It's my birthday and this is my heart's cry...

Come like a flood
And saturate me now...
You're all I want...
Come like the wind
and sweep throughout this place...
You're all we want...

I was dreaming I was handling a CST class again then I woke up haha! It put a smile on my face... training... It's my birthday and I was dreaming of being in front of the class haha! Good thing I'm on leave tonight. I took my phone, I had 5 messages... then I checked facebook and replied to those who greeted me but for some reason, my comments didn't post... While I was browsing on facebook, I was thanking God for giving me another year... This is my 25th year and I can say, indeed, I am blessed... Blessed to have a family, few but good close friends, and a special someone who's always been there for me... I can't ask for anything more! I can't even think of a gift when RJ asked me what gift would I like... hehe but I still asked God for something...

I asked that He enlarge my territory...
That I may be the salt and the light of this world...
That He fill my barns so the blessing will flow and overflow..
That I may be a blessing...
That I may have more faith and experience more of His grace...
That my children will not beg for food...
That I may be righteous in His sight...

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Thoughts

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