Livin' only by Grace

I applied for the Trainer post few months ago and I passed... Now, the training for the Training Apprentice has started and it seems like I don't know what to do... I know I can do it... I used to handle groups before, talk in front of a lot of people with confidence and all those stuff... but now, it seems like Im incompetent... im not skilled anymore... i feel like Im on Moses' shoes... but I believe that He who began a good work in me will carry it to completion! He didn't bring me here for nothing! So please pray with me that I'll be able to find my strength and confidence in Him and that I'll be able to endure this season and see His glory revealed!

Jesus answered and said, ’You do not know what you ask’ —Matthew 20:22 There are times in your spiritual life when there is confusion, and the way out of it is not simply to say that you should not be confused. It is not a matter of right and wrong, but a matter of God taking you through a way that you temporarily do not understand. And it is only by going through the spiritual confusion that you will come to the understanding of what God wants for you. The Shrouding of His Friendship  (see  Luke 11:5-8 ). Jesus gave the illustration here of a man who appears not to care for his friend. He was saying, in effect, that is how the heavenly Father will appear to you at times. You will think that He is an unkind friend, but remember?He is not. The time will come when everything will be explained. There seems to be a cloud on the friendship of the heart, and often even love itself has to wait in pain and tears for the blessing of fuller fellowship and oneness. When God appe...

. . . and I will give you rest —Matthew 11:28 Whenever anything begins to disintegrate your life with Jesus Christ, turn to Him at once, asking Him to re-establish your rest. Never allow anything to remain in your life that is causing the unrest. Think of every detail of your life that is causing the disintegration as something to fight against, not as something you should allow to remain. Ask the Lord to put awareness of Himself in you, and your self-awareness will disappear. Then He will be your all in all. Beware of allowing your self-awareness to continue, because slowly but surely it will awaken self-pity, and self-pity is satanic. Don’t allow yourself to say, “Well, they have just misunderstood me, and this is something over which they should be apologizing to me; I’m sure I must have this cleared up with them already.” Learn to leave others alone regarding this. Simply ask the Lord to give you Christ-awareness, and He will steady you until your completeness in Him is abso...

When you try to deviate from who you ought to be and what you'll become, it will result in chaos... But if you'll just be yourself and make manifest your God-given skills, you'll be able to do beautiful and extraordinary things! Because that's what you are. That's who you are.

Elijah went up by a whirlwind into heaven. And Elisha . . . saw him no more —2 Kings 2:11-12 It is not wrong for you to depend on your “Elijah” for as long as God gives him to you. But remember that the time will come when he must leave and will no longer be your guide and your leader, because God does not intend for him to stay. Even the thought of that causes you to say, “I cannot continue without my ’Elijah.’ ” Yet God says you must continue. Alone at Your “Jordan”  ( Kings 2:14 ). The Jordan River represents the type of separation where you have no fellowship with anyone else, and where no one else can take your responsibility from you. You now have to put to the test what you learned when you were with your “Elijah.” You have been to the Jordan over and over again with Elijah, but now you are facing it alone. There is no use in saying that you cannot go— the experience is here, and you must go. If you truly want to know whether or not God is the God your faith believes Him to...

He made His disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side . . . —Mark 6:45 We tend to think that if Jesus Christ compels us to do something and we are obedient to Him, He will lead us to great success. We should never have the thought that our dreams of success are God’s purpose for us. In fact, His purpose may be exactly the opposite. We have the idea that God is leading us toward a particular end or a desired goal, but He is not. The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way. What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself. What is my vision of God’s purpose for me? Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power  now . If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me. God is not working toward a ...

I was about to be transferred to a different account today... but I wasn't... i dunno why me but i was one of the selected few who were chosen to be transferred to a different account.. My friends were sad... but I asked God to spare me... and it was an answered prayer! Then my friend Kate, came towards me, hugging me, saying ang lakas mo talaga kay Lord! Pagpray mo rin ako... On my way to the terminal, those words kept on running in my mind... then it hit me... joker ka talaga Lord! Pinakaba mo ko para lang makuha attention ni Kate? Whew Indeed He's full of humor... He does things unexpectedly and He will even use you and put you in an inconvenient situation just to catch someone else's attention...  because He also loves them as much as He loves you! Isn't it sweet? =)

what to do Lord..? I don't know what to do... I can't remain like this forever.. . What do You want me to do? Where should I go? I need to have a purpose.. . and I need to do something... What is it Lord?

yeah.. . feelin' empty.. . but there's a good thing about it.. . my cup can be filled.. . just have to endure..

On this day of your life,   Mary-ees , we believe God wants you to know ... that God is there for you to hold on. Hold on to what is good, even if it's a handful of earth. Hold on to what you believe, even if it's a tree that stands by itself. Hold on to what you must do, even if it's a long way from here. Hold on to your faith, even if it's easier to let go. Hold on to God's hand.  

misunderstanding. inevitable. yeah. what else? i don't have anything to say at all. ... and I don't want the world to see me.. . 'cause I don't think that they'd understand.. . when everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.. .

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? —Romans 8:35 God does not keep His child immune from trouble; He promises, “I will be with him in trouble . . .” ( Psalm 91:15 ). It doesn’t matter how real or intense the adversities may be; nothing can ever separate him from his relationship to God. “ In  all these things we are more than conquerors . . .” ( Romans 8:37 ). Paul was not referring here to imaginary things, but to things that are dangerously real. And he said we are “super-victors” in the midst of them, not because of our own ingenuity, nor because of our courage, but because none of them affects our essential relationship with God in Jesus Christ. I feel sorry for the Christian who doesn’t have something in the circumstances of his life that he wishes were not there. “Shall tribulation . . . ?” Tribulation is never a grand, highly welcomed event; but whatever it may be— whether exhausting, irritating, or simply causing some weakness— it is not able to “separate us from...

We walk by faith, not by sight —2 Corinthians 5:7 For a while, we are fully aware of God’s concern for us. But then, when God begins to use us in His work, we begin to take on a pitiful look and talk only of our trials and difficulties. And all the while God is trying to make us do our work as hidden people who are not in the spotlight. None of us would be hidden spiritually if we could help it. Can we do our work when it seems that God has sealed up heaven? Some of us always want to be brightly illuminated saints with golden halos and with the continual glow of inspiration, and to have other saints of God dealing with us all the time. A self-assured saint is of no value to God. He is abnormal, unfit for daily life, and completely unlike God. We are here, not as immature angels, but as men and women, to do the work of this world. And we are to do it with an infinitely greater power to withstand the struggle because we have been born from above. If we continually try to bring back those...

there are things that you want but you can't have at the moment.. . and all you've got to do is wait. be content with what you have. be still. look up. He's doing something for sure.

there are days when everything seems so dark.. . you can't even take that step of faith.. . but you need to endure.. . and keep the faith. ='|

Fight in the position of V I C T O R Y!

’Let us go to Judea again.’ The disciples said to Him, ’. . . are You going there again?’ — John 11:7-8 Just because I don’t understand what Jesus Christ says, I have no right to determine that He must be mistaken in what He says. That is a dangerous view, and it is never right to think that my obedience to God’s directive will bring dishonor to Jesus. The only thing that will bring dishonor is not obeying Him. To put my view of His honor ahead of what He is plainly guiding me to do is never right, even though it may come from a real desire to prevent Him from being put to an open shame. I know when the instructions have come from God because of their quiet persistence. But when I begin to weigh the  pros  and  cons , and doubt and debate enter into my mind, I am bringing in an element that is not of God. This will only result in my concluding that His instructions to me were not right. Many of us are faithful to our ideas about Jesus Christ, but how many of us are faithf...

♫♪ There's a peace I've come to know.. .though my heart and flesh may fail.. .there's an anchor for my soul.. . i can say "it is well".. . Jesus has overcome and the grave is overwhelmed.. . the victory is won.. . He is risen from the dead.. . And I will rise when He calls my name.. . no more sorrow, no more pain.. . I will rise on eagle's wings before my God fall on my knees.. . and rise.. . I will rise.. . Just found myself singin' this song.. .  

Beware of isolation; beware of the idea that you have to develop a holy life alone. It is impossible to develop a holy life alone; you will develop into an oddity and a peculiarism, into something utterly unlike what God wants you to be. The only way to develop spiritually is to go into the society of God’s own children, and you will soon find how God alters your set. God does not contradict our social instincts; He alters them.    Biblical Psychology, 189 L

Citipointe CHORUS: Desperate Desperate for all You are Desperate to know Your heart Your love, Oh Lord VERSE 1: In the midst of confusion In the midst of my pain I reach out towards You My lack yearns Your gain VERSE 2: In a valley so lonely Where the shadows are strong You are my Refuge In weakness Your strength PRE-CHORUS: And when my world is fading away I reach out towards the heavens and sing And sing CHORUS: Desperate Desperate for all You are Desperate to know Your heart Your love, Oh Lord VERSE 3: A Savior so worthy Of all I can give Your mercy unending Your blood washed my sin PRE-CHORUS: And when my world is fading away I reach out towards the heavens and sing And sing CHORUS: Desperate Desperate for all You are Desperate to know Your heart Your love, Oh Lord BRIDGE: We will sing A desperate cry For all the earth To see Your light We will live Ours hearts on fire To see Your love And glory shine

When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, "Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch." Luke 5:4 When Christ teaches you something about Himself, He implements it into your life through experience. As the crowds gathered around, Jesus chose to board Peter's boat and teach the people from there. All day long Peter sat in the boat listening to Jesus teach the multitudes. At the close of His discourse, Jesus allowed Peter to experience the reality of what He had just been teaching the crowd. The crowd had heard the truth, but Peter was to experience it. Jesus put His teaching into language a fisherman could understand. He told Peter to put out his nets into the deep water. Peter hesitated, "Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing." Peter had been fishing all night, had washed and repaired his nets in the morning, and then listened to Jesus teach. He was tired. He probably was not expecting a dramatic encounter with God at a...

The joy of the Lord is my strength! I don't know how to describe this day.. . Indeed when I am weak, then I am strong (literally) because He is my strength and His grace sustains me.. . True enough that when we decide, His grace will be there. I decided to cover for two of my co-volunteers today for two services.. . It was a struggle between going to church and going to bed.. . But I knew I had to do this.. . I have to make time. . I have to choose.. . And it was indeed rewarding! Indescribable joy... refreshment coming from Him.. . This is the start.. . and I know I'll be able to bounce back by His grace alone. . .

I need it badly now.. . Hooooh Lord.. . I know this 'stretching' will soon be over.. . and this is training.. . Oh Lord.. .

Being born again by the Spirit of God means that we must first be willing to let go before we can grasp something else. The first thing we must surrender is all of our pretense and deceit. What our Lord wants us to present to Him is not our goodness, honesty, or our efforts to do better, but real solid sin... Once we have done that, the Spirit of God will show us what we need to surrender next.. -excerpt from Utmost for His Highest

be still.. . wait. Wait for the Lord. He'll come.. .

Without faith, it is impossible to please God.. . When you don't know how things will turn out, believe in your heart that He sees.. . He's moving.. . and He's doing His job.. . He's your partner and He will do it even if you don't (sometimes) do your part. But it's the hardest thing to do.. . yet the wisest decision you'll ever make.. . Soon this season will be over.. . Everything will be beautiful in His time.. . My hope is in the Lord! I am more than a conqueror!

I was in the mood for blogging a while ago but I lost it.. . I hope the title can speak for itself.. .