Livin' only by Grace

as we're watching rick warren's video regarding our first purpose in life, and that is, to worship God... one of his words had an impact to me... and that is metamorphosis... yes, it's the life cycle of the butterfly... metamorphosis... rick warren briefly tackled the stages - from a cocoon, to an ugly bug, to a beautiful butterfly.. the word ugly striked me... our Christian life is like metamorphosis... transformation... just think of the butterfly... at first, it's just a crawling little creature that we just don't mind... afterwards, it will be covered by a chrysalis... we may think that it's ugly because of its appearance... but after enduring few days, it will become a beautiful butterfly... at first, we are like the caterpillar... we are just small and we're like babies... crawling, searching for God... afterwards, we'll be molded by God.. refined, covered by His wings... and this is the "ugly" point of our lives... this is the time of wa...

My Statement of Faith i'm part of the FELLOWSHIP OF THE UNASHAMED. i have STEPPED OVER THE LINE. the DECISION has been made. i am a DISCIPLE of JESUS CHRIST. i WON'T LOOK BACK, LET UP, SLOW DOWN, BACK AWAY, OR BE STILL. my PAST has been REDEEMED, my PRESENT makes SENSE, my FUTURE is SECURE. i'm FINISHED and DONE with LOW LIVING, SIGHT WALKING, SMALL PLANNING, SMOOTH KNEES, COLORLESS DREAMS, TAMED VISIONS, MUNDANE TALKING, CHEAP LIVING, AND DWARFED GOALS. i NO LONGER NEED PREEMINENCE, PROSPERITY, POSITION, PROMOTION, PLAUDITS OR POPULARITY. I DON'T HAVE TO BE RIGHT, FIRST, TOPS, RECOGNIZED, PRAISED, REGARDED, OR REWARDED. i know live by FAITH, LEAN on HIS PRESENCE, WORK by PATIENCE, LIFT by PRAYER, and LABOR by POWER. MY FACE IS SET, MY GAIT IS FAST, MY GOAL IS HEAVEN, MY ROAD IS NARROW, MY WAY ROUGH, MY COMPANIONS FEW, MY GUIDE RELIABLE, MY MISSION CLEAR. I CANNOT BE BOUGHT, DELUDED OR DELAYED. I WILL NOT FLINCH IN THE FACE OF SACRIFICE, HESITATE IN THE PRESENCE OF ADVE...

haha! wala lang.. this day's just really GREAT! ehehehe... [kaya nga kahit medyo late na at marami pang gagawin bukas like campaign, speech(na ndi ko pa nasasaulo), collate ng data sa health care, english chamber theater, uhm... ano pa ba..? ehehehe...e ninais ko pa ring mag-post ng entry...] ehehehe.. as i woke up this morning kase, im not feeling ok.. ndi physically, tipong ndi ok ung mood ko..? basta parang ganun.. parang ang bigat.. then feeling ko, im not fine [spiritually?] pero ndi naman... malamang tactic lang un ng kaaway para madistract ako.. kse, ngaung araw na to, SOOOOOOOOOOOOBRANG DAMI kong ginawa.. [and alam niya un kaya umaga pa lang nanggugulo na..! tsk tsk tsk] iba talaga ung pakiramdam ko, kaya kahit feeling ko malalate na ko sa usapan namin ng mga classmates ko, ndi pwedeng ndi ko kakausapin si Lord.. and i did! grabe!!! as in GRAAAAAAAAAAAAABE!!!! grabe talaga si Lord! ehehehehe... [tulad nga ng sabi ni joan, wala pang word na makaka-describe kay Lord, kaya gr...

supposed to be: MONDAY PHYSICS LAB 21.02.2005 7:45 am God positioned us where we should be... yung perfect position... just like the stars... they're just in their right position,,, if htey die, they'll become blackholes... kahit for some wala na siyang silbi, ndi mo pa rin siya pwedeng i-eradicate because the universe will crumble.... just like us... reagarding our relationship with God... He created us and positioned us perfectly, in a place where we should be.. -to be continued....

"ang bilis naman, bababa na 'ko..." -sigh- lagi ko na lang yan naririnig sa classmate ko kapag malapit na siyang bumaba.. and grabe... 3 more weeks to go and tapos na ang second year... panibagong chapter nanaman ng college life ang haharapin ko... ehehehe... parang kagabi lang, late na ko natulog dahil ang daming kailangang gawin...[ndi ko naman natapos!] ehehehe... pero by God's grace! grabe! i accomplished all the things that should be accomplished... mga manuals na ipa-pass, quiz regarding 4 topics, at manuals nanaman, tapos may post-test pa... grabe.. and it's a day... tapos na tong araw na to... pagkababa ng classmate ko sa jeep, God made me realize one thing, oo nga, ang bilis ng panahon... ang bilis ng araw... matatapos nanaman ang week na to... ganun din sa buhay natin dito sa mundo... mabilis lang... ehehehehe... baka biglang magising ka isang araw, malapit na palang matapos ung time na binigay sayo ni Lord... but you haven't done or accomplished th...

THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY ENTRY YESTERDAY 20.02.2005 it was my first time to dance during the worship service! and wow! God's really great! ang sarap ng feeling ng nawo-worship mo ung God mo through your abilities [although medyo may mga errors ako.ehehehe..] but God's looking in our hearts so it doesn't matter kung nagkamali ako... ehehehe... things that happened to me these past few days: -SATURDAY: JOKE TIME- Nag-start na ung PDL session sa church... and im one of the facilitators nga.. kaso, ndi equal ung number ng members sa mga facilitators so ung ibang facilitators, walang na-handle na members... then, nagbuo na lang kami ng group [me, joan, bess, ate jaimie, ate kaye, iya(schoolmate ni bess and member niya), hanna] tapos, ang magkaka-group guys and gurls... then tita mhel called joan to join with franco in facilitating their group.. ehehehe... tapos, bigla ba namang sinabi sa kin ni tita mhel, "Mhe, sama na kayo ni robie.." [whhaaaaaaaaaaaattt???!?]ehehe...

ehehehe.. -super smile- wala lang.. im just really excited this day.. i just started the day waking up feeling all right.. tapos the song that i was singing as i woke up was... the song of freedom is on my lips today, today i sing about the One i love today, today all i can see is your mercy all i can feel is your grace Your love is so wonderful let all the people say that our God reigns above all...! ehehehhe.. wala lang.. basta there's joy and gladness in my heart.. tapos, feeling ko may kakaiba talagang mga nangyayari sa kin twing saturday.. kung nung last saturday napapasok ako ng maaga dahil akala ko seven ung class [na 8 pa pala.. but it's ok.. kase may pinagawa sa kin si Lord nun... ehehehe] ngaun naman, i rode in the wrong jeepney! wahahahahahah... may jeep kase sa may andok's sa bayan na nagaabang.. e mostly puro area c un.. tapos sabi nung driver, c daw...kaya sumakay ako... e i have this habit... basta.. ehehehe.. tapos, un pala, paliparan.. pero ndi ako nainis.....

THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY ENTRY YESTERDAY 13TH OF FEBRUARY 2005 ANG NANGYARI: sa wakas, nagkaron na rin ako ng time para matapos ung group report namin sa STS... pagkagaling ko sa church, dumiretso agad ako sa internet shop sa bayan... [ndi pa nga ako nakakapag-lunch.. dapat kase mga 3 hours lang ako...] buti na lang may ka-chat ako nung mga panahong un kaya ndi ako na-boring.. hehehe.. ginagawan ko ng presentation ang aming group report na belly dancing... alas! after 50 years! [5 hours lang...] natapos ko na rin... when i was about to attach the file.... grrrrrrrrrr.... nagloko!!! kainins.. laging nagiging error on page chuchu.. tpos, naka-ilang log-in/log-out na ko.. wala pa rin.. alas! nung isang beses, naging ok naman... nung ina-attach na... oh men! ganun ulit! half na lang, ndi pa rin pwede! laging temporary error chuchu... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...tapos, sabi ni kuya, i-save ko na lang sa diskette... [bakit ba kase ndi ko naisip un...?!] DAHIL SA GUTOM: ndi ko naisip na kasya ang ...

have you ever asked that question to yourself...? have you ever asked why are you here on earth...? why are you alive...? why do you exist...? what's your purpose...? well.. the answers to those questions can only be found in God and God alone... You were made by God and for God... for His pleasure... God created you because He wants you to experience His love.. He wants you to be His friend... God wants to have you for eternity... so, you matter to God a lot...=) our church is having a PDL Campaign [Purpose Driven Life Campaign] this starting this week... if you want to discover God's purpose in your life, i'm inviting you... just approach me... Press on!

-sigh- i visited the blog of the friend of my elementary classmate... ehehehe.. and wala lang.. yes, it's the 12th of february... malapit na palang mag-valentine's day?!? hahaha! nakakatuwang isipin kase, wala lang.. parang im just... normal! ehehehe.. walang rush.. walang pinoproblemang kung ano man.. ndi natataranta sa valentine's.. nways, wala akong masabi... gusto ko lang mag-comment.. hmmm... looking back... uhm.. wag na lang tayong mag-look back... ok? [kung gusto niong malaman, mail nalang kayo sa kin...ok?!] ako naman ang nagkwe2nto eh! ehehehhe... nways, wala lang.. nakakatuwang isipin na i was once like those people before... so inlove na tipong yung taong mahal mo na ung mundo mo... sobrang siya na ung lagi mong iniintindi... sobrang excited sa day na magkikita kayo... malungkot pag ndi ka kinausap... malungkot pag ndi ka manlang na-text or tinawagan... malungkot pag ndi kayo magkasama... and mas malungkot pag nagkahiwalay kayo... [sorry, i can't recall the f...

what to write...? uhm... this day's really hahahahahaha! well, nakakatuwa kase talaga si Lord.. grabe... first time tong nangyari sa kin... well, my mom woke me up this morning askin' what time am i going to school... then, i don't know, i just told her, 7:00... she answered back, it's already 6:15... and i don't wanna be late for school [again] so i rushed... and i didn't eat breakfast... it's 5 minutes before 7 when i left the house... as i expected, late nanaman ako... -sigh- then when i was in the jeepney, nagtaka ako kase parang ang luwag pa ng kalsada... nasabi ko pa nga sa sarili ko, "parang 7 ung class ko ah..." [which was, nakalimutan ko talaga na.. basta! ang hirap i-explain...] pag pasok ko ng gate, it's already 7:15... ang bilis ng biyahe.. ang konti ng tao sa school ah... then dun ako sa likod dumaan.. nagtataka ko kse kung late na ko, dapat may mga nagka-class na... [that's normal..] naitanong ko sa sarili ko, wala bang pasok....

alas! natapos na rin ang speech choir competition kahapon.. tulad nga ng sabi ng karamihan, "back to reality na ulit.." dami na ulit quizzes, group reports, quizzes, group reports... -sigh- back to normal na ang lahat... but at least, God made us experience [again] the feeling of joining a competition... although 2nd place lang kami [bale 1st place kase may champion], im still happy... why...? 'coz nung time na nagppractice kami, sobrang naramdaman ko ung presence ni LORD... He's really the Great Provider!!! sobra!!!!!!!!! He provided all the things we needed... and sobrang blessings talaga.. i do believe na ndi man kami naging number one sa mga judges, kay Lord and sa mga audiences number 1 kami... sobrang nakakagulat ung mga nangyari...as in.. si Lord talaga ung kumilos... -smile- sobrang grabe talaga! and there's joy... 'coz i didn't do it to please others but to please God... and God is really great! grabe ung favor Niya... hahaha!

Too funny not to share! Most of us have now learned to live with voice mail as a necessary part of our lives. Have you ever wondered what it would be like if God decided to install voice mail? Imagine praying and hearing the following: > Thank you for calling heaven. For English press 1 For Spanish press 2 For all other languages, press 3 Please select one of the following options: Press 1 for request Press 2 for thanksgiving Press 3 for complaints Press 4 for all others I am sorry, all our Angels and Saints are busy helping other sinners right now. However, your prayer is important to us and we will answer it in the order it was received. Please stay on the line. If you would like to speak to: God, press 1 Jesus, press 2 Holy spirit, press 3 To find a loved one that has been assigned to heaven press 5, then enter his social security # followed by the pound sign. If you receive a negative response, please hang up and dial area code 666...

hahaha! it's really great to start your day talking to God through prayer... [although it's a struggle... ehehehe...] it also feels so great na makakapg-devotion ka bago matulog... [para maganda ang gising at walang masamang panaginip...hehehe] nways, i'm just glad and overwhelmed by God's presence and love...! hahaha! ayos din ung practice namin sa speech choir kanina... 'coz we started it with a prayer... God is really great that all you have to do is to put Him first and He'll take care of everything... hahaha!!!! ########## well... just a few minutes ago, napadalhan po ako ng message na nagsasabing "tumahimik ka! ire-reboot ko pc mo pag ndi ka tumahimik! within 5 seconds!" tama ba daw un...? ehehehe.. ok lang... pati rin pala sila dan at mae...

there are times in our lives wherein we tend to compromise... as in we really compromise... and those decisions hinder us from getting closer to God... im sure i've done things like that for the past weeks... that's why right now, i can't feel God's presence... i know and i believe that my heart's really contaminated... but God is soooooooo great that He gives chance to those people who asks for forgivenes... who's so desperate for Him... and im one of them... right now, i dare to be daniel... i dare to be different for God's glory... and i want to start right now...i don't wanna be a slave of this world.. i want to be a servant of GOd... enough is enough... ########## as i was going home after the worship service this morning, i chose to ride in a jeepney.. tapos, ndi ganun ka-luwag kahit konti lang ung mga pasahero kase ndi naman nakaayos ng upo ung mga tao... tapos, umupo ako dun sa bandang gitna na medyo ang katabi kong babae naka-diagonal...

Prayer teaches us to wait. It clears our vision, it quiets ourhearts, and it activates our faith. It is good to start and end the day with prayer!

-sigh- just later this afternoon, un yata ung na-experience ko... =c im not sad because i've experienced that... malungkot lang ako kase ganun pala ung feeling nun...but i shouldn't be... malungkot ata ako kase akala nila galit ako and no one understands me... but i know God does! ayoko ng ganun... kung kelan inaayos ko na ung sa min ni LOrd saka naman nagpapapansin ung mga unnecessary forces... -sigh- haaaay.... nways, masama bang mawalan ng expression ung mukha ko...? tapos nagkasugat pa ung labi ko kaya medyo... basta... tapos akalain ba ng lahat ng tao galit ako...? kaya ko bang magalit sa nonsense na bagay...? tipong may pasok lang sa saturday e.. e ano naman..? wala pa rin akong pakelam.. nothing can stop me from going to PDL seminar... gerahin man ako ng buong mundo, wala akong pakelam! but i hate the feeling na merong galit sayo, or bad trip sayo... dahil ba sa bibili kami ng damit bukas, tapos kailangan mag-practice... in the first place, WHY DO WE HAVE TO STRE...

WHAT KIND OF MAN SHOULD YOU BE LOOKING FOR? (YOU ARE BLESSED IF YOU FOUND YOUR MAN) In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question, "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said "Yes.". She began to expound..." As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household with out the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated "I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life." He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, ...

-sigh- -sigh- -sigh- -think- -think- -think- what am i going to post...? uhm... as usual, andito ulit ako sa ERS kasama sila Christ, Kimi, and ALvin... katatapos lang ng exam ko sa STS... ndi ko naman alam na 2:00 pa ung next na exam... -sigh- saka wala akong balak umuwi... baka makatulog lang ako...=p nways, ang galing ni Lord! wala lang... i just wanna praise Him for all the things that He has done... and dun pa sa mga gagawin Niya... ang sarap pag teammates kayo ni Lord e... sa mga exams, etc... lalo na pag alam mong Siya lang ang makakaintindi sayo... ung tipong SIya lang talaga ang makakatulong sayo...=) ang sarap ng feeling pag lahat ng ginagawa mo, alam mong gusto rin un ni Lord! sabi nga sa isa sa mga beatitudes, blessed are the ones who do what God requires... God will satisfy them fully... e, isa lang naman ang gusto ni Lord sa tin e.. ung every aspect ng buhay natin, ipagkatiwala natin sa Kanya... and i wanna be addicted to trust Him... yes, parang ang hirap... it...

-sigh- actually,i don't know what to post... but i want to post something... ah... about what's happening to me right now... uhm... ano ba...? well, as usual [as olweiz? hehe...] im in a stage of transformation... talagang nasstretch ako... and i know that God is stretching me.. there are some things na talagang kailangang iwanan at baguhin kase un ung mga reasons kung bakit ang layo ko kay Lord... it's hard... as in... pero wala akong magagawa... i've experienced God's presence in my life and alam kong sobrang saya ng feeling na un... kaya ndi ako nakokontento sa ganto lang.. smooth sailing [sort of] pero walang laman ung utak ko... which means there's a missing link... and to answer that, i just have to seek Him...SEEK GOD... and from then on i can receive righteousness... grabe!!! yes, i always forgot that... na i-seek si Lord and yung will Niya sa buhay ko... and alam ko namang pag nag-seek ako kay Lord, makikita ko Siya... I will magnify You I will g...