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i really really really feel bad..
kanina, sa ewan ba at wala ko sa hulog.. nag-slip yung halo-halong hawak ko.. and most of the liquid was poured out sa keyboard.. edi pinunasan namin ng mama ko.. i was really really touched kase di siya naglit... or anuman... tinulungan pa niya ko magpunas.. tapos, edi okay na..gumagana na... thank God! pati yung monitor ok lang.. though feeling ko magkakaproblma... pray na nga lang ako ng pray eh... hooh... e baligtad yung iba kong letters, ayun, pinagpalit palit ko... ayun...
biglang di na gumana... tapos nirestart ko.. edi okay na ulit... tapos ayun... nawala ulit... =c hooh.. nalulungkot talaga ko... tapos syempre bwisit na yung kapatid ko.. tapos sinabi na ni mama na natapunan ng halo-halo.. pero ang sinabi niyang nakatapon, siya..

i really felt guilty... ='c sobra... lam mo yung it' s your fault pero pambihira! pambihira lang. .naiiyak nga ko eh.. ='c
lam mo yung parang God is like that... you know the gravity of your sin.. .the damage you did... pero He didn't take it against you pambihira!!! instead, inako Niya pa yung kasalanan mo.. ='c

o Lord... what can i say... nahihiya tuloy ako sa mama ko.. kahapon pa naman sinimangutan ko siya... ='c sometimes i really don' t appreciate the people around me.. ='c Lord. .. hooh.. i don't know why You allowed this... i just pray that You'll deliver me from here... please teach me how to show to my parents that i love them so much.. i may not daily express that i really really appreciate them, deep in my hypothalamus, i really do..

='c

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hAna said…
kakatouch naman... hehe...
6:54 PM
hAna said…
may advice sakin si tita sally: gawan ko daw ng note si nanay paminsan minsan... =)
6:58 PM
giL =P said…
haha...yan dapat sasabihin ko..hehe...

kaka-touch naman...

notes? hehe...try ko nga minsan...kaso nahihiya ako eh...hehe...
pero mas close na kami ngayon...
2:34 PM
hAna said…
hehe... pero mas maaappreciate nga niya yun lalo na kung di mo un usual na ginagawa di ba?

mashoshock sila [parents, or mom natin in particular]... sasabihin nila... "anak, may sakit ka ba????!!!!" haha...
2:37 PM
mheries said…
hehehehehe... hmmm.. actually, for the past months i've been thinking of that.. but haven't put that to action.. well, last last year ata, hmmmm... ginawan ko silang lahat ng letter.. e di naman nila tinago.. hehehe..anyways, atleast i've done my part.. =p
hehehehe...
mas close na rin kami ngayon eh.. hehe
hooh..
thanks!
si ate weng kaya yung anonymous?
3:05 AM
mheries said…
onga! si te weng nga yun! hehehehe.. maguusap nga pala kami...
3:18 AM
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