to send an e-mail to my cousins in the States, i've decided to just find a computer shop and send the e-mail! and wow!!!! God really moves in different ways and everything happens for a purpose.. one of my cousins is on-line!! haha!!! and so i was able to say what i want to say and for a while extend God's blessing to them.. whew.. i don't know but it feels great! just for that one peso, a small piece of coin... turned out to be a blessing! ang cool talaga ni Lord!

just received these messages from my friend early this afternoon... "Thy will be done..." means: Lord, whatever i know to be Your will, i'll do it. regardless of the cost and regardless of the adjustment, as best i know my heart, i commit myself to follow Your will. Lord, no matter what that will look like, I'LL DO IT!!! you have to decide whether you are going to do what you want and ask God to bless it or go to work where He is working! Understanding spiritual truth does not lead you to an encounter with God... it is the encounter with God! step by step in our walk with Jesus, we will find that the call to relationship is also a call to be on mission with Him.. just like His disciples... as long as God knew where i was, He could cause anybody in the world to know where i was.. as long as He knew my need, He could place that need in the heart of anybody He chose! understanding what God is about to do where i am is more important than telling God what i want to do for...

this kid taught me a lot! [hmmm.. this entry was out of time.. haha!!! it's been about 3 weeks ago since i wanted to post this entry..] there came a point in my life wherein i didn't feel God's presence... haha! but i praise Him because He keeps on speaking His words in different ways! this kid really taught me a lot... i met this kiddo in the daycare at imus when we had our duty there... i don't know pero ang gaan ng loob ko sa kanya... then he asked me if i could help him write number 7... and i just did... then, one of the kids told me that he does not like writing but when i'm teaching him, nagtaka daw ung kid [na isa] at nagsulat siya... [i almost forgot what really happened but not what i've learned...] he told me... " hindi ko makakalimutan ung ginawa nating number seven... bukas ulit ah! para may ipapakita akong star sa mommy ko..." oh my! i was touched... i don't know... somehow i felt flattered.. but then... God made me realize something....

JREV - Baguio... the life-changing experience we wouldn't forget for the rest of our lives... i miss you guys... [from left: ate weng, ate mara, joan, me, ate gil; back-left:rj, justine, robie-took the shot!]

the following story really touched me and almost made me cry... whew!!! GOd's really great! Some years ago, on a hot summer day in south Florida, a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore. His mother, in the house and looking out the window, saw the two, as they got closer and closer together. In utter fear, she ran toward the water, yelling to her son as loudly as she could. Hearing her voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his mother. It was too late. Just as he reached her, the alligator reached him. From the dock, the mother grabbed her little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of-war between the two. The alligator was muc...

these peeps are the best!!! ehehehehe.. they're best of friends of course!

-whew!- everything just fall into their right places! haha!! i was blessed.. though i'm kinda i don't know! -sigh- grabe lang ang nangyari sa kin ngayong week na 'to.. something like i can't describe.. [maybe it's really between me and God..! haha!] hmmm.. i don't know where and how to start... -sigh- i know that i'm happy.. i'm amazed at how God is moving in my life right now... i'm amazed at how HE's arranging things for me... at how He's insisting to put the things in their proper places... first, with regards to my family... -sigh- i'm not like this before... i'm the type of person who's sweet and caring but i'm pretty sure my parents sort of don't realize that.. i'm struggling so hard to tell and express that i love them so much.. but then, i praise God 'cause i know, gradually, He's mending my relationship with my family... and that's one thing i'd like to do... to honor my father and my mother in...

as of the moment... this is what God has been teaching me... i mean, teaching me in a deeper way... or in a more valuable aspect...? in a bigger area... hmmmm.. to start with, this song summarizes what i really feel... and i have come so far You changed me by Your Word and purified all of my desires I know that we will never part You called me as YOur own and know i live to find my rest in You I give my life each day that i live to be holy and faithful LOrd 'cause i know You live in me So i can love You more than this LOrd more than the things of this world... to love You is all i wanna do Jesus, You're the beacon of my heart You're the light in the dark.. and know i live this life for YOU ALONE... *From now on, i walk in full surrender to give the things i hold so dear... for You i'm letting go.... this song's one of my favorites whenever i realize that i've grown a little bit... whenever i realize that i'm far as in very far from who i was before... ! and ...

I stand here before You in wide open wonders amazed at the glory of You... the power of heavens revealing Your purpose in me... as i'm reaching for You... Lord, if there'd be one thing that my heart wants to do right now, it would be worshiping You... loving You... surrendering my every all to You... my Best Friend, Lover, Savior, Father, King, Master.... i just want to come to You right now to feel Your embrace... i don't know... i don't have any clue as to what to do... things seem to be a bit blurry... i don 't want to do something that's not part of Your plan... i know i can't get opinions from everyone as to what to do... but i don't know if i should follow what's on my mind right now... i can't pray.. -not yet ready...- [haha! is that possible!!?!?!?! joke!]... i can feel that there's something You want me to do but i'm not sure yet if it's from You... -sigh-... -sigh-... -sigh-... it's really hard.. i don't know... [am ...

hmmmmm... i don't feel like posting anything... but since gusto kong may magawa... i'll post... hmmmm... medyo marami sana kong gagawin kaya lang... wala lang... hmmmm.... tomorrow, duty nanaman sa fabella... dapat 6-2 kami e.. kaso naging 2-10!!! pambihira... pero sa tingin ko lang, malamang... God has a purpose... and there always will be!!! ***** EUTHANASIA is this a big deal to you...?!?! would you be in favor of legalizing this thing into the Philippines or even worldwide...?!?! what's your stand....??!? in our REED class, some of our classmates reported this topic... well last week, our group reported something about abortion... it's just good to know that we had this question and answer in the middle of the report... hmmmm... and would you be in favor of this one..?!?! well, for me... it's a big NO! nO! as in NO!!!!! first and foremost, it's because for me, it's your way [or a person's way] of taking his own life.. or on the relatives' side, ...

... is just not an option!!! -sigh-... i don't know how to compose what i'm really feeling right now.. but one thing's for sure... I DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT NOT TO BE OKAY!!! whew! have a lot of things to do.. things to accomplish.. things to learn... things to savor.... things to digest... wow!! and God is just teaching me right now... at this very moment... and i'm glad... i'm glad because i know GOd is preparing me.. i'm undergoing a training period wherein i should be equipped.. i don't know for what.. but for sure, there's always a reason... and it seems like i kinda like what's happening to me.. but i'm a bit wondering about what's gonna happen... hmmm.. there's more to come... being selfish is really a big no! no!... it's not fitting to say that i'm just not okay that's why i'm exempted.. i should not think of what's happening around me... i was just amazed at how God placed this burden inside me that i know...

God has been teaching me a lot of things for this past week... i may be blind and numb that i didn't have the chance to see it coming to me and i didn't feel it coming.. haha... but still... learning isn't too late... NOT ALL... - not all Christians who are speaking like a true Christians are really Christians to the truest sense of the word... - not all of your friends can lead you to God... sometimes, you are one of their friends for you to lead them to God... - not all parents are like mine's... =) - not all days are going to be just like yesterday... if you're ok today... expect something different tomorrow... - not all the time you can hear God's voice... sometimes you really have to seek... mourn... wail... - not all the time of the day you can feel God's presence... I WAS PASSIVE... - i was passive about what's happening to me right now... actually, i was and is always passive... - i was passive at some things that i can't post them here... so...

God has been blessing me with so much for the past days... haha!!! and it's just amazing! natatawa na nga lang ako e... - Meron na akong fone binigyan ako ni Lord ng fone... ehehehehe... and sobrang kase ba naman fone ang pinagppray ko kse i need it for valid reasons... and fone nga ang nakuha ko... wala nga lang sim... - Merong magbibigay sa kin ng sim haha!!! and ciempre, ndi pwedeng walang i-touch si Lord na magbibigay sa kin ng sim diba... nabbadtrip na nga ko sa TM e... walang signal... - Ang kewl ng nanay ko we are really having difficulties sa bahay ngayon.. financially kase nga walang job si papa.. and just yesterday ata o the other day, i heard her say something na akala ko wala lang sa kanya... nag-uusap sila ni jon2.. and wala pa kseng permit ung bro ko.. sabi ng mama ko, kase mag-pray ka at magbasa ka ng Bible araw-araw... [side comment: huh..?!?!? e ang sabi nga ng nanay ko sa min ni joan baka daw mabaliw ako kakabasa ng Bible tapos ganun ung sinabi niya..?!] ehehehehe...

kababasa ko lang ng comment ni myk sa isa sa mga posts ko... it's about cheating... and yes... naalala kong bigla... grabe sa room kanina... i was sitting at the back pero mga 2nd to the last row... tapos hmmm..... as we were taking the exam, ok lang e.. ok pa... tahimik... kaso after ng term exam, may unit exam pa.. pag-alis ng proctor at pumasok ung prof namin sa subject na un at medyo nagkaron ng ingay e ayun na!!!! nagtanungan na ang mga nasa likod ko... ang masakit.... shox! may Kristiyano dun e... and i must admit i heard the voice... -sigh- nakakahiya kay Lord... and lahat na sila nagtatanungan.... nung wala na kong mapiga sa utak ko, tumayo na ko at nagpass ng papel.. tapos lumabas ng room.. and ndi lang pala ako ang nakaramdam ng ganun.. ung isa ko ring classmate.. kaya nag-pass na lang siya ng paper nia kase naiingayan din cia... ehehehe... parang kelan lang naglecture ang prof ko sa REED about CONSCIENCE... and we had small groupings with regards to the activity... ang...

i just finished one of my major exams... ob... and whew! only God's grace can help me pass that exam... i was just so eager to post something but then... it seems like my mind was drained so hard that i can't even think of anything to post...

we just had our discussion on our REED subject yesterday regarding conscience.. and there's this activity wherein we're given a situation then we shoul weigh the pros and cons then decide based from those pros and cons... the situation is like you're in an exclusive school and you kind of an honor student something before..and your parents expect a lot from you.. then you had this exam wherein your professor just made it diffucult for you and your classmates... then the previous batch cheated to pass that level.. it just goes like that... then, the activity is that you'll write 4 reasons why you should cheat... and 4 reasons why you should not cheat... then your decision... it's like, huh...?!??!?! i can't find any reason why i should cheat.. even if there's any, still, i can't find it... then my classmate said, " kahit minsan lang magkasala ka naman...lahat naman ng tao nagkakasala.." haha! alam ko naman un.. it's just that wala talaga ...

I come to You Lord time and time again needing some answers in questions i don't understand... _________ asking nothing in return Lord let me love You Please let me love You... i just want to live my whole life loving God... always feeling His presence.. His embrace... despite of the busy times in my life... as to whatever i'm going through... i want to love Him with my all.. to still worship Him with everything that i do.. sometimes... we come to a point wherein if we don't feel God by our side, ganun na lang... we don't miss the "feeling"... we tend to just go with the flow... and right now, ayokong ganun lang.. ayoko ng ganito.. ayoko ng hindi ko nararamdaman ung embrace ni Lord.. ung presence Niya... i don't want to be content with my situation with God.. i want more of Him... i'm afraid, yes... kase baka dumating ako sa time na mawala ako sa hulog... but thank God... alam kong nandiyan Siya and hindi Niya ko basta-basta iiwan... HE DIDN'T BRIN...

scalpel... scissors... kelly.. mayo... allis... bladder retractor.. richardson... BABY OUT!!! haha! for the first time, i had my first scrub at the operating room... of course, since it was in Fabella, it's LTCS [Low Transverse Caesarian Section]... grabe!!! sobrang sa start, it's like nangi2nig ung hands ko na first time nangyari.. tapos sobrang kinakabahan.. [pero tolerable] then, ang bilis kase kaya medyo ndi ko namemorize ung sunud-sunod.. pero nung closing na [nung suturing na] medyo alam ko na iaabot... allises.. scissors...scissors...scissors.. ehehehe... buti nalang mabait si Kuya Scrub Nurse at ung doctora... ehehehe... meron pa ngang souvenir ung patient e... flatus!!! ahahaha!!! [para sa mga ndi alam kung ano un, tanong nio na lang ng personal sa kin! ehehehe] ********** hmmmm... wala na kong matype... ehehehe... about my struggle.. it's not a struggle anymore.. kung ano man ung struggle ko, hmmm.. ciempre, si satan lang ang nagssuggest nun... and thank God kase ...