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i will worship You for who You are...

sabi dun sa lyrics ng song na pinapakinggan ko ngayon... =) heheheh

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i just wanna cry.. feeling ko kaya i feel bad right now coz i haven't poured out my heart to God yet... don't know... di ko lam.. don't even know if i'm hurt... or what... if i'm feeling good or what... i'm not justifying something... di ako nagrereklamo... that i know... pero i don't know if there's something in my heart that says, "Lord masakit pala yun... kala ko okay lang... well, i just know what to react.. i know i shouldn't justify.. i know i should obey.. and that's what i want to do... but then, there's something na parang di okay... and i have to open it up.. hooh Lord... hooooooooooooohhhh... i just don't know....

but i know i'll be fine.. i'm good.. =)

di ko na alam kung anong sasabihin ko eh.. hehehe...

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i was just reminded of the things na tinatayuan ko... well, for some time i've been deceived? or blinded? i don't know.. pero ito yung mga gusto kong gawin...
- not to get close with a guy [and whoa Lord.. pano ko nakalimutan yun?]
- if ever i'll be having a boyfriend, **************
- pursue purity in every relationship
hooh what else...?
what else?
hmmm.. di ko na alam.. basta yan yun...

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set your heart on things that are heaven ward... i have to be reminded of that every minute...

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Lord, i don't know where i am.. i don't even know Your plans.. i don't even know why You allowed that to happen... i don't even know right now what You want me to do... but i'm willing to obey.. whatever it is.. wherever You're taking me... i'm willing to obey... and i believe things will be fine... =)
because You are my GOd...
and You love me... =)

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