Livin' only by Grace

im almost 2 hours here sa virtus... sa may nicasia... why..? ndi dahil sa walang pasok kaya ako nandito at nagiinetrnet... [pwede namang sa amin na lang dahil malapit noh?!] it's just that may usapan kami ng mga ka-group ko... 1..[e mga before 2 na ko dumatin...ehehehe...] kaso, wala.. ndi nagrereply.. pinatext ko na nga kay erika e.. [buti na lang on-line siya..] nways, uuwi na lang ako..at least, natapos ko ung mga dapat kong basahin na mails... un lang..

as of the moment, im still under construction... still undergoing some struggles and temptations for me to become a better me, as to what God wants me to be... and I praise Him because He loves me this much that He wants to mold me into a person of worth and value.. right now, im facing a challenge... pero medyo nawawala na... ndi na masydong obvious.. 'cause i know God is with me and He will help me... i'll just share it 'pag tapos na... pag sure na kong tapos na...

this week had been a whew! haha! but it's kinda less stressful than the first week... [akala ko lang un!] even though konti lang yung assignments, andami naman!!! grabe!!!!!!!!!!! pagod ka na nga sa school, tapos may pinapagawa pa sayo si Lord.. [ndi po ako nagrereklamo!!!] im just saying what i feel.. haha! this past few weeks kase, i can really feel that God is stretching me... He wants me to do something and it's kinda hard.. but then, i'm very much thankful because i obeyed Him not knowing what to happen next.. it's just that i knew and i believed that He has a plan... and yes, He has!!! it feels so great to see God working in your life... as of the moment, i've been doing what i've never done before... and that's to share - share the Word of God.. how much He loves us... His people.. i never had the courage to share this before... but then, God moved.. and because of that decision, i can now maximize my free time.. not just studying.. but mingl...

actually, i just don't know what to write or what to say.... it's just that i feel like i have to write something for me to remember it... this past few days had been very quiet... i can feel God's silence.. a lot!!! as in.. and a friend told me that God can be silent because of two reasons.. one, it's because He wants you to realize something.. and second one would be that it's the consequence of your disobedience... thursday afternoon was the start of this silence... God made me realize a lot of things.. starting from what's really in my heart that He wants me to surrender.. even to the point that it's like a period or smaller than that... to the very thing that He wants me to do... and what He wants me to do is somewhat hard for me.. i don't know why.. but i know i have to.. it's not that i'll feel so alone.. [there's no reason for me to feel so alone 'cause i know that God loves me so much!!!] and so, i've decided to obey ...

i don't know why i didn't feel ok as i woke up this morning... i'm spiritually not fine!!! feeling ko ang dami-dami kong ginawang kasalanan!!! waaaaaaaaaaahh.... [which is really true because we are sinners..] but God is so great that lumapit ka lang sa Kanya, isang prayer lang hinihingi Niya, ok na ulit kayo!!! ehehehe.. ndi Niya isusumbat sayo ung mga mistakes mo... sins... and everything.. because He loves us soooooo much!!!! then parang kailangan ko talagang mag-fast.. pinapalo na ko ni LOrd!! kaya kailangan kong sumunod.. fruits lang.. [nagbaon pa nga ko e...].. ehehehe.. seems like i really have to fast 'cause i know He'll reveal something to me.. and feeling ko kase ang layo ko talaga sa Kanya... since mahaba ang break, [at every thursday na lang ata ako makakapag-ERS] andito ko ngaun sa ERS.. [nagbblog malamang..]... and then God surprised me!!! WOW!!! as in.. i'm very unworthy but then, ganto...? i can freely talk to robert without any hesitati...

as i woke up this morning, i've found another reason to praise God.. He gave me another strength! He added another day in my life.. for the very reason that He has a purpose... and He wants me t to share His love to others too... this day seemed different... dati kase, gusto ko talagang magbabad sa church... but this day's really different.. un pala, may ipapagawa sa kin... i've decided to go home earlier than what i've used to... ang paalam ko kase, 6 ako uuwi... so, after the session, i went to cm to check for mails... tapos naglakad lang ako... i dunno why... it's just that i felt like i have to.. un pala, may ipapagawa talaga sa kin... then i saw this old friend of mine when i was in high school.. i kinda missed this guy 'coz he's been a good friend to me... he somehow helped me on something... and right that very moment, i knew God has a plan... He wanted me to help that guy 'cause He's an anti-Christ... so, we chatted for a whil...