In a few months time, I'll be welcoming another year.. . I'm turning 22.. . Once, a friend told me how important goals are.. . She always has.. . When she turned 20, she wants to be like this.. . When she turned 21, like this.. . and so on.. . I tried to somehow do the same thing.. . but when I turned 20, I somehow screwed things up.. . *_* realizing that I can never do it alone.. .
Now I'm turning 22.. . What's in it for me? I remember a conversation between me and a friend when we were still teenagers.. . "Why are you excited to be 20 years old?" "It's because I can do more -- like decide more etc".. . But just now, I realized.. . how I wish I was younger.. . (haha!) Not that I regret things.. . It's just that I'm kind of "not ready" yet.. . I don't know.. . When I look at the people.. . my young cousins.. . sometimes I ask myself, "So, what's gonna happen next? I'm not getting younger.. . I'm getting older.. . In a few years, I'll be having my own family.. . have kids.. . and then.. . ? die? Is that all?" I'm not afraid of dying.. . what scares me is that I'd die without doing something.. . just doing the "routine" way of living -- entering this world, studying, working, getting married, having kids, dying. haha.. . I don't want routines! I want to do something significant.. . but right now significant seems so so blurry.. . -sigh-
Yes, I'm turning 22.. . learning.. . enduring.. . sometimes stubborn.. . but living life.. . not for my own.. . but for my Maker.. . I don't know what's in it for me.. . but that's life--full of surprises.. . I don't want to write down my goals when I turn 22.. . I'm afraid of screwing things up again.. . I'll just challenge myself.. . and no matter how old I am, this will still be my challenge.. . I know I shared this one time to a group.. . I just can't remember when.. . but the challenge is this,
I'll try to love Him more.. . because with His love, I can never go wrong.. . only by His Grace.. .because of His love.. .
Simple.. . but it's not easy.. . but it's not impossible..
Delight yourself in the LORD
and He will give you the desires of your heart.. .
Now I'm turning 22.. . What's in it for me? I remember a conversation between me and a friend when we were still teenagers.. . "Why are you excited to be 20 years old?" "It's because I can do more -- like decide more etc".. . But just now, I realized.. . how I wish I was younger.. . (haha!) Not that I regret things.. . It's just that I'm kind of "not ready" yet.. . I don't know.. . When I look at the people.. . my young cousins.. . sometimes I ask myself, "So, what's gonna happen next? I'm not getting younger.. . I'm getting older.. . In a few years, I'll be having my own family.. . have kids.. . and then.. . ? die? Is that all?" I'm not afraid of dying.. . what scares me is that I'd die without doing something.. . just doing the "routine" way of living -- entering this world, studying, working, getting married, having kids, dying. haha.. . I don't want routines! I want to do something significant.. . but right now significant seems so so blurry.. . -sigh-
Yes, I'm turning 22.. . learning.. . enduring.. . sometimes stubborn.. . but living life.. . not for my own.. . but for my Maker.. . I don't know what's in it for me.. . but that's life--full of surprises.. . I don't want to write down my goals when I turn 22.. . I'm afraid of screwing things up again.. . I'll just challenge myself.. . and no matter how old I am, this will still be my challenge.. . I know I shared this one time to a group.. . I just can't remember when.. . but the challenge is this,
By the end of this year, can you say to yourself,I was able to love Jesus more than last year.. .?
I'll try to love Him more.. . because with His love, I can never go wrong.. . only by His Grace.. .because of His love.. .
Simple.. . but it's not easy.. . but it's not impossible..
Delight yourself in the LORD
and He will give you the desires of your heart.. .
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