hmmm it's really so bothering.. . I've been receiving messages from my contacts that they received messages from me? like buzz, links etc.. . i just sent a gm and told them that it's not me.. . then few minutes ago, my brother's YM account is online, i just saw this popped up setapart_for_Christ is now online and how's that possible??? i clicked my account and sent a message, who's this? haha.. . well, my usual YM has my picture in it.. .but this one has none.. . tsk tsk.. . i opened my yahoomail and opened the chat mode.. . then I typed a message from my brother's YM.. . it appeared.. . after that, firefox crashed.
I've read somewhere that everyone's miserable. They're just good at hiding it. I have been trying to find out why this new season seems to be a burden to me. Don't get me wrong -- I enjoy motherhood and I love my little one but something seems to be blocking my view of experiencing it joyfully. Callie's already 10 months and everything just dawned on me -- why I was struggling, why I can't see things the way it should be, why I felt ineffective and frustrated and depressed. I think I just had post-partum depression. I just got back from my US business trip and I just bursted into tears a few days after while singing Jesus loves me -- as if I'm telling that to myself. I'm grateful that I have a husband who listens and understands and encourages me that I can do it! I just realized the root cause(s) of what's going on after that incident. I was too attached to Callie that I don't want her to leave my site when I'm with her. I
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