Livin' only by Grace

what to do Lord..? I don't know what to do... I can't remain like this forever.. . What do You want me to do? Where should I go? I need to have a purpose.. . and I need to do something... What is it Lord?

In a few months time, I'll be welcoming another year.. . I'm turning 22.. . Once, a friend told me how important goals are.. . She always has.. . When she turned 20, she wants to be like this.. . When she turned 21, like this.. . and so on.. . I tried to somehow do the same thing.. . but when I turned 20, I somehow screwed things up.. . *_* realizing that I can never do it alone.. . Now I'm turning 22.. . What's in it for me? I remember a conversation between me and a friend when we were still teenagers.. . " Why are you excited to be 20 years old?" "It's because I can do more -- like decide more etc".. . But just now, I realized.. . how I wish I was younger.. . (haha!) Not that I regret things.. . It's just that I'm kind of "not ready" yet.. . I don't know.. . When I look at the people.. . my young cousins.. . sometimes I ask myself, " So, what's gonna happen next? I'm not getting younger.. . I'm getting ol...

welcome september.. .and 114(?) days to go.. .it's Christmas.. . weeeeh! another year will come to pass again.. . ^^, just a thought.. .we still have 3 more months before the year ends.. .if you want to make things right.. . don't lose hope.. .don't even wait for the next year.. .start now.. . *** What's with September.. . it's the start of the -ber months.. . a sign that Christmas is near.. . but for me.. .waaaaaaaaah! - 2 more months and it's NLE already!!! huhuhu.. .(i'm getting nervous now.. .whew) - i'll get older (next year.. .) don't know.. .time seems to fly so fast.. . i always have this thought na.. . "i'm not really getting younger.. . tumatanda na talaga ko.. ." and I don't know if i'll be excited with that or what.. .=j just a thought.. . well what matters is.. .if you're doing what HE wants you to do.. .there's no safer place to be than to be in His loving arms.. .under His wings.. . experiencing blessings ...

I love donuts.. .^^, and just recently, I've been enjoying Country Style's donuts! A question just entered my mind yesterday on my way home.. .something about those donuts.. . Donuts are exposed to light.. . they are placed in the donut shelf (haha is there such a word?) but anyways, yes.. . they are exposed to extreme heat.. .but the chocolate on top of them is not melting.. .it melts once you took it out of the donut shelf.. . just wondering why.. . inside the donut shelf, surely it's hot.. . when you take it out of the donut shelf, it starts to melt because it's hot.. . haha.. .just wondering why.. .

and you call it laing.. .haha.. .seems like ito ung ulam ko araw-araw.. .kelan kaya ko magsasawa sa laing.. ? hehe

monay. just look kung gano kaliit yan.. whew... di ko alam kung matutuwa ba ko o hindi... hehe i've realized na ganun na ba talaga kamahal ang bilihin? hehe pero di ako naaalarm... parang wala lang.. hehe dahil ba hindi naman ako ang gumagastos...? nah... it's because i'm hoping for something more... ^_^ even if the world seems to be hopeless... or our country seems to be hopeless, there's still hope... and you can find hope.. if you'll just look UP! hehe i remember, dati, sa dalawang piso ang dami mo nang mabibili... and ang presyo ng pandesal noon na piso, malaki na yun... ngayon, monay for to pesos each na ganyan kaliit.. hehe di ako nagrereklamo.. natatawa ko.. hahahahah! the enemy can only try harder.. ^_^ kase kahit anong gawin niya, God's will will still prevail.. . ^_^ and the Philippines will rise... .. . just as He has planned... for His own glory... . minsan naitatanong ko kay Lord kung ano ba'ng sagot sa mga to... . corruption... . wayan... .etc....

hehe.. was reading my cellphone manual last night... and this statement spoke... The battery will be in a good condition after it discharges and charges fully three times... it's simple... God can't use you unless you're empty... He cannot empower you and fill you up if you're already full... you must be broken... empty... there should be nothing left... and you'll be in good condition after you're discharge and you are being charged fully ^_^ hehe

... is a good thing, but it is not the best thing. There are many things below it, but there are also things above it. You cannot make it the basis of a whole life. It is a noble feeling, but it is still a feeling. Now no feeling can be relied on to last in its full intensity, or even to last at all. . . . In fact, the state of being in love usually does not last. . . .But of course, ceasing to be "in love" need not mean ceasing to love. Love . . . is a deep unity, maintained by the will and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by the GRACE which both partners ask and receive from God. They can retain this love even when each would easily, if they allowed themselves, be "in love" with someone else. "Being in love" first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love that enables them to keep their promise. It is on this love that the engine of marriage is run: being in love was the explosion that started it. -C. S. Lewis in Mere Christianity...

God is love. that's it.. and for the past months... i've been learning this thing.. God's grace.. mercy.. and most of all, LOVE... it's just that sometimes, we forget to practice it... God is love.. that's His very nature... He shows love to sinners... to the sick.. to the prostitute... to everyone... if we ought to be Christ-like, we ought to practice love His way... not condemning... but understanding.. not rejecting.. but accepting... not speaking abruptly... but listening with your heart... people are not perfect... they make mistakes... you can't change that easily... it's just that no matter what happens, you have to show forth love.. that's what God does... that's what He did... that's what He's doing... loving us for eternity... can't we love our brothers and sisters..? accepting them for who they are..?

hehehe.. watching my brother do his work on plates [not pinggan, plates in engineering] makes me excited... wala lang.. hehehe i've dreamt of becoming an architect or an engineer someday [before.. when i was a little kid]... but then here i am... enduring and enjoying few months left for me to be called an RN... whew... ano kaya meron after this...? what's for me next year..? hmmmm

=) hehehehe.. sa dami ng ginagawa, ngayon lang ulit nagkaron ng time na mag-blog.. hehehehehe well, for the past weeks, i've been hearing na bumababa na nga ang value ng dollar... [PRAISE GOD!!!!] hooooooooooooooooooooh! heheheheh sobrang natutuwa talaga ko sa news na yun.. though alam kong most of the filipinos are murmuring kase sayang nga naman ang money na hindi nila nakukuha dahil mataas na ang halaga ng piso... nakakalungkot lang kase hindi sila masaya.. thinking na sariling bayan mo yung umaangat.. my heart's just broken na ganun na ang sitwasyon dito... =j kalungkot... =j and thinking that they're asking for a fair palitan..? hooh.. hay.. can't blame them.. it's just that i'm thankful that GOd's doing that to our country... =) umaangat ang Pilipinas!!! prayer ko nga na Lord.. sana... pag graduate ko, mataas na ang value ng piso para di na kailangang pumunta sa ibang bansa ng mga tao.. naisip mo na ba na minsan ka lang mabubuhay sa mundong to, malalay...

kanina, we had another day spent with the review centers.. i've nothing against going there.... hehehe it's just that sana nasa church ako kase may youth fellowship.. hmm well... habang nakikinig dun, these things came to my mind... kase ba naman.. arrrgh.. the first review center who demonstrated their way of teaching e medyo gay sila.. i mean, yeah. gays.. i've nothing against them.. i know God loves them so much.. it's just that ito na lang nasabi ko... Oh Lord.. may You have mercy on the gays... I don't want to see this world dominated by gays -- influencing /encouraging other people to homosexuality... I want to see guys lead because that's the reason why they are created.. and please.. don't let the enemy distort it LOrd... please.. let there be an intense disgust to homosexuality but of course, utmost compassion to them... Oh Lord.... another thought came in while they showed pictures of the result if you're gonna work abroad.. of course, you'...

was just reminded of something kanina.. =j hehehehe sa history, may mga countries na dumarating sa point ng dark age.. or something na parang magkakaron ng downfall yung isang place... heheheheh.. katuwa lang.. kase it also applies to us... humans.. sometimes we have this season called "dark age" na parang sobrang hirap makita yung victory.. sobrang hirap maging okay yung something... but one more similarity is that... after those periods, there comes renaissance... parang bounce back... biglang magkakaron ng maraming great things sa isang period... and same also with us.. i believe that after these periods of "dark age"... there'll be a breakthrough... =) hooh Lord.. **** If not for Your goodness If not for Your grace I don't know where I will be today If not for Your Kindness I never can say I'm still standing.. If not for Your mercy If not for Your love I most likely would have given up If not for Your favor I never can say I'm still standing... B...

hoooo!! BREATH-TAKING MOVIE!!!! hooooooooooooh!!!! grabe!!!! one of Mel Gibson's film.. and as i was watching it kagabi, i was asking God, "why am i watching this Lord?!" hehehehe [well actually, my brother rented that parang last month pa, kase he knew that i wanted to watch it nung nasa manila kami at my cousin's house... di lang natuloy... ka-touch naman... ; )] tapos ayun nga.. nung start, whoa.. it's really whoa... old age kase... hehe .. nung time na wala pang civilization sa mundo.. [medyo na-apply ko nga ang asian civilization dun eh.. kung ano ba ang pinagkaiba ng culture at civilization etc.. hehehehehehehe.. nagamit din! ; p] well, ayun nga.. it's whoa.. pero it's realistic.. kase ganun talaga mga tribes.. hehe... nung may binully sila, ang binigay na part ng nahuling animal ay.. hmmmm.. the private part.. at kinain naman ng loko.. then nasuka siya.. at ayun.. they laughed.. hehehehe.. and the next scenes were oooaaaah.... morbid... [syempre, p...

Lord.. i still don't know what's gonna happen to me... after i graduate. parang i don't wanna leave the Philippines... especially, i don't know.. parang nalulungkot ako pag naiisip ko na aalis ako.. and there'll be people that i'll be leaving behind.. waaaaaaah! ='c Lord.. hoooh ayun lang.. but i'm still praying.. and just have Your way Lord... have Your way... =j in Jesus name, amen.

hehe actually nung tuesday pa... [tama ba?] hehe and he has a gift for me... pretty cool huh?! it's pink! and it's hello kitty! haha!!! thank goodness it's a notebook and a pencil! hehehehe hindi ka ba nagkamali ng bigay..!? hindi ba para kay hannah yun?! hehe

hehehehe.. di ko talaga gusto ang history subject ever since.. pero every monday, parang puro history kami.. 8-11 rizal, 12-3 asian civilization.. and kanina we had our film viewing regarding mesopotamia.. hehehe ang title ng documentary _the lost garden of eden_ hehehehehe.. and ang kulit. hehehe.. kase parang sobrang overwhelmed sila na nagja-jive yung artifacts na nakuha nila sa history sa Bible.. [-wink-] hehe.. e kumusta naman? Bible nga yun diba..!??! =) hehehehehe.. kakatuwa lang kase parang some people kahit may ganun na, still di pa din naniniwala sa Bible... tapos ito pa, our prof asked [nung discussion na sa zoroastrianism], is man good or evil? who believes that man is good? [they raised their hands.. almost all].. who believes that man is evil? [ten-ten raised her hand.. christian siya.. hehe.. ako di nagtaas ng kamay.. antok kase saka parang wala sa sarili.. hehe] then our prof asked, why...? hehehe brave soul daw.. hehe.. eh nahihiya siya sumagot at first.. ganun.. nung ...

kahit school works pa yan!!!! hoooh! sa wakas!!! overwhelmed once again with God's grace and faithfulness!!! it's nearly 2:30 am and sa wakas!!! natapos na din ang NCS ko! hoooH! may dull moments pa kanina kase di ako makagawa ng pathophysio.. parang tinatamad ng magprocess ang utak ko! praise God..! heheheheheheheh pray na nga lang ako ng pray pambihira! and whew!!! it's done!!! thanks Dad!!! ; ) ***** Lord ayoko na po mag-cram.. hehehehe pero di ko naman crinam to.. it's just that madami lang ginawa.. kagabi kase [well, since it's already monday, what i mean is saturday evening] nag-overnyt kami sa villa sa orchard... =) hehehehe muntik pa nga ko maging NOD dun.. =) yung isang dance kase sobrang taas ng lagnat!!! as in.. hehehehe ; ) ayun... i was just reminded, of my being nurse.. and laging kasunod nun ang statement ng prof ko.. nursing services are for free... =) not that i don't want to give it for free noh.. natutuwa lang ako sa statement na yun.. =) naka...

God's love vs. Worldly love God’s love and the love of His children is forgiving, unconditional, and self-sacrificing, but you can be sure Satan will pervert that. Worldly love is shallow, selfish, sensual, and sexual, and Satan has sold that definition of love to the world. …Instead of taking from people, love them in a way that communicates thankfulness. Remember, God’s love is unselfish and thankful, but the world’s love is selfish and thankless. Truth for Today, John MacArthur --> it's just a great reminder for all of us... =j

have to prepare na for duty at 2 pm... hmmmm don't know what's happening to me.. =j hmmm kaharap ko na tong pc since 930? was about to do my NCS and yet hehe *nagpalit lang ng nagpalit ng lay-out sa multiply.. uploaded some pics.... *medyo inaral lang yung case ko.. *nag-blog *nag-basa hehehehehehehe have to finish our survey pa nga eh.. i want to do something pero parang hmmm ewan.... it's not that i don't have the strength to do it.. pero yung parang i'm not in the condition/mood of doing it.. hmmm ayun... hoooh... just don't like myself when i'm like this... =j