Livin' only by Grace

hmmm.. well three years ago [i think].. it's just that something's quite touching my heart when it comes to missions.. it's like i don't know if God's placing a little desire in my heart for missions.. hehehe actually, deal namin ni Lord na aalis lang ako ng bansa [since i'm a nursing student and most of the people are expecting that i'll go abroad after i graduate...] kung sasabihin Niya na magmimission ako sa ibang bansa... =) but lately.. it's like God has been teaching me lots of things about missions.. i'm reading this book entitled God's foot soldiers --a compilation of stories of filipino missionaries.. hooH! and wow!!! it's just that my heart's been stirred up even more! whow! hoooh LOrd... it's like God is showing me what it's like to be a missionary... i've realized na ganun pala yun.. hehehe parang hmmm you'll go there.. tapos ayun... kala ko kasi dati, ang gagawin mo lang ay mag-share.. hahahaha! [my naivete] ...

hehehehe.. while i was watching on the spot jackpot kanina sa eat bulaga.. hehe i saw someone.. =) hehe.. and nagdalawang isip pa nga ko kung siya yun. .kase parang nagmature na.. and yes! nung nakita ko yung name, si neil nga!! hahahahahahah he's my schoolmate sa pcu, lower batch.. hehe and he's blessed.. nakapasok siya sa jackpot round.. and he won php 100, 000 with laptop.. hehe hehehehehe ang kulit lang. .kase second time na yun na ang contestants eh graduating students na college na.. hahahah! the first time inannounce yun sa eat bulaga, pinapasali ba naman ako ng kapatid ko at mama kO! kumusta naman yun?! e ayoko nga.. saka anu ba?! bat ko gagawin yun?! heheheh ayun... sabi ko kay mama hindi lang Php100k yung bibigay ni Lord! heheheheeh tapos kanina, ayun nanaman, sabi ng kapatid ko sana daw sumali ako! hahahaha ngek..?!?!? hehe

In that day you will ask Me nothing —John 16:23 When is "that day"? It is when the ascended Lord makes you one with the Father. "In that day" you will be one with the Father just as Jesus is, and He said, "In that day you will ask Me nothing." Until the resurrection life of Jesus is fully exhibited in you, you have questions about many things. Then after a while you find that all your questions are gone— you don’t seem to have any left to ask. You have come to the point of total reliance on the resurrection life of Jesus, which brings you into complete oneness with the purpose of God. Are you living that life now? If not, why aren’t you? "In that day" there may be any number of things still hidden to your understanding, but they will not come between your heart and God. "In that day you will ask Me nothing"— you will not need to ask, because you will be certain that God will reveal things in accordance with His will. The faith and p...

there's one thing i'm sure of... that's why i have to be silent.. =) =) =) =) =) -zip- nyahahahahahahaha

from L-R (parang ang hirap ata nun?) from me na lang.. mhe_james_tina_mariss_rio_rica_czarina_bebe_arianne_mich_cora_jo_krayst [yung mukang baliw na nakatagilid yung ulo.. hehehehe] _erick maan_peng_nadz duke_pepe_lem_robie_angelo_dhabs_kennon [yung maliit na lalake] ang nawawala sa picture, si victor! [nangangati na kasi siya, hinigad ata!] hehehe.. wala lang.. just checkin some pics.. [old pics..] hoooh ... i miss these guys.. well, they're the friends God gave me when i was in high school.. =) hmmmmm.. i've shared most of my precious, special, joke time, foolish [haha!] moments with them.. hehehehehehe... they've seen me at my worst.. they've seen my at me best [?] hehehehehehehe... medyo alam nitong mga taong to ang kalam ng sikmura ko.. [gutom?!] hahahahahaha!... well, they've seen me fall and rise.. they've seen me cry and laugh... they've seen me... yes, they've seen me! hehehehehehe... hmmmmmm i've spent most of my "memorable" year...

[from L-R krayst, erick, peng, dhabs, mhe, rax, rica] hehe.. these are my high school friends.. if im not mistaken, this photo was taken last year, 2006... well, we always have our annual swimming.. yun nga lang, obvious ba? hindi kami umaabot ng 25! hahahahahahaha!!! hmmmp! miss you guys!

hehehe.. just wanted to post some pics.. hehe.. para kaseng puro churva na lang yung blog ko.. hehehe on the lighter side naman.. hehe.. these are my thesis groupmates.. after gathering data from alfonso and mendez.. kahapon to.. hehehe and nakita pa naming nagsshooting yung asian treasures sa palocpoc, mendez.. hehe.. these are my thesis mates: camille [the one with the braces..] juno [the only guy] blanche [yung chinita rin] and mhe [the most beautiful hahahah! joke lang!] trippings lang.. sa baba ng starbucks... hehehehe sa tapat.. heheh.. para daw halatang nagstarbucks kami... ininjan kasi kami ng mga kagroup namin sa duty.. hehehehehehehe grabe to.. kahapon..hooh! si juno, student lang license niyan.. pero car nila yung ginamit namin papuntang alfonso.. hooH! di pa nagpaalam na magsstarbucks sa parents niya... di kase siya pinapayagan magdrive sa highway.. pambihira! heheheheheh hoooh! di ba pag student lang license dapat may kasamang prof driver.. ? heheheh ayun..hehehe sorry Lor...

hehehehe.. i've long been waiting for pictures pero ito lang nakuha ko.. hmp! tagal kase magupload ni krayst.. hehehe swimming namin nung may 12-13 sa Villa Julia. kahit 6 lang kami [hmp!] masaya naman..hehehehehehehehe from L-R teena, krayst [with the cap], mich, mhe, erick, maan hehe.. mga wala pang tulog yan.. ako lang ata ang nakatulog ng marami! hehehehe miss you guys!

i'm just thankful... seeing God work in my life... right now... not allowing me to rush into things... yung feeling na alam mong you're only living by His grace alone.. yung you know it by heart kase naeexperience mo.. =) sarap lang ng feeling... hoooh Lord.. thank YOu! i praise Him kase ganun Niya na lang inaayos yung little pieces ng life ko... =) yung tipong even in this area.. dapat ayos.. dapat you're not rushing.. dapat you're waiting... and whoa.... grabe lang.. so much grace.. =j so much grace.. mercy and grace.. =j hooh Lord! thank You LOrd.. =) hoooh! just looking forward for more of You... =) and less of me... =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

she brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. -proverbs 31:12 few years ago, i've realized that indeed, you should do good things to the one God has been preparing for you... =) you should honor him even though you haven't seen him or haven't met him yet... you should be faithful to him though you haven't known him yet.. hehehehe and whoa.. just early this morning.. He gave me another revelation.. doing good to him is not just like that... it also entails not bringing him harm... =) -- not distracting him in any way possible.. not doing anything that will lead him to sin... =) and whoa LOrd.. i'm just thankful that You're teaching me that.. sorry if at times i'm impulsive... =) buti na lang You won't let me.. and buti na lang.. he wants that also... =) i'm blessed coz it's him.. and i'm thankful coz YOU wont allow it.. =) hooh LOrd.. a friend shared me her somewhat motto.. hehehehe and i liked it.. =) here's what it says.. i...

this is one of the soundtracks in the movie facing the giants... sung by ana laura.. hehehehe ang scene dito, yung asawa ni coach, haha.. she's really pregnant.. kaso parang may kung anong nagkamali na ang result is hindi nanaman... pero she prayed.. and told God that she will still love Him no matter what.. =) The secret of life is letting go The secret of love is letting it show In all that I do, in all that I say Right here in this moment The power of prayer Is in the humble cry The power of change Is in giving my life And laying down Down at your feet Right here in this moment Take my heart, take my soul I surrender everything to your control And let all that is within lift up to you and say I am yours and yours alone, completely This journey of life, is a search for truth This journey of faith, is following you Every step of the way, through the joy and the pain Right here in this moment Take my heart, take my soul I surrender everything to your control And let all that is wit...

it just dawned on me that i'm not the only person undergoing this struggle.. hahahahahahaha!! hehehehe.. and whoa... God just impressed something in my heart... if WE [my co-young people who are undergoing this struggle] will just sacrifice a bit.. and die daily... become selfless instead of selfish... if we will act differently this time... the next generation will be different.. if we will just embrace the joy of sacrificing our lives.. our own desires... we will see change... in this generation.. God has called us to become a pure generation.. and purity is tested here... in this battlefield... if we will just learn how to stand.. and DIE... we're gonna see Him moving.. and moving mightily... aren't you tired being a bench sitter...? it's now time to become historymakers!!! hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh! to those who are struggling because they are turning 20... or because they are already 20.... DIE.... die... DiE... =) sacrifice... for the next generation... =) ...

DIE IN THE FLESH!!! hoooooooooooooooooooooooh Lord... by Your grace.. by Your mercy and grace... =)

=j there are days when i feel the best of me is ready to begin then there are days when i feel i'm letting go soarin at the wind but i've learned in laughter or in pain how to survive.. i get on my knees.. i get on my knees.. there i am before the Love that changes me see i don't know how but there's power when i'm on my knees... actually ang title ng song na to ai hindi still standin... just felt like singin it..

something peaceful na lang... =) hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh! something that gives me peace.. surely .. i'm sure that's from God... =) everything will be beautiful in His time... =) it shall come to pass... =) hooh Lord... increase my faith.. i just want to let go and let God... =)

that's what God has been impressing in my heart... it's like i'm traveling a road that i have to make good this time.. i have to do what's right or else... yung susunod sa min mapapahamak din.. just felt like i'm really in a battlefield wherein i have to be equipped so that when "that' day comes, i'm equipped... hoooh... ***************** JUST BOTHERED... bout some people.. well... not that i'm already concluding... pero i just don't want to hurt anyone... just don't want others to feel bad.. just don't want other people to get hurt because of me... or anything.. hooooooh... Lord... i don't want to be bothered in this area.. i just want to lay it underneath Your feet... i don't want to get confused... but also Lord, i don't wanna hurt anyone.. will You please talk to that person...? and speak to him... i don't know what Your will is.. but hooooh Lord... i want to make good this time... Your way.. hoooh Lord...

I STILL BELIEVE Scattered words and empty thoughts Seem to pour from my heart I've never felt so torn before Seems i dont know where to start But its now i feel your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in your truth I still believe in your holy word Even when I dont see I still believe Though the questions still fog up my mind With promises i still seem to bear Even when answers slowly unwind It's my heart I see you prepare But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain The only place I can go is into your arms Where I throw to you my feeble prayers in brokeness I can see that this is your will for me Help me to know you are near *** YOUR LOVE IS EXTRAVAGANT Your love is extravagant Your friendship, it is intimate I feel like moving to the rhythm of Your grace Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place Your love is extravagant Chorus: Spread wid...

I could live life alone And never fill the longings of my heart The healing warmth of someone's arms And I could live without dreams And never know the thrill of what could be With every star so far and out of reach I could live without many things And I could carry on, but... I couldn't face my life tomorrow Without Your hope in my heart I know I can't live a day without You Lord, there's no night and there's no morning Without Your loving arms to hold me You're the heartbeat of all I do I can't live a day without You I could travel the world See all the wonders beautiful and new They'd only make me think of You And I could have all life offers Riches that were far beyond compare To grant my every wish without a care Oh, I could do anything, oh yes But if You weren't in it all... Jesus, I live because You live You're like the air I breathe Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give You're everything to me

hehehehehehehe... di ko alam ippost ko ano ba yan..? pero i want to post something. hmp hehehehe ayun lang...

just received this e-mail from Jrev... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!! You are invited for a "JRev NAZIRITE Camp" May 27 - 29 2007 At YWAM Base, Youth With A Mission Training Center 1 Maryhills, Loakan Proper, Baguio City Camp Fee : P 2,000.00 (Includes: Transportation, Food & Lodging) Topics: * What is a Nazirite? What is a Nazirite vow? How does it affect us today? * "Three (3) Big H" – Hunger, Humility & Holiness * Fasted Lifestyle – Prayer & Fasting * Bow & Arrow – Coming together of Two Generations * Generational Transfer waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! hooooooooooooooooooooooh!! gusto ko sumama LOrd!!!!!!!!

this is a nice game.. hmm.. daming matututunan... [not because it's a mind game.. hehehehe] but it's an arrow game... arrow game... you have to hit the required balloons and ang dami kong natututunan sa pag-hit... sometimes nakakainis kase ang hirap kunin ng right angle... minsan your angle is right but the strength ng pag-pull ng bow is not enough... sometimes sobra...!!! arrrgggh! and sometimes parang after 2 try agains ayoko na!!! hoooh.. pero after finishing a stage na mahirap, parang you'll experience whow.. kase there was a stage na parang ang daming balloons na pag na-hit mo, three arrows yung lalabas sayo so you'll be able to hit more.. ahehehe.. and there was a stage na naubos ko yung balloons! and there was a stage din na kala mo madali na kase straight, pero di pala.. and there is a stage na sobrang hirap!!! hanggang ngayon di pa rin ako nakakaalis.. kase kung san-san tumatama yung arrow!! madalas sa bakal!! arrrrgh! to relate it spiritually... hmmmm... somet...

So I'm never gonna stop never gonna stop Lifting up my hands to You, lifting up my heart. When the last day comes and goes and time will be no more I'll be praising You. No I'll never let it end I'll just begin it all again Shouts of thankfulness and love I'm always gonna give. A thousand years from now, before Your throne of grace and pow'r I'll be praising You.

i just don't know.. hmmm hehehehehe i don't know what He's up to.. just don't know what He wants me to do... just don't know what He wants to do through me... but i'm thankful.. thankful because everything is under His control... everything is in His hands... = j everything will be beautiful in His time... -sigh- =] i just don't know.. i don't know why i prayed for the one He's preparing for me kanina.. hehe [though i know na dapat talagang i-pagpray..? eh kase parang hahahahahahaha! yung serious na prayer ko dun sa tayong yun about 2 years ago pa ata..? hehehehe or 1 1/2 naman..?] hmmm.. anyways... i just want more of Him... more of His love... and i'm glad that He's stirring up that desire in my heart... and whow Lord... i just want more of You so that whatever fear there is, it will be wiped out... =) [a friend always said, every opportunity to fear is an opportunity to trust God...] i just don't want to rely on what i feel.. if i feel...

my mom was looking for someone kagabi... sabi nia, "matagal ko ng di nakikita si ___" oh my?! close ba sila..? hahahahahaha

hmmm.. since pokemon lang ata ang game dito sa pc namin... i'm just finding some games to play.. wala lang... habang wala ang kapatid ko.. hehehe para solo ko yung pc.. hehehehe may ka-chat lang na.. hmmm.. hehehehe joke lang..

ang aga kong nagising ngayon.. hehe.. before 7 pa lang gising na.. and kase, yung kapitbahay namin, she has to take her medicine through IM kaya ayun..sa kin nagpainjection.. wala kong duty this week pero parang meron pa rin.. hehehe and that' s kewl.. saka inuunahan ko na rin ang mga kapatid ko dito.. mamaya kase di na ko makakasingit.. *** haaay.. sa saturday na ang swimming namin ng mga high school friends ko.. pero gusto pang baguhin yung venue... adik talaga yung mga yun kahit kelan.. hmp! pag ako nainis di na lang ako sasama.. haaaaay *** hard.. i just don't feel anything lately... i dunno..

hehe.. can't find any title that will suit this... kanina [mga 3rd service] upon feeling what i've felt, naisip kong iblog yun... and ang title, "who's to blame..?" hehehehe just felt guilty.. hmmm.. heheheheh we were praising and worshiping GOd kaninang 3rd service sa harap. and hmmmm... hmmm... i just felt like the YA wants to dance.. parang they're looking for someone na magllead sana.. and nasa second row ako.. i can't come forward.. dunno..? shy? ewan.. and i just felt like the dancers should usher us in dancing..! parang gusto kong magreklamo.. -sigh- parang Lord... can't they feel that the people wants to dance..? can't they feel the leading of Your Holy Spirit..? hindi ba mas masarap magpuri sa Yo na nakikita mo yung mga tao na nagsasayaw din..? parang you're leading them to dance like you do..? ganun.. hmmm ayun lang..

hmmmm.. hooh.. we've started our data gathering today.. hehehehe and it's really hot.. hoooh! ang init!!! sobra!!! kanina, sa imus pa kami nag-survey.. and whoa.. may mga tao talagang ayaw sagutan yung questionnaire namin.. hmm.. hehehe buti na lang medyo sanay na ko na narereject... just like when sharing.. hehehe.. diba most of the times you experience rejection..? some people go away upon seein you na lalapit sa kanila.. hehehehe and wala lang.. parang hindi ako ganun nahirapan.. though mahirap.. pero alam mo yung you have a peace in your heart that God will finish it.. kahit thesis pa yun... hehe and sometimes.. upon presenting your intent to conduct a survey in the municipality, you have to wait.. [kase wala si mayor.. walang pipirma.. hehehehehe] and minsan ganun din tayo kay LOrd.. we share to Him our desires... intents.. longings.. feelings... and we just have to wait... not because He's not there.. but because it's not yet the right time.. He has His time.. His...

that's the title of the movie i've just watched... -sigh- it's a great movie.. whew! it made me cry many times... and whoa... whoa... whoa... one man.. changed the nation... because of his intense love for his children... he did everything to get his children back... and that's because his motivation was love.. and so, all the children in Ireland will go back to their parents... =] whow.. one person... one person changed the destiny of many.. one person changed a nation... he just fought for what he's heart is crying out.. he just fought for his kids.. he fought for his rights.. and wow... even though he knew he'll be facing "goliath" he wasn't threatened.. he knew david beat him... wow.. wow.. wow.. just because of love.. are you willing to fight for your rights because of love..? are you willing to continue after the fall...? well, when they brought the case to the high court, they didn't won... but they didn't lose hope... [even though t...

hehe.. don't know what to post here... medyo ilang araw na rin akong hindi nakakapagblog.. hmmm.. i'm not feeling good right now, physically.. medyo parang mainit yung pakiramdam ng mata ko... tapos, my right nostril is not patent.. hmmm.. hehehehe anyways... just blessed kanina sa return demonstration namin ng BST [Balance Skeletal Traction] hehehe.. yung group lang namin yung hindi nakapag-practice.. kase gusto na naming umuwi kahapon.. saka ewan ko.. hehehe parang, napanood ko naman kung pano ginawa ni sir... kaya parang i know how to do it.. i'm a visual person kase.. hehehehehehehe.. and parang gusto ko ngang sabihin na e napanood ko naman saka nakuha ko na kung pano kaya okay na.. pero hindi.. hehe.. nagpray pa rin ako.. kase parang ako yung magsasalita for our group kung ano ba yung gagawin, etc.. e baka may makalimutan ako... kaya ayun... and wow! grabe! grade namin, 91! pambihira!!! hoooh! hehehehehehehe e wala pa kaming practice.. parang wow Lord.. ikaw talaga yun...