for the first time i got sick.. hehe LBM ako kagabi... nung hapon pa lang, medyo i feel nauseous na sa church... and waaah.. pag uwi ko, i really really feel sleepy so i slept.. tapos pag gising ko, medyo sobrang nanghihina yung arms and legs ko.. then ayun na... LBM na.. hoooh... hindi nga nakapag-duty kanina.. ayun.. hooh. thank God i'm okay.. dahil ata dun sa meat na kinain ko.. hooh
I've read somewhere that everyone's miserable. They're just good at hiding it. I have been trying to find out why this new season seems to be a burden to me. Don't get me wrong -- I enjoy motherhood and I love my little one but something seems to be blocking my view of experiencing it joyfully. Callie's already 10 months and everything just dawned on me -- why I was struggling, why I can't see things the way it should be, why I felt ineffective and frustrated and depressed. I think I just had post-partum depression. I just got back from my US business trip and I just bursted into tears a few days after while singing Jesus loves me -- as if I'm telling that to myself. I'm grateful that I have a husband who listens and understands and encourages me that I can do it! I just realized the root cause(s) of what's going on after that incident. I was too attached to Callie that I don't want her to leave my site when I'm with her. I
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