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hmmmm..... for the past years, kala ko okay na ko... =) i thought things were fine between me and God.. kase good gurl naman ako.. hehehe [joke!] yun pala, there's something within me na inaayos Niya.. relationships... relationship with other people.. i would like to take this opportunity to say sorry to those na feeling nio na-reject ko kayo.. for a while.. you're offering a hand or lending a shoulder pero di ko po tinanggap kase kala ko kaya ko.. [that's pride.] sorry ah.. kase since birth [joke!] hehehe.. simula pagkabata, sa lahat ng aspects, i only depend on myself.. di nagpapatulong sa ibang tao.. kaya grabe na lang nung tinuruan ako ni LOrd na mag-delegate ng tasks sa youth.. pero ngayon, with regards to receiving help naman from friends.. mejo i always say that i can do it.. my own.. hoooh hoooh.. yun pala nade-deprive sila ng purpose nila.. sorry ah.. sorrry... you know who you are.... =) sorry ah.. sorry... =)

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just kanina rin lang.. na-figure out ko na kung bakit ako ganto..! hooH! sa wakas! nagsalita din Siya... He impressed in my heart that... napapagod pala ko.. not physically... napapagod ako kase walang nangyayari.. sort of impatient.. and sort of being discouraged by the things i'm seeing... hooh.. in as much as i want then to grow, pero walang nangyayari, naffrustrate ako.. and that's wrong.. GOd can do more than i can imagine.. besides, siguro ayoko na lang ng everytime ippour-out ni LOrd yung presence Niya, after nun, wla namang nagbago.. ewan ko, siguro mali utak ko.. or masyado akong pessimistic.. pero ang alam ko kase, once He poured out His love to you... you can't do something but MOVE>>>>>> and i wanna see action.. i wanna see people moving.. i want to be a fisher of men.. pero i'm not allowing Him to use me kase nga nandun pa ko sa stage na "nagco-complain..." and medyo discouraged sa paligid.. [well, this has always been my struggle.. ibang level na nga lang ngayon..] hooh.. ayun lang... i really really have to pray and pour out my heart kay LOrd.. and fix my eyes on Jesus alone!

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hAna said…
congratulations! ^_^

anong grade level mo na? hehe
4:29 PM
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