Livin' only by Grace

don't know what to post.. heheheheh... 11 days before the camp.. and whoa.. hehehhehehehehehe.. Lord, am i already prepared for it? have i done the necessary preparations? hooh Lord... hmm... lately, God is teaching me to look at the positive side... He taught me how not to complain... ;) heheheheheh... He taught me how to shut up.. haahahahahaha hoooh! and grabe lang.. nung last duty ko this week, that was thursday, [i was suppost to write something here thursday night.. kaya lang, after watching facing the giants, natulog ako ng 4:30 pm thursday, and i woke up 8:30 am friday.huhuhuh! kaya di na nakapag-internet..] anyways, going back.. ayun... i'm not toxic that time.. i only have one patient and wala masyadong procedures... then bigla akong tinawag ng prof ko... magbBT daw ako... [blood transfusion.. kumusta naman?] well, she's not my patient.. she's my classmate's patient tapos ako magbBT.. e parang di okay sa kin yung ganun... i'm not prepared.. tapos, para...

March 26-30 UMC 1400 6-2 April 9-13 UMC 2200 10-6 April 16-20 UMC ICU/ ER 10-6 April 23-27 UMC 2300 6-2 April 30-May 4 ortho May 14-18 JP 3 6-2 [ata? hehehehe.. di ko pala na-copy yung time...] anyways.. this is my summer sched.. so ang bakasyon ko lang holy week, may 7-11, may 21- june before classes start! hoooohhh.. and ilang weeks ba yun..? hehehehe.. ang icoconsider ko lang na bakasyon yung sa may eh.. hehehehe.. sa holy week maraming gagawin for the camp.. hooh! LOrd! i need grace! and wisdom and empowerment.. hooh... ************* i was just reminded... the nazirite lifestyle... marked... consecrated yung spiritual appetite, appearance and association... hooh Lord... gusto ko pa din matuto.. hmmm pero gusto ko pang mas magkaron ng desire na matuto... Lord help me.. hooh! heheheheh.. prepare me..

that's what i should remember... after the facilitator's workshop kanina. hehehehe.. hmmm... meron pang sinabi si tita gi eh..parang, to be a blah blah [i forgot], you must first become a "matapang na taga-sunod ni Kristo..." and yun lang yung tinandaan ko.. heheheheh.. di kase ako nakapag-notes eh.. kaya i tried to remember what i should remember... and about peter... ano nga ba yun..? ang alam ko lang, nakakarelate ako sa kanya... [when Jesus asked him if he really loves Him...] may mga na-cite si tita gi na oh my heheh.. nakalimutan ko.. pero sana i-reveal ulit sa kin ni LOrd yun.. hooh.. basta parang sa napapagod.. ganun... and whoa whoa whoa.. .grabe lang.. grabe lang si LOrd.. lately, He's really teaching me how to be humble..and indeed sobrang dami lang ng attacks.. but i'm glad kase God uses those things [na sinisira ako ng kaaway] for me to learn how to fight back... i really have to pray if i wanna fight.. and i really wanna fight.. i don't wanna...

Did not our heart burn within us . . . ? —Luke 24:32 We need to learn this secret of the burning heart. Suddenly Jesus appears to us, fires are set ablaze, and we are given wonderful visions; but then we must learn to maintain the secret of the burning heart— a heart that can go through anything. It is the simple, dreary day, with its commonplace duties and people, that smothers the burning heart— unless we have learned the secret of abiding in Jesus. Much of the distress we experience as Christians comes not as the result of sin, but because we are ignorant of the laws of our own nature. For instance, the only test we should use to determine whether or not to allow a particular emotion to run its course in our lives is to examine what the final outcome of that emotion will be. Think it through to its logical conclusion, and if the outcome is something that God would condemn, put a stop to it immediately. But if it is an emotion that has been kindled by the Spirit of God and you don’t ...

i was trying to create a web page at gogglepages.. and then when i was about to write a subhead, i was typing my life verse.. parang automatic na na yun yung ilalagay ko.. and whoa.. i was just reminded... i have been crucified with Christ and I NO LONGER LIVE ... but Christ lives in me... the life i live, i live by faith in the Son of God.. who loved me and gave Himself for me... whoooo!!! and He's been reminding me why i'm here... who am i... a nazirite.. consecrated one... radical lover of Jesus Christ... ; ) that's my identity... =) hooh praise God!

heheheh... simula ng nag-online ako, open na tong page na to.. and that was about 7pm? hehehehe.. it's almost one and ngayon lang ako makakapag-blog.. heheheheh.. adik.. just done with the groupings... i'm feeling a little better now.. hooh LOrd... have to fight those emotions away... it shouldn't be... =) napag-isip-isip ko na wala talagang point eh.. heheheheh.. pam pam.. nways... =) i'm just good... ready to face the day ahead with God by my side... =) i refuse to be discouraged... and my confidence is in God... ; ) He's more than enough... =) i refuse to look sideways... ; ) because it's discouraging... ; ) i should look at Jesus... =) we'll meet at the finish line.! hoooh!

by Chris Tomlin All of You is more than enough for all of me For every thirst and every need You satisfy me with Your love And all I have in You is more than enough You are my supply My breath of life And still more awesome than I know You are my reward worth living for And still more awesome than I know All of You is more than enough for all of me For every thirst and every need You satisfy me with Your love And all I have in You is more than enough You're my sacrifice Of greatest price And still more awesome than I know You're the coming King You are everything And still more awesome than I know More than all I want More than all I need You are more than enough for me More than all I know More than all I can say You are more than enough for me

and i just saw this one.. i think this was my first blog here.. hehehehe.. it's been so long.. hooh.. and natuwa lang ako dito.. hehehe Why true love waits Everyone longs to give himself completely to someone-to have a deep soul relationship with another,to be loved thoroughly and exclusively..but God, to Christians, say no,not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and contentedwith living- LOVED by Him alone!--giving yourself totally, unreservedly, to have an intensely, personal and unique realtionship with God alone.. "I LOVE YOU, MY CHILD.."" ... And until you discover that only in ME is your atisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of perfect human relationship that I have planned for you... you will never be united with nother until you are united with Me....exclusively of anyone or anything else.. exclusively of any desires of longings... I want you to stop PLANNING.. stop WISHING.. and allow MEto GIVE YOU the most thrilling plan existing..one that you ...

cold... so cold...

i was just glad na sa thesis namin.. whoa.. heheheheheehe... di kami pinaulit or what.. magdadagdag na lang... and grabe lang si Lord.. kase yung mga panel, wala silang binigay na deadline na ganto or what.. hehehehehe.unlike sa ibang groups, yung kasunod namin, they are reequested to pass their manuscript tomorrow.. e uulitin nila yun lahat.. tapos yung group na sinundan namin, they have to pass their tool on wednesday.. e kami, ang sabi lang ni dean, we have to pass the summary of suggestions within this week.. tapos yung questionnaire, basta bago daw kami magpa-validate, pa-check muna sa kanila.. hehehehehehhehehe!!! seems light? heheheheh wellyeah? we call that God's favor! sabi nga ni camille, kase daw nagpray kami.. yes.. and i said, that's favor! hehehehehehehe

tamang hinala hooh! it's almost one in the morning.. and my mom just woke up.. i left the pc because i was preparing something to eat.. [soup lang naman.. hehehehehehe] then she verbalized, "sino yan, boyfriend mo?" duh?!?!?!??!?!? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!! ang pinaka-ayoko pa naman, yung someone's accusing me of something that i'm innocent of!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!! hoooh! e ang nasa monitor lang naman yung media player at yung dashboard ng blog ko... so sino dun ang boyfriend ko?!?!?!? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh! hoooh... this is the second time.. arrrggghhhh! hooh LOrd.. patience... patience. patience... patience. patience... patience.. hooh... breathe in..breathe out.. breathe in.. breathe out.. hooooh.. patience........... relax... hooooooooh

My world is closing in On the inside But I’m not showing it When all I am is crying out I hold it in and fake a smile Still I’m broken... I’m broken Only one can understand And only one can hold the hand Of the broken… Of the broken When no one else knows how I feel Your love for me is proven real When no one else cares where I’ve been You run to me with outstretched hands And You hold me in your arms again I need no explanation of why me I just need confirmation Only You could understand the emptiness inside my head I am falling… I am falling I’m falling down upon my knees To find the one who gives me peace I am flying... Lord I am flying When no one else knows how I feel Your love for me is proven real When no one else cares where I’ve been You run to me with outstretched hands And You hold me in Your arms again I have come to you in search of faith Cause I can’t see beyond this place Oh You are God and I am man So I’ll leave it in Your hands When no one else knows how I feel Your lo...

kaya i changed my template.. hehehehe.. i pray that someday i'll be able to create one.. my own...heheheheh

just feeling great... about a few hours ago... ; ) and striving to fight... ; ) hehehehehe... hmmm LOrd... when will this end?!? hooh...

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i like this book... hehehehe and it's really helping me... hehehe and whoa whoa whoa.. these lines touched me... But sometimes God uses difficult situations in life to break us open all at once. Loneliness, grief, pain, injustice, trauma, betrayal - the hammers God uses to crack open our tough exteriors are as varied as the hearts they break. _beauty lies between a rock and a hard place Sometimes love will involve letting others lean on us for a while. Other times it may mean moving far enough away so they can learn to stand alone. One way to get a deeper, broader view of love in action is to read the Bible. God never said it would be easy. He only said it was the right thing to do and that He would make it possible for us to do what seems impossible. And that's a promise. The steps of love you take will untangle ties that have been in knots for years, even the ones inside you. _Keep your family ties tangle-free

sabi dun sa lyrics ng song na pinapakinggan ko ngayon... =) heheheh ***** i just wanna cry.. feeling ko kaya i feel bad right now coz i haven't poured out my heart to God yet... don't know... di ko lam.. don't even know if i'm hurt... or what... if i'm feeling good or what... i'm not justifying something... di ako nagrereklamo... that i know... pero i don't know if there's something in my heart that says, "Lord masakit pala yun... kala ko okay lang... well, i just know what to react.. i know i shouldn't justify.. i know i should obey.. and that's what i want to do... but then, there's something na parang di okay... and i have to open it up.. hooh Lord... hooooooooooooohhhh... i just don't know.... but i know i'll be fine.. i'm good.. =) di ko na alam kung anong sasabihin ko eh.. hehehe... ***** i was just reminded of the things na tinatayuan ko... well, for some time i've been deceived? or blinded? i don't know.. pero...

hehehehe... hindi naman masamang mag-act according to your convictions diba? like... i don't want any guy to touch me... [conviction ko yun lalo na pag nagkaron na ko ng boyfriend.. no holding hands haha!] yun nga lang.. hooh.. some people doesn't seem to understand.. but then, it's my conviction! hehehehehehehe

what if dumating sa point na ito ang sasabihin sayo ni Lord... *"Tell the Israelites (youth), You are a stiff-necked people. If I were to go with you even for a moment, I might destroy you..." oh no.. oh no..... for the past days, God has been telling that to me.. and hooh. i've been disregarding it as if i'm asking Him, "Lord, sure ka?!!?" hooh! and ngayon.. hooh... ***** we need watchmen... people who'd desire to look out if there's an enemy coming.. aminado ko na naging preoccupied ako for the past weeks.. and Lord..hooh LOrd.. just have Your way... we need worshipers... people who'd influence others what worship really is.. worshipers who'd take us deeper in love with God... we need intercessors... people who'd devote themselves in standing in the gap for the young people... hooh LOrd!!! Lord.. LOrd... -tears- You can do it!!!

We are not saved only to be instruments for God, but to be His sons and daughters. He does not turn us into spiritual agents but into spiritual messengers, and the message must be a part of us. The Son of God was His own message— "The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life" ( John 6:63 ). As His disciples, our lives must be a holy example of the reality of our message. Even the natural heart of the unsaved will serve if called upon to do so, but it takes a heart broken by conviction of sin, baptized by the Holy Spirit, and crushed into submission to God’s purpose to make a person’s life a holy example of God’s message. There is a difference between giving a testimony and preaching. A preacher is someone who has received the call of God and is determined to use all his energy to proclaim God’s truth. God takes us beyond our own aspirations and ideas for our lives, and molds and shapes us for His purpose, just as He worked in the disciples’ lives after Pentecos...

...guess what?! hahahah! my greatest fear... [sa ngayon... hooh...] ang himatayin sa pagkakabit ng IV [dextrose/suwero].. hooh.. natatakot ako ng hindi na makapag-kabit ng IV ever.. hehehe nung third year, may return demo kami ng IV insertion... partners yun.. nung turn ko na, tapos na kong tusukan ng classmate ko, tumingala ako, tapos after nun, nagising na lang ako na ang lahat ay nagkakagulo, nakahiga ako, at may nagtanggal ng right shoe ko.. hehehehe.. may dumadagan na fist sa chest ko at may nagtanggal ng boknai ko.. heheheh.. >> sabi nila, nagseizure daw ako.. at ayun. .i fainted.. heheheheheheheh pero bago yun, nung 2nd year naman, summer... may ret dem kami ng intramuscular at intradermal injection.. =) heheheh. ung partner ko [ibang partner], after niya kong i-IM [intramuscular], tumayo pa ko at lumabas, pagpasok ko, parang magbblack-out yung paligid.. i sat, and i said to my CI "ma'am magffaint po ata ako.." then tumungo ako... split seconds may naaamoy na...

When you have no vision from God, no enthusiasm left in your life, and no one watching and encouraging you, it requires the grace of Almighty God to take the next step in your devotion to Him, in the reading and studying of His Word, in your family life, or in your duty to Him. It takes much more of the grace of God, and a much greater awareness of drawing upon Him, to take that next step, than it does to preach the gospel. Every Christian must experience the essence of the incarnation by bringing the next step down into flesh-and-blood reality and by working it out with his hands. We lose interest and give up when we have no vision, no encouragement, and no improvement, but only experience our everyday life with its trivial tasks. The thing that really testifies for God and for the people of God in the long run is steady perseverance, even when the work cannot be seen by others. And the only way to live an undefeated life is to live looking to God. Ask God to keep the eyes of your spi...

pinagtyagaan ko tong basahin.. and whoa.. hoooh LOrd... this was an article from someone churva.. yoko na ipost yung introduction bout him eh.. it's not necessary.. and here's his article... a filipina reacted on it.. she made a speech [ata?]that won in a world competition in London.. the article from that someone who hates the Filipinos.. Filipinos.....*make me puke* (Art Bell) As we've all come to notice, in the past few decades, Filipinos have begun to infest the United States like some sort of disease. Their extensive involvement in the U.S. Armed Forces is proof of the trashy kind of qualities all filipinos tend to exhibit on a regular basis. You can see this clearly by studying the attitudes and cultural Icons of most Filipino Americans. Origins of Pinoys/Pinays: Are they really asian? Well we've come to accept the fact the filipinos come from a part of the world known as South East Asia . But the term " Asia " is used in the wrong way. You may notice...

Have i not commanded you? Be strong and very courageous. Do not be terrified. Do not be afraid. For the LOrd your God will be with you wherever you go. -joshua1:9 hooh Lord.. hehehe.. oonga noh? parang ilang beses mo na ngang sinabi yan sa kin... and still still still... heheheheh.. have i not commanded you...? being strong and very courageous is not optional.... IT'S A COMMAND... =) hooh LOrd.. when Joshua, finding security in God's promises, obeyed God [to be strong and courageous] he then mobilized the people... commanding them to equip themselves for NOW you will cross the jordan and TAKE POSSESSION of the LAND the LOrd your God has GIVEN YOU... hooh LOrd... if only we'll find strength and comfort and security in God's promises, we can lead His people towards His promised land.. pambihira lang.. grabe no.? NOW... take possesion of the land the LOrd your God has given you.. not delaying... hindi nagpatumpik-tumpik si joshua.. grabe lang LOrd.. kaya it's really a ...

just don't know what i'm feeling.. para nga kong adik... sometimes i feel good.. tapos biglang parang hard.. tapos ewan.. don't know.. sometimes i don't feel like talking to anyone.. sometimes i'm snob.. sometimes i'm frowning.. sometimes aah.. don't know.. hooh Lord.. -sigh-

This is love in the making. The love of God is not created— it is His nature. When we receive the life of Christ through the Holy Spirit, He unites us with God so that His love is demonstrated in us. The goal of the indwelling Holy Spirit is not just to unite us with God, but to do it in such a way that we will be one with the Father in exactly the same way Jesus was. And what kind of oneness did Jesus Christ have with the Father? He had such a oneness with the Father that He was obedient when His Father sent Him down here to be poured out for us. And He says to us, "As the Father has sent Me, I also send you" ( John 20:21 ). Peter now realizes that he does love Him, due to the revelation that came with the Lord’s piercing question. The Lord’s next point is— "Pour yourself out. Don’t testify about how much you love Me and don’t talk about the wonderful revelation you have had, just ’Feed My sheep.’ " Jesus has some extraordinarily peculiar sheep: some that are unkem...

seconds un... =p hehehehe... well, approximately ganun katagal akong nakatulog kanina.. from 6 pm to 12:40 am.. and wow! sa wakas nakatulog din ako ng mas mahaba sa 4 hours!!! hooh hooh!!! and ayun.. heheheh.. after i woke up, grabe.. muntik nanaman akong matoxic.. kala ko 4 am na nun... pagtingin ko sa watch ko 12:40... kala ko nagstop nanaman kaya bumaba ako.. hehehehe.. yun pala tama lang! matutulog pa sana ako kaso may report pa ko today.. tapos medyo eedit pa ang thesis... =) hooh! and i haven't taken my dinner! my goodness.. hehehehe... well, syempre first things first... =) namiss ko nang magdevotion na gamit yung bible ko.. lately kase puro na lang ako daily bread... [halatang mabilisan.. sorry po Lord...] =) hoooh.. ayun.. i prayed and asked Him to guide me.. kase may tendency nanaman na di ako kumain kase may gagawin pa... but after ko magdevotion, i ate muna, then ayun na.. hoooh! thanks Lord! =) ********* how's my duty yesterday well, that's the day of my life....