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it's so dark.. .

Last week, I felt so excited.. . Today, I felt like giving up.. . Nothing seems to make sense.. . Who said that waiting is easy? Who said that being still would be easy? Who said that obeying God would be easy?

It's hard.. . And I'm only banking on His promises for me to be able to hope for tomorrow.. . I'm holding on to His grace for me to be able to see things through.. .

It's hard when you can't see what lies ahead.. . Especially for me.. . I'd be the most impatient person you'll ever know.. .

Lord You know how hard this is for me.. .

I just want to cry.. .

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(I can really relate with this chapter.. . Excerpt from Max Lucado's A Gentle Thunder)

Doesn't peace always follow obedience?

Perhaps the disciples had the same expectation. They only did what they were told. Jesus told them to get into the boat, so they did. They didn't question the order; they simply obeyed it. They could have objected. After all, it was evening and darkness was only minutes away. But Jesus told them to get into the boat, so they did.

What was the result of their obedience? John's crisp description will tell you: "That evening Jesus' followers went down to Lake Galilee. It was dark, and Jesus had not yet come to them. The followers got into a boat and started across the lake to Capernaum. By now a strong wind was blowing, and the waves on the lake were getting bigger" (John 6:16-17).

What a chilling phrase, "Jesus had not yet come to them." Caught in the storm of the "not yet." They did exactly what Jesus said, and look what it got them! A night on a storm-tossed sea with their Master somewhere on the shore.

(good thing the author went on and didn't end up with this paragraph)

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