can you keep a secret...?

^^

I know I'm not getting any younger.. . and for quite some time, I was in a quarter life crisis.. . I have my own fear.. . I have my own dreams.. . and on my own, I can't make it.. . I couldn't have made it this far.. . and for the past months.. . for the past years... . There's just one thing that is constant.. . and that's surrendering whatever it is to Him--be it a frustration, a dream that's yet to come true.. .a dream that you don't know if it will come true.. . a blessing that you had or a blessing that you will receive.. . just surrender it all to Him.. . in simpler terms, give it back to Him.. . and you don't have to worry anymore.. . That's the secret to keep going.. .

And next year, I no longer believe that it will be a tough one.. . many people said that 2008 will be tough, 2009 tougher.. .but where is it!? haha! My God is tougher than all of 'em! And next year, whatever is in it for me, I desire to give it back to Him as early as now.. . The blessings, the lessons, the unwanted experiences, I just want to give it back to Him.. . because it's His.. .and I can continue this journey with peace that transcends all understanding.. .

My God is faithful ^^ He is and will always be! Happy Birthday Daddy!

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Maturity

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Thoughts

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