Livin' only by Grace

Christ within me He's in me the river of life Christ within me Dwells within me To Him i'm glorified... waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh... that's the first song that my batch in dance ministry danced a while ago... january 30, 2005 - first time na sasayaw ung mga trainees sa dance!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh... and ndi ako kasama dun!!!!!!!!!! grabe!!! kanina ngang 2nd service gusto kong maiyak habang nagsasayaw sila kase ndi ako kasama e... waaaaaaaaahh... =c pero ok lang.. on the other hand, alam kong God has a purpose kung bakit ndi Niya ako in-allow na sumayaw... and i understand that... ndi pa ako ganun kaayos... mas maganda kung magpapa-ayos muna ako sa Kanya... and nagsisimula na... haha!!! ########## dun sa sermon kanina sa service talagang tinamaan ako... whew! God made me realize na ndi ko Siya nasunod at [some?] areas in my life... haaaaaaaaaaaaay... pero ok lang.. ang galing talaga ni Lord kase kasabay ng pag-rebuke Niya, merong kasamang free tips ...

-sigh- i'm really blessed having a big bro.. haha! he's my churchmate and he's been a good kuya! hahaha! and im really blessed to have him.. nakakatuwa lang isipin na there's always someon who's reminding you to "be a good girl..." [fave line ata ni kuya jer yan e...ehehehe...!] nways, i know what to do.. pero nakakatuwa lang.. and just this afternoon.. grabe.. may mga ginagawa ako na alam kong si Lord ang kumikilos kase kung ako lang, ndi ko kaya un!!! i've decided to put a wall.. nasosobrahan na ang friendship ko sa isang tao... parang sobra-sobra na sa limitations.. and it's good to know na maaga pa lang, nag-move na si Lord! hahaha! i'm really blessed!

[more to go...?] haha.. ito lang ang nasabi ko kanina after i've realized that i'm done with the trial that passed by me.. it feels so good kase alam kong it's God's grace that's why i survived! =) grabe!!! sobrang kanina ko lang narealize un?! im really slow... but i'm very thankful kase ang daming tinuro sa kin ni Lord dun sa bagyo na un.. [actually, ulan lang pala...! sisiw!] hahahahaha!!! sobrang grabe talaga si Lord! always on-line pag kailangan mo...never busy... at ndi mo na kailangan pang magdial o mag-text... just spill it all out..kung ano mang gusto mong sabihin... and all ears Siyang makikinig sayo! [un ang nangyari sa kin kaninang madaling araw!!! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy... but it feels so good and so great!!! kase si Lord e... You have turned my mournin' into dancin' You have turned my sorrow into joy... haha! kahit ndi pa muna ako makakasayaw sa Sunday [sayang!] ok lang.. all things work together for good! hahahahahha! ...

I refused to be discouraged To be sad or to cry I refuse to be downhearted And here's the reason why I have a God who's mighty Who's soveregin and supreme I have a God who loves me And I am on His team He is all wise and powerful Jesus is His name THough everything is changeable Me God remains the same My God knows all that's happening Beginnign to the end His presence is my comfort He is my dearest friend When sickness comes to weaken me To bring my head down low I call upon my mighty God Into His arms I go When circumstances threaten To rob me from my peace He draws me close unto His breast Where all my strivings cease And when my heart melts within me And weakness takes control He gathers me into His arms He soothes my heart and soul The great "I AM" is with me My life is in His hand The Son of the Lord is my hope It's in His strength I stand I refused to be defeated My eyes are on my God He has promised to be with me...

la lang... i just want to post something pero wala lang... nakakatuwa... ehehehe... nakakaantok lang ngayong araw na to.... haaay... ang sarap kase ng full body massage... nakaka-relax... la lang! =p

How to make a mary-ees Ingredients: 5 parts mercy 1 part humour 3 parts leadership Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity Username: Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com

wala lang... ang hirap palang ma-issue... haaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy... although some people doesn't sense that... ang bigat... im not used on these things... wala lang... i need help... pero ciempre, no one can give me the best help, but God... just have faith!

haha! God is really gracious kase kahit anong gawin ko, kahit anong mangyari... sobrang wala nang ibang makaka-satisfy sa kin... i'm really overwhelmed with GOd's love for me... sobrang wala akong masasabi... i may not understand why things happen, what's it for, but surely, i know that GOd allows those things to happen because He loves me so much! Trials are there to make us stronger... and for our relationship with GOd to be deeper... =) right now, ndi pa rin tapos yung kung ano mang test na nasa harap ko... ehehehe... but surely, i know this will pass.. this will help me become a better me... ndi ako papayag na ito ung magiging hindrance sa pagsserve ko kay Lord! i may not understand God's mind... but i can understand His heart...! HE LOVES ME!!!

upon paying my tricycle fare early this morning, i was shocked upon looking to my purse... yesterday, i have a 100-peso bill and a 20-peso bill... and as far as i can remember, i paid the 20-peso bill to the tricycle driver last night... so i still have 100... but this morning, i only have 20 pesos... and to my dismay, i've realized that i paid 100pesos to the tricycle driver but he didn't even called me to say that i still have a change... [ akala ko kase, 20pesos na ung naibigay ko kaya pagka-bayad ko, umalis na agad ako! pero matagal bago ako pumasok sa bahay kase ni-lock ko pa ung gate... ] that's why im wondering kung bakit ndi ako hinabol nung driver... bigla kong nasabi sa sarili ko kanina nung nakasakay ako sa jeep, "nakakainis! meron pa palang mga taong ndi nagsosoli ng sukli pag sobra!"... then God impressed something...it's like, "Anak, ikaw din e..." -ouch!- ang sakit! ako din??? kumukuha ng sobra???!! at that very moment, i want to cry.....

sana'y masabi sa awit kong ito lahat ng ninanais nitong puso ko sana saan man, patungo sa buhay may pag-ibig, may pag-asa may saya, at saysay sana sa bawat sandali matikman pa sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya tara na! sakyan lang... malay mo... andiyan lang, andiyan lang ang hinahanap mo... -coca-cola theme song... la lang... medyo natutuwa lang ako dito...

IF GOD BRINGS YOU TO IT.... HE'LL HELP YOU GET THROUGH IT.... be still!

with all my heart.. i want to love You, LOrd and live my life each day to know you more all that is in me is Yours completely I serve You only with all my heart... wala lang... i just want to remind myself about this.. about my committment to God... na for the past week e medyo tumagilid ako... i feel really blessed this day kase i had the chance to go to church... [na nakakahiya mang isipin, nagdalawang-isip pa ko! you might wonder, "si mhe??? magdadalawang isip???! yes! tao rin po ako! at may struggles din!] grabe si Lord... grabe ung conviction... yung tipong tuldok lang o pa lang ung nagagawa mo, o nangyayari sayo nako-convict ka na... i really feel na ang dumi ko... na siguro to some persons, wala lang naman un... wala ka namang ginagawang masama... pero... the point is, "i'm enjoying it!' i really have to confess... buti na lang.. God is merciful and gracious that He doesn't give me temptations na ndi ko kaya.. and He doesn't allow me to ...

hold me in Your arms never let me go... i want to spend eternity with You... i really wanna say these words to God.. as in i wanna shout!!!!! i don't know what's happening to me right now... [a deeper level of God's silence..? o nagpapabaya nanaman ako...? tipong walang pakelam sa mundo..???] i don't wanna be like that.. i don't wanna be lukewarm!!! ayoko!!! but nothing's motivating me.... i feel that im far from God but i still feel His presence.. i don't wanna be far from Him!!! but i am the one who's turning her back...=c.... when will i wake up?!?!

=c.. no, i shouldn't be sad.. haha! but i can't help it.. ndi dapat ako magpadala sa mga nangyayari sa surroundings.. hahaha! pero ndi ko alam ang nangyayari.. i can't see God.. that's the consequence of having a divided heart..pero ngaun pa lang, i wanna thank God because i know that He's just molding me to become a better person... haaaaaaaaaaay.... just pray that the things that are happening to me right now will end soon.. i wanna have a pure heart! BE STILL!

although it's late.. uhm.. happy new year pa rin.. medyo, la lang.. i have a lot of goals to achieve this year.. and i know that by God's grace, i can endure anything! ehehehe... this year is full of hope.. knowing that God is with me.. and in me.. ehehehe.. it's great to know that your Creator loves you so much that's why He gave you another year to live by.. for you to learn a lot of things.. and this is also an opportunity for you to experience more of Him.. all of Him.. trials, struggles, and hindrances are always there.. but all you have to do is to have faith in Him.. God will never leave you nor forsake you! BE STILL...