Livin' only by Grace

this is watit his real name is joshua hehehe.. i will not forget this kid.. of course, he's one of my cousins.. hehe ^_^ had a great [though tough] time with him when we were in the province *_* he's only two years old.. pero parang may stranger anxiety pa.. [which is normal naman] hehe.. though boring dun sa province kase walang mapuntahan, i enjoyed playing with him [parang bata.. haha.. yaya..] and with my other cousins .. [ang laro, patintero! which is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! sakit ng ulo kase nagsisigawan sila lagi! hehe] i'm just fond of him kase daming kulit experiences.. he's not eating supplemental food.. laging milk lang..but when i was there, sabi ni tita weng, nun lang daw kumain ng rice.. sinubuan ko kase siya when we were having breakfast.. hehehehe... ako lang daw nakapagpakain ng ganun.. ^_^ weeeeeeeh! achievement.. hehe i really have that talent when it comes to kids.. napapaamo.. hahahaha joke nakakatuwa din kase di siya talaga madaling sumama sa mga hindi...

hehehe... i thank God for giving me such a wonderful opportunity to spend CHristmas here with family -- relatives from my father's side.. malayo nga lang.. hehe dito nueva vizcaya.. and whoa.. i've learned a lot of things when we were traveling papunta dito.. i've learned that : i can stand in the bus for about 10 hours..? [tayuan na kase.. hehehe] no gentleman found... hehe what else..? hmmmmmm there are different positions pala while standing.. hahaha the rest, next time na lang.. dito lang ko internet shop with many kids.. huhu

my not so biological RLE groupmates.. hehehe darryl, ten-ten, gladys, harold [and cathy], chino [and someone], royce, and I.. [yung iba kase di nakasama -- ice, jerome, ron, jc -- sorry na lang kayo wala kayo sa picture.. hehehehe] we really had a great time last night.. though the service in Gerry's grill is not that great, the food tastes great BUT STILL! the service is so tagal... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! traffic na nga papunta [na ngayon lang ako natraffic papuntang town] it's like we left at 6:30 we arrived there at about 8 pm.. you like that? huhu traffic... after eating we went bowling!! hehehehehehe... and it's really nice.. sana lang kasama yung iba. kakatuwa... adik ulit sa pictures... ^_^ na for some time.. i didn't like pictures.. i don't know why.. and i'm socializing again! hehehehe... for sometime i think i'm not really having time with people.. it's my first time to go out with my classmates.. =) and guys, thank you! i really had...

Jesus remains... this message was really poignant.. . .got rebuked also.. hehe for the past days just felt like God left me.. but He didn't.. hehe hiya nga ko kay Lord kase parang pati sa Kanya ganun naisip ko... but it's not true... when everything is gone.. i still have Jesus... - we still have Jesus... and i have to believe that... =) i really have to.. =) that's a fact... Jesus loves me and nothing could ever change that.. =) hehe... nakaka-encourage lang yung message kanina... =) Satan will do everything to discourage you.. that's his job... but what God says is this.. "Be strong and very courageous..." don't look at your "giants"... look how BIG your God is ... and everything else will change.. =) natawa pa ko dun sa outline ng message ni ptr.. the first question was are you against all odds..? what if everything else is against you...? what will you do? =) Jesus can deliver you =) just felt God's love kanina.. na parang whoa... just ca...

- Hillary Duff/Raise Your Voice i always loved this song..i think i posted this already.. just wanted to repost it.. =) Found myself today Oh I found myself and ran away Something pulled me back The voice of reason I forgot I had All I know is you're not here to say What you always used to say But it's written in the sky tonight So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching over me Seen that ray of light And it's shining on my destiny Shining all the time And I wont be afraid To follow everywhere it's taking me All I know is yesterday is gone And right now I belong To this moment to my dreams So I won't give up No I won't break down Sooner than it seems life turns around And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching...

God is love. that's it.. and for the past months... i've been learning this thing.. God's grace.. mercy.. and most of all, LOVE... it's just that sometimes, we forget to practice it... God is love.. that's His very nature... He shows love to sinners... to the sick.. to the prostitute... to everyone... if we ought to be Christ-like, we ought to practice love His way... not condemning... but understanding.. not rejecting.. but accepting... not speaking abruptly... but listening with your heart... people are not perfect... they make mistakes... you can't change that easily... it's just that no matter what happens, you have to show forth love.. that's what God does... that's what He did... that's what He's doing... loving us for eternity... can't we love our brothers and sisters..? accepting them for who they are..?

if you happen to find these people... please tell them i miss 'em... *_* love you guys...

last 2 weeks..i lost the songs in my docs... my brother reformatted the pc.. [for the nth time...] only to find out that "my music" was lost.. and just right now... hoooh... wala din yung pics ng 25k friends ko... (T_T) so sad............................. miss them badly

was able to view this post from someone in multiply.. Link: http://diegopineda.multiply.com/journal/item/8/Why_Live_in_Philippines... hmmm maya na ko magrereact.. gtg.. this is the post.. ***** This was send to me today and I find it funny. I dont know who wrote it but anyway who cares? Why live in the Pinas The only place on earth where... Every street has a basketball court. Even doctors, lawyers and engineers are unemployed. Doctors study to become nurses for employment abroad. Students pay more money than they will earn afterwards. School is considered the second home and the mall considered the third. Call-center employees earn more money than teachers and nurses. Everyone has his personal ghost story and superstition. Mountains like Makiling and Banahaw are considered holy places. Everything can be forged. All kinds of animals are edible. Starbucks coffee is more expensive than gas. Driving 4 kms can take as much as four hours. Flyovers bring you from the freeway to the side str...

hehe.. nakaharap na rin sa pc.. ahuh.. hehehe hoooh.. it's really a long week for me.. ngayon lang nagka-break.. have seminars during satrdays and sundays.. tapos katatpos lang ng duty sa san lazaro.. huhu... and ngayon.. waaaah! lasapin ang rest day.. huhu rest day nga ba..? maggagawa pa ng requirements eh.. hoooh

yesterday was the start of our seminar... [SATURDAY AND SUNDAY SEMINAR... T_T huhuhu] and the subject's about community health nursing... as the speaker was introducing himself, he said that after he graduated, he volunteered in the NGO, and he went to Mt. Province.. he taught in public school, and of course, he stayed in the community.. for two years... stuffs like those... as he was speaking.. something's just burning in my heart again - MISSION... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! i just wanna cry... i don't know why everytime i hear stories or stuffs like going to a mission or something, there's something in my heart.. whew.. that's excited.. that's wanting to go that way.. hooh! and waah... that guy's not even a Christian but he loves our country.. my country.. your country... he even joked.. he said, most of his batchmates are already abroad... they sent him e-mails saying, "hey, i'm in front of my new house" or new car.. stuffs like those.. and then h...

The One who calls you is faithful and He will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24

and still counting... hooooooooooooh.... -teary-eyed-

Yeah. I'm giving it all this time setting my mind to do whatever it takes to give the best in everything.... getting more serious... It's not easy... It can't be done in one day... but I believe that little by little.... God would eventually see the 'mhe' He wants me to be... I just have to cooperate with what God is doing in my life... [absolute surrender] below is the original post.. saw this from ate gil's scratch paper hehe... and whoa.. that's just what i wanted to do!!! hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh Yeah. I'm giving it all this time setting my mind to do whatever it takes to give the best in everything.... It's not easy... It can't be done in one day... but I believe that little by little.... God would eventually see the 'GiL' He wants me to be... I just have to cooperate with what God is doing in my life...

44 And I will sanctify the tabernacle of the congregation, and the altar: I will sanctify also both Aaron and his sons, to minister to me in the priest's office. 45 And I will dwell among the children of Israel, and will be their God. 46 And they shall know that I am the LORD their God, that brought them forth out of the land of Egypt, that I may dwell among them: I am the LORD their God. -exodus 29 King James Version **** 8 And let them make me a sanctuary; that I may dwell among them. -exodus 25

was just reminded kanina while i was praying/interceding... i was reminded of my dream dati... pag tinatanong kung ano yung top 3 dreams mo..hehe lagi kong sinusulat to: "love-filled world" kase if it is so, wala nang kung ano mang corruption, poverty, etc... hooh.. and it's just so great to be reminded of that... hoooh... was also reminded sa prayer bout this generation.. pambihira.. that for a while.. i haven't prayed for this generation.. it just crushed my heart... especially when i watched a segment i dunno nung sunday or saturday ata... they are interviewing people who engaged in pre-marital sex.. and whoa... kasing edad ko lang sila.. and yung "reason" na sinasabi dahil sa hormones.. etc.. kase teenagers want excitement and adventure.. hoooh... =j we're all prone to that... but thank God we know the truth... and we ought to share it.. to save more souls... souls... souls...

hehehe.. watching my brother do his work on plates [not pinggan, plates in engineering] makes me excited... wala lang.. hehehe i've dreamt of becoming an architect or an engineer someday [before.. when i was a little kid]... but then here i am... enduring and enjoying few months left for me to be called an RN... whew... ano kaya meron after this...? what's for me next year..? hmmmm

" absorb your Master's heart.. mind.. and passion..." i was blessed my God's message yesterday through ptr. obet.. Mary's principle.. - was born not only to make a living but to make a difference - puts Jesus at the center and believes that everything will come together.. - she was an answer to questions and a solution to problems

If the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed —John 8:36 If there is even a trace of individual self-satisfaction left in us, it always says, "I can’t surrender," or "I can’t be free." But the spiritual part of our being never says "I can’t" ; it simply soaks up everything around it. Our spirit hungers for more and more. It is the way we are built. We are designed with a great capacity for God, but sin, our own individuality, and wrong thinking keep us from getting to Him. God delivers us from sin— we have to deliver ourselves from our individuality. This means offering our natural life to God and sacrificing it to Him, so He may transform it into spiritual life through our obedience. God pays no attention to our natural individuality in the development of our spiritual life. His plan runs right through our natural life. We must see to it that we aid and assist God, and not stand against Him by saying, "I can’t do that." God will not di...

Casting crowns She is running A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction She is trying but the canyon’s ever widening In the depths of her cold heart So she sets out on another misadventure just to find She’s another two years older And she’s three more steps behind Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Or does anybody even know she’s going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple With all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? She is yearning for shelter and affection That she never found at home She is searching for a hero to ride in To ride in and save the day And in walks her prince charming And he knows just what to say Momentary lapse of reason And she gives herself away Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Or does anybody even know she’s going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple With all the lost and lonely people Se...

hihi.. we're supposed to have our IMCI lecture today.. dapat sa 15-16 [thursday, friday] pa.. hehe.. kaso our president texted us that it has been moved to 13-14 [today and tomorrow]... un nga lang.. haha! mali pala! hindi pala kami kasama dun sa imu-move! whew! ayos ba..? hehe... whew! ^_^ nakapag-mcDo tuloy.. hihi!

you've got no choice but to trust Him... "not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit," says the Lord.. hoooh...

we ought to give freely... .... ... hooh.. it just crushes my heart... whoa.. God is a merciful God.. God is a gracious God.. God is a just God.. He's not judgemental.. and He does not misjudge people.. He accepted us fully... He forgave us totally.. He loves us deeply... that should be our heart to when it comes to other people..

woke up this morning and i was singing.. haha! have you experienced that..? i was singin' tita gi's fave song.. hehe.. I am redeemed.. I am redeemed.. ayun yung kinakanta ko.. tapos whoa.. i'm just overwhelmed with God's presence during my quiet time... =j whew! and medyo nag-reflect lang ako for the past months... [i jot it down sa journal ko kase the pc's still in use kanina.. ; ) ] this year, dumating sa point na sobrang nangayaw na ko.. =j... the fuel slowly ran out.. the fire slowly died... almost quit.. thought of resting na lang... BUT GOD JUST MADE IT THROUGH! it's really really really tough... whew... been rebuked by God most of the times... i've been thinking that i am good.. but i'm not ; ) .. I NEED HIM! and [ indeed ] apart from Him I CAN DO NOTHING... the key to keep you going is to keep on falling in love with God once you do nothing, dreams start to cease... when God seems distant, don't sin when you're already weak, call a frien...

just feel weak... =j till now di pa din ako nakakapag-enrol.. =j

on-call duty at fabella dr..hehe.. sa van.. habang naghihintay ng mga nasa OR.. walang magawa..hehe ito yung time na waaah! EGR!!

...new testament times... the disciples made history through their house churches... when they fellowship, in their homes, lots of people receive Christ as their personal Lord and Savior.. 3,000 people receive Him in one day... they hold that record until today... the country that broke the record -- China.. and guess who... youth.. ages 15-19 ... hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooh... pambihira... and guess how many people got born again in a day... 22,000 people... hooooooooh!!! that was based from a survey.. [ tama ba?!] shinare lang yun ni ptr anthony kanina during our 1st small group leader's conference.. what he shared was about the basics regarding the church.. [2 or 3 gathered in His name...] i don't know but upon hearing that.. tears just fell from my eyes.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Lord..! iba talaga magagawa ng mga youth.. if only they will stick to You and get to know Your heart.. hoooH!.... and somehow nahiya ako kay Lord.. pambihira... i'm already 20... and how many peo...

-grabbed from ate gil... Around the turn of the 20 th century, a bar of steel was worth about $5. Yet when forged into horseshoes, it was worth $10; When made into needles, it’s value was $350; When used to make small pocketknife blades, it’s worth was $32,000; When made into springs for watches, its value increased to $250, 000. What a pounding the steel bar had to endure to be worth this much! Same with gold, clay, wood, plastic or any material stripped, cut or sometimes those they undergo intense heat just to be a masterpiece gaining a priceless value. But the more it was shaped, hammered, put through fire, beaten, pounded, and polished, the greater its value. And it is through pain that God gets the most out of us, His glory and for the blessing of others. -Streams in the Desert devotional

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU: 1. mhe [ate weng's the only one who calls me mhethotski.. seldom.. ewan pano at san niya nalaman yun. hehe] 2. mheries 3. ees THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE: 1. May 16, 2007 2. July 1999 3. May 6-8, 2004 THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES: 1. blogged 2. listened to songs 3. grabbed this from shee THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS: 1. Casting crowns 2. Katinas 3. parachute band THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY: 1. remind yourself [myself] that Jesus loves you [me]... 2. being reminded that HE's there... They are there.. loving me.. =) 3. cheeseburger =) THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: 1. Lifesong - Casting crowns 2. Never give up on me- Josh Bates 3. Praise You in the storm - Casting crowns, completely - Ana Laura THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: 1. naku 2. mahirap 3. to [i'm not really into looking at the physical aspect..] THREE PERSONS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST 1. panget [hehe is erickson] 2. krayst ...

=j after 50 years... was able to blog [again..] hoooh.. not that i'm busy.. [well, kinda] but that's not a reason hehe... * i'm just about to finish my 7 days of make-up duties on friday.. tomorrow's a rest day... ^_^ last day's on friday... whew! kanina pa naman ang hirap bumangon... hehe i was thinking to have my make-up duty re-scheduled.. pero 6th day ko na eh.. hehe.. never give up! whew... * [actually i forgot what i should blog.. hehe tagal kase gumamit ng pc ng kapatid ko...] * one more reason kaya hindi masyadong makagamit ng pc kase my bro's using it.. day and night.. playing perfect world.. siguro kagabi lang ako nagkaron ng chance na makagamit ng pc..hehe and i just played... ^_^ not in a good mood... =) » » » recovering ^_^ nakakahiya man aminin... i'm still on process... being tested... strugglin' within... ^_^ struggling within ... i know what to do.. how to do it.. but i can't.. but i want to do it.. not that i don't want to do ...

by Josh Bates Time after time you’ve been left behind like the sun when it’s starting to rain Time after time you’ve been forgotten like a picture that’s faded with age Time after time you ran after me when I was still running away Chorus: You never give up on me No, You never give up on me Though I’m weak you are strong You told me I still belong No, you never, never give up on me Time after time I’ve used your grace as a way to do what I please I’ve taken for granted prayers that you answered never been all I could be You are holding out your hands and now I clearly see Chorus You always erase all my mistakes You lift me up when I'm down Through all the ages, Your love never changes You welcome me just as I am Chorus never give up, never give up on me... *** first heard this song sa facing the giants na movie.. waah! tapos ang tagal kong naghanap ng maddownload.. saw the lyrics from allane's site.. tapos ayun hinanap ko ulit! and voila!! whew! if you want to hear it, it's...

by: Casting Crowns Empty hands held high Such small sacrifice If not joined with my life I sing in vain tonight May the words I say And the things I do Make my lifesong sing Bring a smile to You Let my lifesong sing to You Let my lifesong sing to You I want to sign Your name to the end of this day Knowing that my heart was true Let my lifesong sing to You Lord I give my life A living sacrifice To reach a world in need To be Your hands and feet So may the words I say And the things I do Make my lifesong sing Bring a smile to You Hallelujah Hallelujah Let my lifesong sing to You

by: Casting Crowns I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down and wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day. But once again, I say amen and it's still raining as the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain, "I'm with you" and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away . Chorus: And I'll praise you in this storm and I will lift my hands for You are who You are no matter where I am and every tear I've cried You hold in your hand You never left my side and though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm I remember when I stumbled in the wind You heard my cry to You and raised me up again my strength is almost gone how can I carry on if I can't find You and as the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain "I'm with you" and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away I lift my eyes onto the hills where...

The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.. -deuteronomy 33:27a it's just soo sweet that every time we're about to fall.. God's everlasting arms are underneath us.. =) whew

received a text from a friend last night.. and ito nga daw yun.. minamaliit ang med schools sa Philippines.. from desperate housewinves.. whew.. watch it.. -sigh- public apology.?

this was held last sunday... 4th service.. hehe.. =) for youth and ya worship revival =) song: adonai

Holy Spirit, Touch Your people Teach us the ways of God And as we live, As Jesus did You are honored and lifted up There's a stirring in the Spirit There's an urgency in this hour We as children must obey Can you hear The footsteps of God God is moving, God is moving Can you hear the sound Of revival As we praise You, as we sing Draw near to us O God As we cry out for the nations Pour out revival in the land (tears) There's a stirring in the Spirit There's an urgency in this hour We as children must obey Can you hear The footsteps of God ***** this song always encourages me.. hoooh!!!

... in Christ alone! hehe.. was just reminded of that yesterday when a friend texted me..that's the Word in their youth service... she said they are having a series on reclaiming your treasures [ata?] hehe... how to reclaim your purity.. repent and surrender your all to Jesus.. that's it! =) last week the Word was about reclaiming your treasures... whoa... i was thinking.. iba talaga pag may youth pastor.. hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh!!! Lord.. waah.. =) it's just my dream.. =) na darating yung time na waaah! basta.. hehe

it's been like 3 or more weeks... since we passed our manuscript for our final defense... and the submission of the final copy [hard bound] is october 12 [which is next week...] and guess what... our schedule for final defense has been moved.. and moved.. and moved... and moved... the final defense is supposed to be today.. but yesterday, the secretary told my thesismates that the chairman of the panel [our beloved dean] is not available today... so she said, it would be on friday [but IT'S STILL NOT SURE....] and one professor joked at them saying, " octoberian na kayo.." whew.. [ tapos marami pang gagawin dun after the final defense.. =j -sigh- but i'm not worrying on those stuffs...] i don't believe that.. i believe that God's going to do something great.. but i don't know how.. i don't know when.. but one thing's for sure... He's never late... He's always on time.. -sigh- but sometimes.. honestly... i just don't know what to do....

If You can do anything, have compassion on us and help us —Mark 9:22 After every time of exaltation, we are brought down with a sudden rush into things as they really are, where it is neither beautiful, poetic, nor thrilling. The height of the mountaintop is measured by the dismal drudgery of the valley, but it is in the valley that we have to live for the glory of God. We see His glory on the mountain, but we never live for His glory there. It is in the place of humiliation that we find our true worth to God— that is where our faithfulness is revealed. Most of us can do things if we are always at some heroic level of intensity, simply because of the natural selfishness of our own hearts. But God wants us to be at the drab everyday level, where we live in the valley according to our personal relationship with Him. Peter thought it would be a wonderful thing for them to remain on the mountain, but Jesus Christ took the disciples down from the mountain and into the valley, where the ...

was just reminded kanina.. during our devotion sa soul stop.. about bein' part of the body of Christ... na we shouldn't desire for praises of people.. it's hard because it's our nature as humans... we tend to become histrionic at times.. but then, wala naman tayong mapapala if we have hidden agendas in our hearts... diba..? hehe katuwa lang yung naging sharing kanina kase parang whoa... hindi ganun kabigat yung discussion but it's indeed a great reminder...=) we are created imperfectly for us to learn how to depend on others... =) we are created to praise Him alone.. =) [ tamad na mag-type... hehe]

. . . Jesus took . . . them up on a high mountain apart by themselves . . . —Mark 9:2 We have all experienced times of exaltation on the mountain, when we have seen things from God’s perspective and have wanted to stay there. But God will never allow us to stay there. The true test of our spiritual life is in exhibiting the power to descend from the mountain. If we only have the power to go up, something is wrong. It is a wonderful thing to be on the mountain with God, but a person only gets there so that he may later go down and lift up the demon-possessed people in the valley (see Mark 9:14-18 ). We are not made for the mountains, for sunrises, or for the other beautiful attractions in life— those are simply intended to be moments of inspiration. We are made for the valley and the ordinary things of life, and that is where we have to prove our stamina and strength. Yet our spiritual selfishness always wants repeated moments on the mountain. We feel that we could talk and live like p...

I now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up in my flesh what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ, for the sake of His body, which is the church . . . —Colossians 1:24 We take our own spiritual consecration and try to make it into a call of God, but when we get right with Him He brushes all this aside. Then He gives us a tremendous, riveting pain to fasten our attention on something that we never even dreamed could be His call for us. And for one radiant, flashing moment we see His purpose, and we say, "Here am I! Send me" ( Isaiah 6:8 ). This call has nothing to do with personal sanctification, but with being made broken bread and poured-out wine. Yet God can never make us into wine if we object to the fingers He chooses to use to crush us. We say, "If God would only use His own fingers, and make me broken bread and poured-out wine in a special way, then I wouldn’t object!" But when He uses someone we dislike, or some set of circumstances to which we sa...

this is based from a true story... grabe lang.. they are that determined to be baptized... to be one with Christ.. taking the cross.. whew... kahit gano kalayo makahanap lang ng pastor.. pambihira.. whew... it really crushed my heart...

got this from ate gil.. You may not understand, but I am telling you that if you believe, you will see Faith must be tested and the sense of 'feeling deserted' is "the furnace heated seven times hotter than the usual" (Dan 3:19) Pruning seems to be destroying the vine and the gardener 'appears' to be cutting everything away. Yet he sees the future and knows the final result will be the enrichment of the life of the vine and a greater abundance of fruit For God's vision to be impressed on our hearts we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time. Remember, the 'troubled' surface of a lake will not reflect an image. Seeing God in everything is the only thing that will make me loving and patient with people who annoy and trouble me. Then I will see others as the insturments god uses to accomplish His tender and wise purpose for me, and I will even find myself inwardly thanking them for the blessing they have become to me. -excerpt from ...

peter... redemption sample flash from here it's really really really really waaaaaaaaaaaaah!

today is my last CNM days.. hehe graduating na kase.. hehe and whoa... i'm gonna wear pink. hehe yun kase yung batch color namin.. -wink- well... it's just weird.. hehe di ko alam kung naging sobrang tahimik lang ba ko at passive o ano.. hehe.. dito nanaman sa e-lib and whoa.. instead of watching the volleyball game [which im very very very very fond of... because it reminds me of my high school days and my beloved 25k peeps..] andito ko sa e-lib.. hehehe was just reminded of high school intrams.. kaka-miss lang.. one week na walang ginagawa.. the cheering competition... [which i love the most..] table tennis thingy... [my favorite sports...] volleyball [as well...] hehe.. kaka-miss lang... last tuesday, we [my 25k peeps] had our 6th anniversary .. weeeeeeh! hehe.. hooh! just received text messages from my friends.. well, from erick, tina, mitch, kennon and james lang... =) but what struck me the most was tina's 2nd [or 3rd] txt message..hehe she texted lahat ng mga bagay b...

got this post from mitch.. she got it from a word 4u today.. "I BEG GOD FOR HELP, BUT THERE IS NO ANSWER" Job 30:20 Here are some lessons we can learn from His silence: 1) SILENCE ISN'T ABSENCE David said, "I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence." (Psalm 139:7 NLT) You have to be very secure with somebody just to sit quietly with them. Silence can allow the development of an intimacy where words are no longer necessary . If you want to be that comfortable around God, then learn to enter into the silence with Him. 2) SILENCE TESTS YOUR TRUST LEVEL How much trust is actually involved if somebody's coaching your step? It is like a parent running alongside a child who's learning to ride a bike. In the early stages the child lacks confidence, but he's going to look strange at 50 if his dad's still trotting along beside him! 3) SILENCE BRINGS YOU TO THAT POINT OF LISTENING TO GOD'S HEART. [ just got this number...

re-sched nanaman ang final defense namin for the nth time.. wuhooo! hehehe kulit lang kase parang yung mga thesismates ko naiinis na.. ewan ko kung wala lang ba kong pakelam o alam ko naman kasing matatapos yung final defense by hook or by crook.. hehehe nah.. by faith matatapos yun! hooh LOrd... **** just don't know what He wants to teach me.. i just know it's about waiting.. every answer seems to be "wait..." sa thesis wait.. sa bahay wait.. sa... wait.. hooh LOrd.. =) is this another level of waiting... ? or this kind of waiting... [an excerpt from passion and purity] August 17, 1948 - Silence begins to drag on my soul. It is a kind of waiting which hears no voice, no footstep, sees no sign. I feel that I could wait ten years, if it were not this waiting, this silence... ... was it necessary for God to test the fiber of His children for forty years in the wilderness? Wouldn't forty days have been enough? The process must go on.. and on... and on. John Buchan pu...

[just wondering.. nakakailang post na kaya ako na ang naka-lagay ay e-lib?? hehe] met ate lynn few minutes ago.. katabi ko siya dito sa med-lib.. weird kase katabi ko siya pero we didn't notice each other... hehe camille is sitting next to her and when camille called me, she looked at me and said uyy!!! ikaw pala yan! hehe and i reacted the same way... hehe gulat talaga! and ayun... she just reminded me of the importance of prayer kahit na sa thesis lang.. whew! their thesis became the best thesis last year.. and whoa.. ayun.. every detail has been prayed for and God indeed has been glorified i know.. hooH! sarap lang ng feeling ng reminded that you really have to pray for everything.. every single detail.. and whoa!!! God is willing to help! =) ***** yesterday, was able to dance [once again!] hooh LOrd... =)

A thousand times I've failed Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame Your will above all else My purpose remains The art of losing myself In bringing You praise Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame In my heart and my soul Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame And the cry of my heart Is to bring You praise From the inside out Lord my soul cries out

from the past months i've been through this.. i've learned a lot from God... i don't know if other people realize that.. but one thing's for sure... i was really really really amazed at how it has been.. at how God has been faithful... =) God is gracious and merciful... Never ever think that you can do something because you already know how to do it or because you are convicted to do so... or else... -grin- Never ever judge someone... =) "what we need is an encouragement..." He still loves me no matter what.. He doesn't look at the flaws... nor the shortcomings.. He looks at your heart.. that little strength in your heart that says "Lord, i still want to love you..." when God answers your prayers, make sure you're ready... in whatever way He will answer it.. haha! [just like the way He answered mine.. ] hehehehe.. pero don't listen to emotions.. Patience.. God is patient.. so you should be patient to... Listening.. Not taking one step ahe...

Helicopter Game try this one.. hehehehe ... this has been introduced to me by a great friend.. and i was playing this one... asking God why am i playing this game.. hehehehe... just wanted to learn something.... the instruction says, press the left mouse button... pressing... what's so important about pressing on... it keeps you going... sometimes you have to press intermittently... sometimes one press will keep you up.. but sometimes you have to travel at the lower side of the journey.. yet pressing on will still help you... =) when you press longer, you'll go up.. but it will lead you to a crash... -grin- that's why in our journey with God... let's just allow Him to take us where He wants us to go.. He's the one making our hearts obedient and stubborn [forgot the verse..] and there's a period wherein we just have to press a little to keep us going.. press some more to sustain... and press longer to move up.. but God will just allow us to stay where He wants us...

hehe...yesterday, just had the best sleep ever... [for this semester...] i slept for about 13 hours [almost...] heheheh.. after my duty yesterday at national center for mental health, i arrived home at about 130pm then i slept at 2pm... medyo pagising-gising ako pero natutulog ulit... nakabangon lang ng mga 3am kanina.. hihi.. kasi ba naman, 1:15am na ko natulog kahapon tapos kailangang gumising ng 3am kase duty nga..hooH! ayun.. heheheh

and it all comes back to you.. la la la la la la la.. hahahaha.. natutuwa lang ako sa commercial na to... hehehe have you watched it already..??? hehehe ang kulit lang kasi and oo nga.. hehe you give a little love and it all comes back to you.. la la la la lalala..

Scattered words and empty thoughts Seem to pour from my heart I've never felt so torn before Seems I don't know where to start But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in your truth I still believe in your holy word Even when I don't see, I still believe Though the questions still fog up my mind With promises I still seem to bear Even when answers slowly unwind It's my heart I see you prepare But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in your truth I still believe in your holy word Even when I don't see, I still believe Well the only place I can go is into your arms Where I throw to you my feeble prayers well in brokeness I can see that this was your will for me Help me to know that you are near I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in yo...

buti na lang may chocolates... they say that chocolates makes people happy... hehe not just the thought of you having a chocolate... it has something to do with the neurotransmitters in our brain that excites us.. and thank God for the chocolate... =)

are you ready... God is a promise-keeping God... He's faithful and His will prevails.. but what if your prayer has been answered but somehow it hurts... it's a bit painful... but that's what you've prayed for... will you trust Him once more... or will you just remain defiant...

. . . bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ . . . —2 Corinthians 10:5 Determinedly Discipline Other Things. This is another difficult aspect of the strenuous nature of sainthood. Paul said, according to the Moffatt translation of this verse, ". . . I take every project prisoner to make it obey Christ . . . ." So much Christian work today has never been disciplined, but has simply come into being by impulse! In our Lord’s life every project was disciplined to the will of His Father. There was never the slightest tendency to follow the impulse of His own will as distinct from His Father’s will— "the Son can do nothing of Himself . . . " ( John 5:19 ). Then compare this with what we do— we take "every thought" or project that comes to us by impulse and jump into action immediately, instead of imprisoning and disciplining ourselves to obey Christ. Practical work for Christians is greatly overemphasized today, and the saints who are...

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"okay, let's get directly straight to the point... i appreciate your thesis but... " whew... few days left to meet the deadline for the thesis manuscript for final defense... well, this is the story... our schedule of final defense was supposed to be tuesday last week... and oh... we were not able to pass our manuscript so we asked if we can have our final oral defense rescheduled. and so it happened. [whew!] that was last wednesday... and to our surprise... the chairman of the panel said, "okay, let's get directly straight to the point... i appreciate your thesis but i can't afford to compromise the standard of our school... i appreciate the effort of your statistician but mali ang ginawa niya... [etc]... ano ba yung statistician niyo, professional of undergraduate..?" graduating na po sa october..." "well, we appreciate her effort pero hindi dapat ganito? may sample thesis ba kayo..? [etc]" [can't defend the chapter because they did ...