Livin' only by Grace

this is based from a true story... grabe lang.. they are that determined to be baptized... to be one with Christ.. taking the cross.. whew... kahit gano kalayo makahanap lang ng pastor.. pambihira.. whew... it really crushed my heart...

got this from ate gil.. You may not understand, but I am telling you that if you believe, you will see Faith must be tested and the sense of 'feeling deserted' is "the furnace heated seven times hotter than the usual" (Dan 3:19) Pruning seems to be destroying the vine and the gardener 'appears' to be cutting everything away. Yet he sees the future and knows the final result will be the enrichment of the life of the vine and a greater abundance of fruit For God's vision to be impressed on our hearts we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time. Remember, the 'troubled' surface of a lake will not reflect an image. Seeing God in everything is the only thing that will make me loving and patient with people who annoy and trouble me. Then I will see others as the insturments god uses to accomplish His tender and wise purpose for me, and I will even find myself inwardly thanking them for the blessing they have become to me. -excerpt from 

peter... redemption sample flash from here it's really really really really waaaaaaaaaaaaah!

today is my last CNM days.. hehe graduating na kase.. hehe and whoa... i'm gonna wear pink. hehe yun kase yung batch color namin.. -wink- well... it's just weird.. hehe di ko alam kung naging sobrang tahimik lang ba ko at passive o ano.. hehe.. dito nanaman sa e-lib and whoa.. instead of watching the volleyball game [which im very very very very fond of... because it reminds me of my high school days and my beloved 25k peeps..] andito ko sa e-lib.. hehehe was just reminded of high school intrams.. kaka-miss lang.. one week na walang ginagawa.. the cheering competition... [which i love the most..] table tennis thingy... [my favorite sports...] volleyball [as well...] hehe.. kaka-miss lang... last tuesday, we [my 25k peeps] had our 6th anniversary .. weeeeeeh! hehe.. hooh! just received text messages from my friends.. well, from erick, tina, mitch, kennon and james lang... =) but what struck me the most was tina's 2nd [or 3rd] txt message..hehe she texted lahat ng mga bagay b

got this post from mitch.. she got it from a word 4u today.. "I BEG GOD FOR HELP, BUT THERE IS NO ANSWER" Job 30:20 Here are some lessons we can learn from His silence: 1) SILENCE ISN'T ABSENCE David said, "I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence." (Psalm 139:7 NLT) You have to be very secure with somebody just to sit quietly with them. Silence can allow the development of an intimacy where words are no longer necessary . If you want to be that comfortable around God, then learn to enter into the silence with Him. 2) SILENCE TESTS YOUR TRUST LEVEL How much trust is actually involved if somebody's coaching your step? It is like a parent running alongside a child who's learning to ride a bike. In the early stages the child lacks confidence, but he's going to look strange at 50 if his dad's still trotting along beside him! 3) SILENCE BRINGS YOU TO THAT POINT OF LISTENING TO GOD'S HEART. [ just got this number

re-sched nanaman ang final defense namin for the nth time.. wuhooo! hehehe kulit lang kase parang yung mga thesismates ko naiinis na.. ewan ko kung wala lang ba kong pakelam o alam ko naman kasing matatapos yung final defense by hook or by crook.. hehehe nah.. by faith matatapos yun! hooh LOrd... **** just don't know what He wants to teach me.. i just know it's about waiting.. every answer seems to be "wait..." sa thesis wait.. sa bahay wait.. sa... wait.. hooh LOrd.. =) is this another level of waiting... ? or this kind of waiting... [an excerpt from passion and purity] August 17, 1948 - Silence begins to drag on my soul. It is a kind of waiting which hears no voice, no footstep, sees no sign. I feel that I could wait ten years, if it were not this waiting, this silence... ... was it necessary for God to test the fiber of His children for forty years in the wilderness? Wouldn't forty days have been enough? The process must go on.. and on... and on. John Buchan pu

[just wondering.. nakakailang post na kaya ako na ang naka-lagay ay e-lib?? hehe] met ate lynn few minutes ago.. katabi ko siya dito sa med-lib.. weird kase katabi ko siya pero we didn't notice each other... hehe camille is sitting next to her and when camille called me, she looked at me and said uyy!!! ikaw pala yan! hehe and i reacted the same way... hehe gulat talaga! and ayun... she just reminded me of the importance of prayer kahit na sa thesis lang.. whew! their thesis became the best thesis last year.. and whoa.. ayun.. every detail has been prayed for and God indeed has been glorified i know.. hooH! sarap lang ng feeling ng reminded that you really have to pray for everything.. every single detail.. and whoa!!! God is willing to help! =) ***** yesterday, was able to dance [once again!] hooh LOrd... =)

A thousand times I've failed Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame Your will above all else My purpose remains The art of losing myself In bringing You praise Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame In my heart and my soul Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame And the cry of my heart Is to bring You praise From the inside out Lord my soul cries out

from the past months i've been through this.. i've learned a lot from God... i don't know if other people realize that.. but one thing's for sure... i was really really really amazed at how it has been.. at how God has been faithful... =) God is gracious and merciful... Never ever think that you can do something because you already know how to do it or because you are convicted to do so... or else... -grin- Never ever judge someone... =) "what we need is an encouragement..." He still loves me no matter what.. He doesn't look at the flaws... nor the shortcomings.. He looks at your heart.. that little strength in your heart that says "Lord, i still want to love you..." when God answers your prayers, make sure you're ready... in whatever way He will answer it.. haha! [just like the way He answered mine.. ] hehehehe.. pero don't listen to emotions.. Patience.. God is patient.. so you should be patient to... Listening.. Not taking one step ahe

Helicopter Game try this one.. hehehehe ... this has been introduced to me by a great friend.. and i was playing this one... asking God why am i playing this game.. hehehehe... just wanted to learn something.... the instruction says, press the left mouse button... pressing... what's so important about pressing on... it keeps you going... sometimes you have to press intermittently... sometimes one press will keep you up.. but sometimes you have to travel at the lower side of the journey.. yet pressing on will still help you... =) when you press longer, you'll go up.. but it will lead you to a crash... -grin- that's why in our journey with God... let's just allow Him to take us where He wants us to go.. He's the one making our hearts obedient and stubborn [forgot the verse..] and there's a period wherein we just have to press a little to keep us going.. press some more to sustain... and press longer to move up.. but God will just allow us to stay where He wants us

hehe...yesterday, just had the best sleep ever... [for this semester...] i slept for about 13 hours [almost...] heheheh.. after my duty yesterday at national center for mental health, i arrived home at about 130pm then i slept at 2pm... medyo pagising-gising ako pero natutulog ulit... nakabangon lang ng mga 3am kanina.. hihi.. kasi ba naman, 1:15am na ko natulog kahapon tapos kailangang gumising ng 3am kase duty nga..hooH! ayun.. heheheh

and it all comes back to you.. la la la la la la la.. hahahaha.. natutuwa lang ako sa commercial na to... hehehe have you watched it already..??? hehehe ang kulit lang kasi and oo nga.. hehe you give a little love and it all comes back to you.. la la la la lalala..

Scattered words and empty thoughts Seem to pour from my heart I've never felt so torn before Seems I don't know where to start But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in your truth I still believe in your holy word Even when I don't see, I still believe Though the questions still fog up my mind With promises I still seem to bear Even when answers slowly unwind It's my heart I see you prepare But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain From every fingertip washing away my pain I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in your truth I still believe in your holy word Even when I don't see, I still believe Well the only place I can go is into your arms Where I throw to you my feeble prayers well in brokeness I can see that this was your will for me Help me to know that you are near I still believe in your faithfulness I still believe in yo

buti na lang may chocolates... they say that chocolates makes people happy... hehe not just the thought of you having a chocolate... it has something to do with the neurotransmitters in our brain that excites us.. and thank God for the chocolate... =)

are you ready... God is a promise-keeping God... He's faithful and His will prevails.. but what if your prayer has been answered but somehow it hurts... it's a bit painful... but that's what you've prayed for... will you trust Him once more... or will you just remain defiant...

. . . bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ . . . —2 Corinthians 10:5 Determinedly Discipline Other Things. This is another difficult aspect of the strenuous nature of sainthood. Paul said, according to the Moffatt translation of this verse, ". . . I take every project prisoner to make it obey Christ . . . ." So much Christian work today has never been disciplined, but has simply come into being by impulse! In our Lord’s life every project was disciplined to the will of His Father. There was never the slightest tendency to follow the impulse of His own will as distinct from His Father’s will— "the Son can do nothing of Himself . . . " ( John 5:19 ). Then compare this with what we do— we take "every thought" or project that comes to us by impulse and jump into action immediately, instead of imprisoning and disciplining ourselves to obey Christ. Practical work for Christians is greatly overemphasized today, and the saints who are

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"okay, let's get directly straight to the point... i appreciate your thesis but... " whew... few days left to meet the deadline for the thesis manuscript for final defense... well, this is the story... our schedule of final defense was supposed to be tuesday last week... and oh... we were not able to pass our manuscript so we asked if we can have our final oral defense rescheduled. and so it happened. [whew!] that was last wednesday... and to our surprise... the chairman of the panel said, "okay, let's get directly straight to the point... i appreciate your thesis but i can't afford to compromise the standard of our school... i appreciate the effort of your statistician but mali ang ginawa niya... [etc]... ano ba yung statistician niyo, professional of undergraduate..?" graduating na po sa october..." "well, we appreciate her effort pero hindi dapat ganito? may sample thesis ba kayo..? [etc]" [can't defend the chapter because they did

hehe... been talking to a friend for about an hour now... he's in canada and ngayon ko na lang ulit siya nakausap... ng matagal.. hehe dati kasi lagi ko tong kakwentuhan and i treat him as a big bro way back high school.. =) he's a level higher sa kin eh.. heheh forgot na how we met.. but anyways.. katuwa lang... parang whoa... while we were talking, he commented, na parang nagiging seryoso na daw ako.. then nasabi ko na lang.. well, i'm not getting any younger .. hoooh! then it dawned on me na, oo nga.. i'm not getting any younger... people grow... they change as well as they grow... and ni minsan di ko naisip yung area na yun.. parang i know that people will grow pero yung you're gonna have your own family then you have to do something para mabuhay sila... whoa.. that's really serious.. hehe he's getting married anytime soon [2-3 years] sabi niya... and whoa... when he shared what he's planning to do.. whoa.. grabe lang.. parang napaisip ako..hihi... h

He who believes in Me . . . out of his heart will flow . . . —John 7:38 Jesus did not say, "He who believes in Me will realize all the blessings of the fullness of God," but, in essence, "He who believes in Me will have everything he receives escape out of him." Our Lord’s teaching was always anti -self-realization. His purpose is not the development of a person— His purpose is to make a person exactly like Himself , and the Son of God is characterized by self-expenditure. If we believe in Jesus, it is not what we gain but what He pours through us that really counts. God’s purpose is not simply to make us beautiful, plump grapes, but to make us grapes so that He may squeeze the sweetness out of us. Our spiritual life cannot be measured by success as the world measures it, but only by what God pours through us — and we cannot measure that at all. When Mary of Bethany "broke the flask . . . of very costly oil . . . and poured it on [Jesus’] head," it was

for the rizal presentation to be saved.... *na-realize ko lang na ang dami pang gagawin..nyahahahahaha... >>have to fill up the guidance folder churva na binigay nung thursday.. pero wala kong maisulat... >>wala pa kong 2x2 picture... =) good girl... =j [hehe ang tagal tagal tagal masave.. buti di pa inaantok... =) haaaaay...] *talked to another friend... an old friend... hoooh ayun... haaay kagulat lang... it's just so fast... bakit LOrd ngayong araw na to... ang daming taong nagsasabi sa kin ng kung ano man.. he's the second one who revealed something na waaaah.. [well, hindi naman sa hindi ko kinaya... parang.. hoooh Lord...] but then, thank You for allowing me to encounter situations like those... =j hoooh may narerealize pa rin ako.. realizing how great You are in my life.. =) *=j hmmmmmm buti na lang minors lang tomorrow... at buti na lang nakapalaba na kanina before going to church... =j

=j hehe... para kong adik... talked to a friend few moments ago... =) heard the very words i'm waiting to hear... =) hehe wala lang.. para kong adik... though they are rebukes [they're sweet]... i've been waiting for them... i know i'm not feelin' well... and parang it helps me even more when someone rebukes me... kahit harsh pa.. [well... sino lang ba ang harsh mang-rebuke? joke lang!] thanks... you know who you are... =) hehehe ayun lang... it helps... i really appreciate it.. =) that's the second one... =) thanks to the first person who took courage and told me what i wanted to hear... =) love you guys.. =) GOdbless! hooh Lord... thank YOu for giving me these peeps... =) i may not talk to them.. but YOu're talking to them =) thanks Dad..

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