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If leaders are to survive,
they must view the difficult as commonplace,
the complex as normal.
-spiritual leadership

hmmmmm.. hehehe... i like that line.. =)

hmmmm... how's me..? well, i know i'm doing great.. in a few hours magdu-duty na ko... sa ER... kumusta naman...
and somehow i'm great...
last week, i was really struggling... parang i can't live like this... hehehe... parang ayoko na may aagaw ng oras ko for Him... and specially sa ministry... parang kung ang pagduduty ay makakapag-hinder dun... parang wag na lang amgduty... pero some people napapagsabay naman ang work at ministry diba..? hehehehe

i wrote something nga nung 1st day ng duty... [kala nga nila natutulog daw ako.. e nagsusulat ako...]
here it is...

[the struggle]
2200UMC
11.04.2007
0339am

Lord, can i live like this? Hooh! all my life ganito yung magiging takbo ng buhay ko... hmmm.. mukhang di pa ko prepared to work... i mean may times na yung ministry medyo di ako makakaattend or magiging present... parang Lord, what do You want me to do? Please teach me how to love this job Lord...
Parang i can take it kung mission... pero kung mara-rob yung time ko for You, i don't think so... But then ministry pa rin po to... LOrd and i believe YOu called me for this one... Lord, naiiyak lang ako kase parang di ko kayang maging ganito... parang gusto ko pa na intindihin na lang yung youth... or magkaron ng job na 8-5 lang.. ganun.. -sigh- i don't know Lord.. i just can't accept it... But i know You can teach me how... how to be the "coffee"...
Lord... -sigh- teach me how to let go! yung i can let go of the responsibilities sa youth.. kase parang yun yung gustong-gusto kong gawin.... but i can feel that now is not the right time...
-sigh-
i don't know what to do Lord.. even what to feel.. parang kinakabahan ako na ewan... parang, ito na yung magiging work ko in the near future... Lord... teach me how to love this one... [another level] tanggap ko na po na ito ay calling ko... pero yung may mga "ganito", teach me how to react LOrd... how to accept and receive the "unwanted circumstances"
-sigh- L0rd...
LOrd... LOrd.. Lord...
Help me...

hehehe... then i just wrote songs... when you don't know what else to say... and you can't find the words to say.. just say the name... of Jesus...

meron pa pala kong sinulat...

pwede ba na your heart is for the youth pero minimal lang yung nagagawa mo? or you choose to do talaga your heart's desire...?

[my prayer]
LOrd, just open my heart for YOur real calling and for Your plans... grant me an obedient heart... and wisdom also.. on how to focus on what i'm doing... with what i have... i understand that these are preparations... help me overcome!

***********************

hooh! LOrd... hooh!
=)

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