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this was my entry last night
11:20pm

kulang yan...hindi pa mataas...those were my father's words as i present my classcards to him...
he said that my grades are still low compared to what i can still do, kung wala kang pinupuntahan... kung saan-saan ka kase nagpupupupunta...

grabe!!! hindi pa daw enough ung may GPA ka na 90.40? come to think of this: you are a sophomore nursing student [kahit sinong nursing student ang tanungin mo, ako lang ang magsasabing madali ang nursing... ehehehe.. it's a STRUGGLE!!!], your classes starts from 7-6, 7-6, 7-7, 7-8, 8-11, 7-330.. tapos ciempre, tao ka pa rin at kailangan mo ng time para kumain at matulog, at ciempre ndi ka papasok para lang pumasok.. may quizzes din kayo [na every meeting is a quiz day (minsan quizzes pa!) for some professors] tapos may mga pathogenic [capable of causing disease] profs ka pa! tapos ndi naman buong linggo e mag-aaral ka.. kahit na border [na lang ata] ako sa bahay namin, dapat tumutulong pa rin..at ciempre, ndi buo kung walang church [and this is my favorite...CHURCH!]... wala pa yan sa kalingkingan ng ibang students [yung mga seniors ha] and lahat alam na mahirap pumasa..yung tipong maka-80 ka lang tuwang-tuwang-tuwang-tuwa ka na to the nth power.. tapos sasabihin sayo yung 85point something mo KULANG...?!?!?!? tapos sisisihin pa [ndi kase directly sinabi ng tatay ko] ung mga gingawa ko sa church.... -sigh-

but anyways, im thankful kase i do know that God accepts me for who i am.. but partly, my father's right... it also opened my eyes kase parang siguro im doin my best sa church.. pero im not doin my best in studies..now i know what to do.. and it's a blessing in disguise too!!! haha!

above all that, it taught me to love my parents even more.. and to pray for them pa..! haha!!!

i knw by God's grace i can endure all these!!!!

ENDURE

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