haha! i was about to go to SM to buy my toiletries for later's recollection.. just got a 500peso bill and about 17 peso coins... i forgot to think that the tricycle's fare increased.. and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!! after i got out of the tryke, my jeepney fare lacks one peso.. pambihira..since i'm sure the jeepney driver does not have a change in 500-peso bill, and i'm about to send an e-mail to my cousins in the States, i've decided to just find a computer shop and send the e-mail! and wow!!!! God really moves in different ways and everything happens for a purpose.. one of my cousins is on-line!! haha!!! and so i was able to say what i want to say and for a while extend God's blessing to them.. whew.. i don't know but it feels great! just for that one peso, a small piece of coin... turned out to be a blessing! ang cool talaga ni Lord!
I've read somewhere that everyone's miserable. They're just good at hiding it. I have been trying to find out why this new season seems to be a burden to me. Don't get me wrong -- I enjoy motherhood and I love my little one but something seems to be blocking my view of experiencing it joyfully. Callie's already 10 months and everything just dawned on me -- why I was struggling, why I can't see things the way it should be, why I felt ineffective and frustrated and depressed. I think I just had post-partum depression. I just got back from my US business trip and I just bursted into tears a few days after while singing Jesus loves me -- as if I'm telling that to myself. I'm grateful that I have a husband who listens and understands and encourages me that I can do it! I just realized the root cause(s) of what's going on after that incident. I was too attached to Callie that I don't want her to leave my site when I'm with her. I
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