Livin' only by Grace

=( i really really really feel bad.. kanina, sa ewan ba at wala ko sa hulog.. nag-slip yung halo-halong hawak ko.. and most of the liquid was poured out sa keyboard.. edi pinunasan namin ng mama ko.. i was really really touched kase di siya naglit... or anuman... tinulungan pa niya ko magpunas.. tapos, edi okay na..gumagana na... thank God! pati yung monitor ok lang.. though feeling ko magkakaproblma... pray na nga lang ako ng pray eh... hooh... e baligtad yung iba kong letters, ayun, pinagpalit palit ko... ayun... biglang di na gumana... tapos nirestart ko.. edi okay na ulit... tapos ayun... nawala ulit... =c hooh.. nalulungkot talaga ko... tapos syempre bwisit na yung kapatid ko.. tapos sinabi na ni mama na natapunan ng halo-halo.. pero ang sinabi niyang nakatapon, siya.. i really felt guilty... ='c sobra... lam mo yung it' s your fault pero pambihira! pambihira lang. .naiiyak nga ko eh.. ='c lam mo yung parang God is like that... you know the gravity of your sin.. .the ...

gusto ko lang mag-post... i'm just blessed.. God is building me up... yung mga learnings ko dati, ngayon, isa-isa Niyang pinapa-master sa kin... yung mga desires ko dati, He's allowing me to take steps one at a time..yung mararanasan mo talaga at mapagdadaanan para mapiga yung heart mo... wala lang.. Godbless!

hehe.. this day was busy.. i mean yesterday.. coz it's already 1:14am.. pero i didn't feel the toxic feeling.. hehehe.. =) may meeting de avance kanina tapos we haven't practiced for our presentation tomorrow... for our ever beloved humanities subject.. [heheheh.. di ako nagrereklamo na feelng major siya...] ayun.. so punta ng meeting de avance, punta practice.. meeting de avance.. ayun..huhu! hehehehe.. tapos nagpractice, pagpunta ko sa meeting for the election [mamaya] tapos na pala! hehehe.. tapos umuwi na ko ng maaga at di na sasali sa iba pang roles ko.. [imagine, back-up dancer sa cabaret diba?!?!?] duh?!!??! ayun... e kase excuse naman talaga ako tomorrow.. i think enough na yung role ko, sa opening number saka sa ballroom... aalis naman ako agad eh.. hehehhe.. =) =) =) tapos gabi na nakauwi kase hinihintay ung NCS ng classmate ko... ayun... hooh.. =) praise God He still gives me strength! Godbless guys!

kanina nag-anak ako sa binyag... hehe.. sa may church sa pala-pala.. hmmm.. natatawa lang ako sa mga pinaggagagawa ko... kase meron dung booklet na for binyag.. hehe.. edi may mga salmong tugunan.. pag di ako sang-ayon di ako nagrerespond.. hahahahahahah!! ayun.. yun lang.. share ko lang... =)

hmmmm..... for the past years, kala ko okay na ko... =) i thought things were fine between me and God.. kase good gurl naman ako.. hehehe [joke!] yun pala, there's something within me na inaayos Niya.. relationships... relationship with other people.. i would like to take this opportunity to say sorry to those na feeling nio na-reject ko kayo.. for a while.. you're offering a hand or lending a shoulder pero di ko po tinanggap kase kala ko kaya ko.. [that's pride.] sorry ah.. kase since birth [joke!] hehehe.. simula pagkabata, sa lahat ng aspects, i only depend on myself.. di nagpapatulong sa ibang tao.. kaya grabe na lang nung tinuruan ako ni LOrd na mag-delegate ng tasks sa youth.. pero ngayon, with regards to receiving help naman from friends.. mejo i always say that i can do it.. my own.. hoooh hoooh.. yun pala nade-deprive sila ng purpose nila.. sorry ah.. sorrry... you know who you are.... =) sorry ah.. sorry... =) ********** just kanina rin lang.. na-figure out ko na...

just this night.. hmmm.. habang pauwi.. naglakad papuntang bayan with some friends.. guys naman sila.. pero anonymous.. heheheheheheh.. hmm.. yun nga.. and whoa! i've found out something.. pambihira! may something pala between the youth and other ministry.. and whoa! pambihira! hooooooooooooh! ganun pala.. and another whoa! akala ko all the while okay yung mga workers.. yung pala may iba sa kanila na pagdating sa labas, whoa! i was pleading.. hehehe. sabi ko kung hindi nila sasabihin yung nakikita nilang mali, it will cause sobra-sobrang division! pambihira.. kaya pala.. kaya pala ganun.. kaya pala ganun.. hooh! hooh! hooH!

I will very gladly spend and be spent for your souls . . . —2 Corinthians 12:15 Once "the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit," we deliberately begin to identify ourselves with Jesus Christ’s interests and purposes in others’ lives (Romans 5:5 ). And Jesus has an interest in every individual person. We have no right in Christian service to be guided by our own interests and desires. In fact, this is one of the greatest tests of our relationship with Jesus Christ. The delight of sacrifice is that I lay down my life for my Friend, Jesus (see John 15:13 ). I don’t throw my life away, but I willingly and deliberately lay it down for Him and His interests in other people. And I do this for no cause or purpose of my own. Paul spent his life for only one purpose— that he might win people to Jesus Christ. Paul always attracted people to his Lord, but never to himself. He said, "I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some...

habang break muna sa pagta-type.. nyahahahahahah...

i'm feeling good.. =) heheheh.. kagabi, i was just waaaahhh.. it was an attack.. arrgh!!! Blessed... >makakasama na ko ng prayer and fasting tomorrow! di kase available yung thesis adviser namin for consultation.. e wala na kaming gagawin sa thesis! hoooooooooh! editing na lang ngayon! hooh! yeah! Aww... >heheh.. ang kulit lang.. kahapon, pambihira.. na-check talaga yung heart ko.. hehehe.. hmmm.. never pa ko naka-experience magbed bath sa patient.. and yesterday, i had this patient na ambulatory naman siya [nakakagalaw, nakakatayo, nakakalakad] pero gusto magpa-shampoo! pambihira! ang initial reaction ko talaga.. haaaaaaaaaaaa?!?!??!??! eh nakakagalaw naman yun eh! hoooh!!! at ayun, sabi ng CI namin, e gusto kasing magpa-shampoo.. hehehe.. ooooaaah.. ayun.. ehehehehe.. medyo nagreklamo pa ko, i mean nag-justify na kaya naman niya eh.. hehe.. ayun.. nag-shampoo kami! and while doing it, nag-enjoy ako! heheheh..masaya talaga! hoooh! =) that's part of being a nurse..sabi ng...

hehehe.. hmmmm.. i want to post something regarding this one.. kase sabi ko i'll continue that diba? hehehe.. hmmm.. well... that day? tungkol san ba yun? heheheh... =) three years ago, [if i'm not mistaken...] i made a covenant with a guy.. =) [well alam na yun ng iba sa inyo and yung ibang hindi okay lang... =p sorry na lang.. =p] last month, january pa yun.. we talked and discussed that thing... we made a promise that if we reach our 20th birthday, magiging kami na ulit... well, yun lang yung naalala ko... ang alam ko, 3 years ako merong incident na ganun... but whoa! pambihira! marami pala kong nakalimutan... hmmm.. before that incident, the covenant thingy, there are things that happened that somehow, biglang nawala sa memory ko! hoooooh hooooooh! hehehehehe.. how did i know? kase, hoooooh... pambihira.. =) i got my diary last saturday, and i browsed it a bit last sunday? =) heheheheheheh... [i sort of tempted myself.. adik!] =) ayun... nagulat lang ako sa mga nabasa ko.. ...

I've love to worship You my God I love to worship You my LOrd and see Your spirit full in power your love unfolding cares forever i love to worship You my God i love to worship You my Lord and feel Your precious breath of heaven Your all consuming love Holy Spirit come in power change my heart i want to live for You my God let your Spirit come in power change my life that i may live for You my LOrd fall on us lord >>> this is my heart's cry as of this moment.. hehehe.. wala lang.. =) so i love You long to see You Lord i lift my hands before my King and pray

i just want to cry.. i don't know.. it just seems like i can't do anything good... ='c ako pa yung sisisihin... ='c ako pa yung papagalitan.. ='c i'm just tired... hayyy.. ang hirap ng may mga tao sa paligid mo na walang pakialam.. ='c i'm just tired..

i really want to type something... pero di ko kayang ienter yung talagang mga questions sa utak ko.. hooohh.. baka iba maging dating sa ibang tao.. baka rin puyat lang ako kaya ganito.. hmmm.. dunno.. wala rin akong karapatang mag-comment.. pero di ko talaga mapigilan ang sarili ko.. tama ba ang nararamdaman ko..? hoooohh LOrd.. ganto na lang.. tama bang tumingin sa mundo? =) [i hope you understood my question..=)]

hmmm.. up to this moment..hmmmm.. i'm still hay.. hehehe.. not totally bothered.. wala lang.. parang hanggang ngayon di ko talaga maarok kung bakit ganon.. hay... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy... diba God is not looking at outside appearance? He looks at the heart? hooohhh... nabuburden talaga ko.. ewan.. di talaga okay sa kin yung ganun eh.. heheheh... anyways, =) no comment na lang...

have you ever forgotten an event in your life that you considered so special...? =) there was this time, [it was yesterday.. ai, since its 3:10 in the morning, feb 20, that day was sunday.. hehehheeh] that i was given the chance to have a glimpse of who i was.. who i've been... about 3 years ago.. and whoa!!!! as in whoa!!!! ang nasabi ko na lang, "Lord, ganun pala ko dati! yuckers... " hehehehehehehe.. to be continued kase kailangan ko nang matulog...

i really wanted to post something... kanina pa... kaso i'm a bit sleepy... no.. hmmmm... wala lang sa mood.. heheheh... my NCS is not yet done.. buti na lang walang humanities tomorrow... and, kabago-bago ng pc may virus na agad... tsk tsk tsk.. zin churva! hahahahahaha! adik talaga yang sin na yan oh! pambihira! naninira! hahahahahahahahah!

hehehehe... i was supposed to post something... wala lang sa mood mag-blog.. hehehehe.. napagpray ko na kase... =) hmmmmmmm.... He knows my name_I am not forgotten.. = )

In the Garden of Gethsemane, the disciples went to sleep when they should have stayed awake, and once they realized what they had done it produced despair. The sense of having done something irreversible tends to make us despair. We say, "Well, it’s all over and ruined now; what’s the point in trying anymore." If we think this kind of despair is an exception, we are mistaken. It is a very ordinary human experience. Whenever we realize we have not taken advantage of a magnificent opportunity, we are apt to sink into despair. But Jesus comes and lovingly says to us, in essence, "Sleep on now. That opportunity is lost forever and you can’t change that. But get up, and let’s go on to the next thing." In other words, let the past sleep, but let it sleep in the sweet embrace of Christ, and let us go on into the invincible future with Him. There will be experiences like this in each of our lives. We will have times of despair caused by real events in our lives, and we will...

16.02.2007 “So I will consecrate the Tent of Meeting and the altar and will consecrate Aaron and his sons to serve me as priests. Then I will dwell among the Israelites and be their God. They will know that I am the Lord their God who brought them out of Egypt so that I might dwell among them. I am the Lord their God.” – Exodus 29:44-45 Just early this morning, [as in early] nung nasa van kami papuntang duty sa Rosario, Cavite, I was sort of praying… just sharing my hoooooooh what do you call that, hmmm tipong mga “hinaing” ko kay Lord…hehehe.. regarding sa mga napapansin ko.. actually, napansin pala kagabi.. hehe.. [pag-uwi ko kase, I waited for my siblings, tapos nakatulog na habang kinakabit ang cellphone chain na hindi ko makabit…] hmmm ayun… it’s about last night.. hehe.. di naman ako nagrereklamo kay Lord.. sinabi ko lang sa Kanya yung mga napansin ko… sa ibang tao, sa ibang mga tao, at sa ibang mga tao.. heheheh.. hmmm.. aun nga.. I know I’m not in the position to judge or quest...

wait lang.. i'm still not yet done editing..

this is indeed another day to fall in love with Him.. hoooh!!! it's so funny realizing that after a day or week being filled with so much from God, you'll face a day wherein you don't even have the strength to get up.. =) and whoa... buti na lang may grace coming from Him... hmmm... [actually i don't know what to do right now, hehe.. wala lang kaming class sa research.. hehe and andito kami ngayon sa e-lib with my classmates] thankful.. ...thankful because He's gracious enough to allow me to endure... it's kinda hard.. =) the thing that sometimes paralyzes me is when there's something wrong with my family... =) medyo pasaway lang kase ang kapatid ko.. hooooh Lord.. and whoa... it's kinda hard Lord.. pero buti na lang i can always come to Your presence... ...thankful becase He is faithful.. He comes to the rescue ON TIME... =) sometimes, whenever we are in an unwanted situation, we feel really weak and low.. but hey! He has His own time.. He will deliver ...

the waves they keep on telling me time and time again... boy you'll never win you'll never win but the voice of truth tells me a different story the voice of truth says do not be afraid and the voice of truth says this is for my glory out of all the voices calling out to me i will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.. **** be faithful.. in asking for souls.. be faithful... **** what are your heart's desire

walang magawa.. hehehehe

heheheheh.. recovered... i'm coming back to the heart of worship coz it's all about You.. it's all about You Jesus.. i'm sorry Lord for the things i made them when it's all about You.. it's all about You Jesus.. ************* =) it takes God to love God.. hmmm.. don't know where to start... but yung previous blog ko hehe.. wala talaga ko sa katinuan nun... God and i already talked nung saturday.. hehehehe... and hoooh... heheh.. kung ano man ung dapat kong gawin [na matagal na..] ayun, umoo na ko.. ewan kung ano ba yun... hehehe... hmmmm... it's like God has something for me.. i have to do something but i have to obey Him without me knowing it yet.. eh medyo stubborn ako lately.. ayun... kaya ayun.. basta.. hehehe... right now, i'm back.. =) =) understanding can wait, obedience can not.. =) ;] =) hooh.. hehehehehehehheeh... ************ God is able... whatever plans He has for you it shall come to pass.. just obey... =) and be willing to obey.. *****...

... about discouragement (di ko mapost sa blog kase, nagloloko) parang reasons why you get discourage: Ref. Nehemiah 4 1.Fatigue- not because of the work...but because of the negative things you hear...bigla kang napagod sa naririnig mo na negative 2.Frustration- Instead of seeing the accomplishment (halfway na kase yung walls) pero ang nakita nung tao yung rubles... out of this frustration comes Burn-out- BURN-OUT- working without a vision. or working hard for the wrong thing 3. Failure- you feel you want to give up already 4. Fear- of the people around you...hehe.. hmmmm... this is included in one of ate gil's messages.. hehehe.. it struck me.. napaisip ako dahil dito.. don't know... actually nung sunday.. whoa.. thankful talaga ko kase may nangumusta sa kin... di ko na alam kung ano na status ko honestly... hehehehe.. kuya josh and kuya kim a bit felt that i was in no good condition that day... hooooooooooooooh.. hehehehehehe.. i was praying to talk to someone... yung makiki...