Lord.. i still don't know what's gonna happen to me... after i graduate. parang i don't wanna leave the Philippines... especially, i don't know.. parang nalulungkot ako pag naiisip ko na aalis ako.. and there'll be people that i'll be leaving behind.. waaaaaaah! ='c Lord.. hoooh ayun lang.. but i'm still praying.. and just have Your way Lord... have Your way... =j in Jesus name, amen.
I've read somewhere that everyone's miserable. They're just good at hiding it. I have been trying to find out why this new season seems to be a burden to me. Don't get me wrong -- I enjoy motherhood and I love my little one but something seems to be blocking my view of experiencing it joyfully. Callie's already 10 months and everything just dawned on me -- why I was struggling, why I can't see things the way it should be, why I felt ineffective and frustrated and depressed. I think I just had post-partum depression. I just got back from my US business trip and I just bursted into tears a few days after while singing Jesus loves me -- as if I'm telling that to myself. I'm grateful that I have a husband who listens and understands and encourages me that I can do it! I just realized the root cause(s) of what's going on after that incident. I was too attached to Callie that I don't want her to leave my site when I'm with her. I
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