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i need a reason...

la lang.. ehehehe.. 3 days to go and it's Christmas.. i should be happy.. haha! i should really feel that it's Christmas.. kaya lang, ewan.. parang it's just an ordinary vacation... [haha! sana makapag-bakasyon ako!!!!] kase this whole week, we've been practicing for Christmas cantata.. then after Christmas, sa speech choir naman sa school.. o dba..??? sana lang makapag-bakasyon ako!!!

pero ndi nman ako nagrereklamo... it's great na may ginagawa ako.. it's for God's glory... pero bukod sa bday un ng ating Savior, parang ndi enough...? [ang sama ko noh!] nways, i just pray na sana pasayahin nalang ni Lord ung Christmas ko... ehehehe...

buti pa ung mga kids, excited.. sana ganun din kadaling maging masaya ang mga teens. ehehehe...i think i have a clue kung bakit ndi ko masyado feel ang Christmas.. [but i know God is/will be teaching me what the real meaning of Christmas is..]

first, siguro kase wala akong boyfriend.. [feeling ko kase, nagiging excited ang mga tao pag may special someone..?]
second, kase ndi ako nag-simbang gabi... [last year nabuo ko un.. ehehehe.. ciempre may kasama ako.. pero it's wrong.. basta..]

i think, God is teaching me the real meaning of Christmas.. ndi ung porket may bf/gf ka or natapos mo ung simbang gabi [because it's the traditional chuchu... sign na magcchristmas na..] there's a very special reason.. and that i have to find out..

press on!

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